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i forgot i had tumblr

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Steve Buscemi in Parting Glances (1985)

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i should be happy but i’m not and i don’t know why.

i’m in a relationship, i have a job, i go to the school i want and i’m still unhappy.

i thought that with spring around the corner, and finally being in a relationship, i could shake off the melancholia that lingers in me. but i can’t.

i feel undeserving and ungrateful. the people in my life who care about me deserve to have someone who cares back. but i can’t.

why am i not allowed to be happy? why can’t i experience emotions like other people? is it because i’m queer? has something else happened to me to prevent me from being like everyone else?

i don’t know.

and i’m still melancholic.

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The final paragraph in S.E. Hinton’s, That Was Then, This Is Now (1971)

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That Was Then, This Is Now, S.E Hinton, 1971

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That Was Then, This Is Now, S.E Hinton, 1971

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everyone go listen to FallnAngel by Lestat right now

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he’s so everything

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guys me and nick rhodes are married

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i’ve been growing my hair out recently but i’ve been kinda iffy on it because i kinda think it makes me look too feminine but we’ll see i guess

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i’m in love with daniel ash

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first post so here’s a little introduction:

my names soren, i’m 16

i’m a trad goth and metalhead

i play guitar and bass

i love horror and my favorite book is pet sematary

my favorite movies are american psycho and the lost boys

my favorite bands of all time are alice in chains, tears for fears, depeche mode, bathory, and bauhaus