mneshan

[mneshan]

مُتعبٌ كمَن لجأ لأنفاسه حينما تنهد فلم تسعفه، كمَن يتضور عطشاً وهو غريق!

يضيق صدره بما يحويه، وينقبض بما يحيطه، تشدو الدموع على حافة جفنيه ويرقد السقم في ذروته، فلا هو بصامدٍ ولا بمنها��ٍ، كمبنى قديم متهالك ينتظر بعض الأمطار لتغسله فتهدمه.

[mneshan]

Just silence

Many times you have to answer, but you choose to be silent, is triumph, may you have a lot to say, but the words you heard came from the one that you didn't expect, triumph to not to lose that person, but you know, these words may hurt, these situations may be traped in your mind, keeping some pain inside your heart..

we live among what is meant and what was said, but what is the truth? that's what we won't know at all

Only silence dominates the atmosphere when we shouldn't answer and when it comes from the unexpected side.

[mneshan]

Horrible time

Really I'm tired, physically, mentally and emotionally, it's tough to make a hard effort for nothing, you study all the time, day and night, but at the end you had a stupid, horrible exam that spared out all your efforts, then you try to do more for the next paper, nearly you have no time to eat or drink, just study and destroy your health, among all these stupid informations, exams, GDs and above all a written OSPE, guess what, I forget everything I studied for 6 days, and the exam is tomorrow, really I hate what has happened and hate what is still happening, shit !!

[mneshan]

Nights to remember 🌱

[mneshan]

Horrible exam

I know it's normal to have a hard exam, but i studied very well to the extent that I thought there won't be mistakes in my answers this time, solved past year exams and revised well, though, there is a question beating my head down, now, what has happened in the exam, is that normal? I know that I am hypertensive of 160 for 3 days now, but is this a cause to not remember how to write or how to read questions or translate them? Is all what happens to me normal? Really I can't bear all what is happening, Will anything fair happen?

[mneshan]

There is a friend who stays away for some time, then for more time, whenever you try to get closer, he says that he isn't okay, depressed, needs some time alone, and is tired of communicating with others, but when you look for his troubles, you find out that he is okay, not depressed, having fun with other friends, talks daily with others and go outdoors with them, give interest and care to others, while you are trying to get him out of his troubles, caring about his feelings and sad for his sadness, all these things don't mean at all he is telling the truth, he just wants to tell you that he doesn't need you anymore, I just was a friend for a time and a reason.

Don't try to catch a "good-bye" waving hand, don't search for a reason, don't try to help, just stay away, watch, listen and smile when he calls you a friend, but don't wait for his calling, he doesn't care anymore.

[mneshan]

It's just a layer of tartar on the teeth. !!!

In fact, decay in the upper canines, incisors, on the right and left, and the first upper right molar, It's the 3rd time and I haven't finished yet, I think it's an ideal time for such troubles. 🫠

[mneshan]

Trees, but by my lens 🌳

Assiut University streets 🤍

[mneshan]

Sometimes You are impressed by tiny things 🪴

[mneshan]

2nd/7 day challenge

I need to finish

Respiratory 1

Respiratory 2

Cardio 1

Cardio 2

4 quizzes

1 formative

3 GDs

I discovered that I have just 8 hours before family medicine OSCE that needs at least 3 days just to understand, so I should study it these days, shit

[mneshan]

✓

✓

✓

✓

×

×

×

×

4 quizzes ✓

1 formative ×

I slept most of the day and wasted time 🙂

The first day I failed

7 days challenge.

I'm about to get exams on 05/09 for 3 months, so I have to study well to pass this long, horrible year, really, I'm not looking for any Estimates, just want to pass, but if God bless me with excellent, I will be thankful the most, I'm just trying to make some effort.

So, the first module is pediatric, I have 7 days to finish 15 lectures, 127 pages of GDs, 15 quizzes, 3 formatives, and some past exams.

So that I challenged myself to finish all that in 4 days within, revise in 2 days and make the last day as Reserve for anything remaining.

First day 21/09. Started at 8 a.m

Newborn 1

Newborn 2

Renal 1

Ranal 2

4 quizzes

1 formative

Case of neonatal jaundice

Respiratory distress syndrome

Murmur in infant and child

Infant with congenital heart disease

I hope to defeat my laziness

[mneshan]

7 days challenge.

I'm about to get exams on 05/09 for 3 months, so I have to study well to pass this long, horrible year, really, I'm not looking for any Estimates, just want to pass, but if God bless me with excellent, I will be thankful the most, I'm just trying to make some effort.

So, the first module is pediatric, I have 7 days to finish 15 lectures, 127 pages of GDs, 15 quizzes, 3 formatives, and some past exams.

So that I challenged myself to finish all that in 4 days within, revise in 2 days and make the last day as Reserve for anything remaining.

First day 21/09. Started at 8 a.m

Newborn 1

Newborn 2

Renal 1

Ranal 2

4 quizzes

1 formative

Case of neonatal jaundice

Respiratory distress syndrome

Murmur in infant and child

Infant with congenital heart disease

I hope to defeat my laziness

[mneshan]

🤍

[mneshan]

أشيـاء مبعثـرة

في بعض الأحيان تضيق بي للحد الذي يجعل الألم النفسي يتحول لألم جسدي، فأدخل في قوقعتي منعزلاً حتى عن نفسي، أرغب في التحدث وإخراج ما يثقلني، لكن أعود متسائلاً، لِما قد أخبر أحدهم؟ هل إن سمعني سيخفف عني؟ في النهاية هو لا يشعر بما في داخلي! وهنا أصمت وأحمل الألم بداخلي حتى لا أعود أشعر به، ربما أراه في ملامحي وجسدي، لكن يكفي ألا أشعر.

معظم أوقاتي تراني صامت، مُبتعِد عن الجميع، ليس الأمر تكبراً أو حباً للوحدة، لكن ما في الأمر أني لا أجد الكلمات المناسبة التي تزرعني بين هذا الحشد، وسط هؤلاء الأصدقاء المتناغمين، بينهم لغة حِوار قد لا أجيد مجاراتهم بها، كما أنه حقيقةً لستُ وحدي، لدي الكثير من الأصدقاء برأسي يرافقونني، رغم إنقطاع السُبل بنا منذ وقتٍ طويل، كذلك أنا أخشى الرفض، أكرهه، فدائماً ما تجدني أحاول أن أكون خفيفاً في تواجدي بقدر ما يمكن.

في حياتي، ربطتُ كل شيءٍ جميل و ذو قيمة بتواجد بعض الأشخاص حَولي، ونسيت أن لكل بداية نهاية، حتى وإن بَعُدَتْ، فهي آتية، بعد ثلاث سنوات مِن الذكريات الطيبة والأحداث التي لا تُنسى؟ نعم، فما ظننته أقوى الروابط كان أكثرها هشاشةً، وما ظننته الأكثر إخلاصاً، كان الأكثر فناءً، شوهني كل ما أحببته، حتى فقدت مع كل فقدٍ جزءًا لا يمكنني إستعادته مطلقاً.

تمنيتُ في كل مرةٍ اتأذى فيها مِن قولٍ أو فعلٍ لم يراعي فيه صاحبه مشاعري أن أكون مثله، فلا أهتم كيف يكون وقع كلماتي عليه أو على غيره، فقد أهتم لراحتي، لكن كنتُ أفشل دائماً، وأجد نفسي كلي خِيفةً أن تجرح كلماتي متبلد، فأرسلها هينة، لينة، رغم أنها أتتني بحدة السيف، بداخلي فيضٌ مِن الطيبة والإهتمام للآخرين وددتُ لو أنه شيئاً فأقتله.

يوم خضعت للجراحة، كان لدي ألم مزعج بعنقي، حينما شكوت لأحدهم ألن يزول؟ فأخبرني أني سأعتاده فلا أعود أشعر به، لكنه لن يزول، من وقتها وأنا لم أعد أشعر به كما في السابق، فقد حينما أتحسس بيدي الجُرح بعنقي حتى أدرك أن الألم مازال موجوداً، فقط أنا مَن إعتاد، هكذا الأمر في كل ما أعرفه، ما دمتُ أعود لأفتش عن الذكريات فلن أُشفى أبداً، ولكن، خمِن مَن أنا!! أنا ممِن اولئك الذين يحتفظون بالأقلام الفارغة منذ عشر سنوات لأنها تذكرهم بما كتبوه، فهل تراني أنسى؟!

الكثير والكثير يطرحني أرضاً، حتى لم أعد أعلم هل أحاول الوقوف بعد كل مرةٍ، أم أتسطح مكاني لربما تجسو الصدمات على ركبتيها هذه المرة، أنا ممتلئ بالتنهدات، والتنهدات مزدحمة بأجزاءٍ مِنِّي......

محمد السيد.

[mneshan]

Life is so complicated.

You may try hard to get something but you don't get it, on another hand you may get another one that you didn't think of at all, you may have much time to get ready, but once you realise that, you start Procrastination, until you become stressed and work under pressure, you may be loved and cared, in no time Events shuffle to be reprehensible and a person to avoid.

Life always changes what you believe, takes what you love, It shocks you with facts that are different from what you knew, like if it wants you to have faith toward the change more than any constant belief.

الحياة معقدة للغاية.

قد تحاول جاهدًا الحصول على شيء ما ولكنك لا تحصل عليه، ومن ناحية أخرى قد تحصل على شيء آخر لم تفكر فيه على الإطلاق، وقد يكون لديك الكثير من الوقت للاستعداد، ولكن بمجرد إدراكك لذلك، تبدأ في التسويف، حتى تصبح متوترًا وتعمل تحت الضغط، وقد تحظى بالحب والاهتمام، وفي وقت قصير تتبدل الأحداث لتصبح شخصًا مذمومًا وشخصًا يجب تجنبه.

تغير الحياة دائمًا ما تؤمن به، وتأخذ ما تحبه، وتصدمك بحقائق تختلف عما كنت تعرفه، وكأنها تريد منك أن تؤمن بالتغيير أكثر من أي اعتقاد ثابت.

محمد السيد

[mneshan]

Hello everyone, I hope all a good time

At first, I want to pin some broad lines on this blog to make it easy and comfortable communications with others

I'm Mohamed, a 23 year old medical student, like reading, writing and authoring, sometimes voiceover.

I'm here to express my own opinions and feel free to talk about anything that makes me more comfortable and authentic, to set my soul fly freely between different aesthetics and images that shape a warm life and Charming scenes, so be kind and helpful

Second, I am looking at making new friends, from anywhere in this world, just talking and exchanging cultures, benefiting each other to help our friendship grow so as too our ideas develop, so I'm okay about DMs.

I hope this blog will be a safe space for me and you all.

[mneshan]

Trying to be authentic

Taken by me 🪴