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ugh, i hate this so much, no matter how much weight i loss, this shitty fat still here 😞 i just wanted to have a tiny waist like thinspo girls… ughhhh i hate the belly and my fat arms either, can’t i just be… you know… hot??? this is killing day by day, i’m so sad 😞

also i hate seeing pictures from a time when i was skinnier, i just feel so shamed i got fat, i’m sorry i’m not a thinspo but consider this maybe a fatspo so you can feel motivated to change it, we’re all in the same shit here

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i have the hardest time distinguishing between a binge and eating like a normal person because to me eating like a “normal” person is a BINGE

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Good morning!

i’ve been fasting for 10 hours now, i’m feeling so empty and i love it!! do you also love this feeling?

My mama told me i look thinner today, i got so excited and grateful, but i still think i should work harder so i get even more!!

i had to wake up really early today, i went to do medical exams, for my pre-operative process. i know the surgery won’t make me thinner but it will surely make me like curvy, thin but curvy you know? i don’t have a lot of curves and i’m happy i have the money to fix it.

actual weight: 69.5kg (-200g) what a process!!!! i want to have at least 55kg… fighting!!!

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this was my day 🍂

i have eaten 1008kcal, at first i was crazy for it but i remembered i also lost 283kcal by gym and walking

that gives me 725kcal total, it’s fine, right?

i had 4 eggs today cuz i thought i wasn’t so caloric but i just searched and it’s almost 100kcal per egg 😐😐😐 what should i supposed to eat in the morning so i have less calories? maybe just one egg… idk, i’ll see and then ill tell you ❣️

i had 3762 steps… i admit i should try to have more… and also i had strength training

for breakfast i had eggs, tapioca (a brazilian lowcarb thing), ricotta light cream and linseed flour

for lunch i had a chicken filet

for dinner i had the same as bf + a tangerine and a peach…

and snacks were monster ultra and a lot of coconut water

plus 2l of water…. trying to improve it tbh

today i’ve had 69,9kg, let’s see tomorrow!!! i’ll show ya..

also tomorrow i have to wake up really early cuz i have to do some medical exams (blood, urine and stuff) i have to do it cuz i’m planning plastic surgery in the belly, the doctor will take the fat off the belly and put it on the glutes and hips so my waist looks smaller…. i’m so excited to be thin an hot!!! and finally skinny!!! any thoughts about plastic surgerys?

good night, see ya'll tomorrow ☀️

(my medicine is starting to make me feel on drugs so i’m sorry if there’s any mistake out there lmao i just got sleeping pills and i shouldn’t be typing)

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dahyun from twice is such a thinspo

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i’m at school rn and my friends are eating hamburgers and this is sooooo mouth-watering… i wish i could eat it but it’s so caloric and i don’t want to binge rn…

the smell just makes me crazy, i wish they didn’t eat that close to me, at least they’ll be fat and i’ll be thin and happy one day, right? oh god i sound crazy… have someone ever felt like that? i try to hate food but i still want it, that’s torture tbh… but i’ll starve

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morning sweeties!!! today i’ve seen the 69.7 on the scale, yesterday i posted that i had 69.9 and it has been 200g in one day >_< ik it’s not that much but if i lose at least this per day, i’ll lose 1kg in 5 days!! that’s awesome, right?

i’m having less than 800kcal per day total, i’m planning to have less and less each day.

now i’m going to the gym wish me luck!!! xoxo

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hey this is my diary rn. i just saw the 69.9kg in the scale just when i woke up, i’ve been in the 70's for some months and it’s so cool to see it low.

yesterday i got about 500 calories total. i want to lose like 10kg in 40 days witch idk if it’s even possible but i’ll try anyways food is not worth at all

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finally it’s over

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Uhhhhh

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Brand New City - Mitski

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what the fuck happened to me and why can’t i remember

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honestly I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for the fact someone would find my body and I'd hurt the people around me. I'm just so sick of this

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Why can’t we be friends, when we are lovers?

cause it always ends with us hating each other

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I DRIVE FAST SO I CAN FEEL SOMETHING

DRIVE // PALE WAVES

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UGH! // THE 1975

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two cuties!️