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Four Years - Take Two

TW: Fascism, Trump

First off I will say, I am afraid. I am afraid for myself, I am afraid for others, and I am afraid for the future.

Last year I wrote a little thing about how my rebirthday was and about how good things have been. This year I wanted to write about the total shit show that 2024 was but because this last week and a half honestly has made me want to relive 2024 I do not have the energy to. The current fascist regime in power seems to have a hard-on for making 1.3% of the American population’s life a living hell, I think maybe because one of his daughters came out as trans but what is to say. But now I wonder how long I will be allowed to be myself. If you were to tell me four years ago that I would feel this scared about the future I would not have believed you. I mean Trump again? But here we are with my rights already being stripped so those in charge can distract others from what is truly going on. I really hope in four more years I will be wrong with how dire it seems right now, but right now I am just fighting to get to year five.

I leave you with the song that has been playing daily for me for almost two weeks now.

Re-Gaining Unconsciousness by NOFX

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First they put away the dealers Keep our kids safe and off the streets Then they put away the prostitutes Keep married men cloistered at home Then they shooed away the bums Then they beat and bashed the queers Turned away asylum-seekers Fed us suspicions and fears We didn't raise our voice We didn't make a fuss It's funny there was no one left to notice When they came for us Looks like witches are in season You better fly your flag and be aware Of anyone who might fit the description Diversity is now our biggest fear Now with our conversations tapped And our differences exposed How ya supposed to love your neighbor With our minds and curtains closed? We used to worry 'bout big brother Now we got a big father and an even bigot mother You might also like And still you believe This aristocracy gives a fuck about you They put the mock in demockracy And you swallowed every hook The sad truth is you would rather Follow the school into the net Cause swimming alone at sea Is not the kind of freedom you actually want So go back to your crib and suck on a tit Go bask in the warmth of your diaper You're sitting in shit and piss While sucking a giant pacifier A country of adult infants A legion of mental midgets All regaining their unconsciousness

PS. Maybe I will write about how 2024 really was sometime. Just not today.

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So… I got a notification from the State Department at like 8 PM Pacific that my passport was approved, and I was quietly thankful and stunned bc my legal gender in Oregon is listed as X, or undeclared, and that's what's on my passport. I'm pretty sure someone(s) worked late to get the X passports done today.

I was already really grateful to whoever in the Seattle Passport Office worked late to get these things processed on the last Friday before That Man gets back into office... and then I got a notification that my passport shipped at fucking midnight Pacific and whoever got that shit out the door so it couldn't be picked up on Monday and like, denied and shredded?

They're my fucking hero.

[mistress-chan]

So… I got a notification from the State Department at like 8 PM Pacific that my passport was approved, and I was quietly thankful and stunned bc my legal gender in Oregon is listed as X, or undeclared, and that's what's on my passport. I'm pretty sure someone(s) worked late to get the X passports done today.

I was already really grateful to whoever in the Seattle Passport Office worked late to get these things processed on the last Friday before That Man gets back into office... and then I got a notification that my passport shipped at fucking midnight Pacific and whoever got that shit out the door so it couldn't be picked up on Monday and like, denied and shredded?

They're my fucking hero.

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It was all a fucking sham. Someone here called it: they'd be "down" a shortwhile, then Trump (the same Trump who started the whole idea to ban it in the first place) would "come in and save TT". Watch the only mass social media in the us not property of an American company get bought out anyways, and Trump to go in history not as a censor, but as a "saviour of tik tok"

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Initial Steam page for Galaxy Princess Zorana (still in development) is now available. Wishlist and follow for more news as it's unveiled!

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I wanted to finish it before Christmas, but I finally finished it and this will be my gift for this year

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Aight, so a suspect has been caught. In the next couple of days we’re going to be bombarded with a cavalcade of information about Luigi Mangione. As we start this period I want everyone to remember:

The killer--whether he is Mangione or another man--is a living, breathing, human being. He has followed people you don’t like, held beliefs you disagree with, and possibly voting for politicians you think suck.

He still shot a man with the blood of millions on his hands. He still caused an outpouring of rage that caused BCBS to roll back its ghoulish anesthesia policy.

Carve that into your fucking minds. Mass media is about to do its damnedest to remind us to hate each other, not the top .001%. Do not let them do this. Y’all understand what I’m saying? Here, lemme spell it out more clearly:

DO NOT FUCKING PURITY TEST THIS GUY, ASSHOLES!!

And if you see people fixating on his purity over the message he sent, call them out on it.

We have lost again and again and again on healthcare because we keep letting the rich divide us. Remember: the people united will never be defeated.

Edit: A couple of people have asked me to not convict Mangione in my post, and they're right. Mangione has been arrested on gun charges, not for the murder, and regardless of the charge he obviously hasn't been convicted yet. It's too soon to lay Brian Thompson on his head. I've modified the post to reflect that.

That said, what I've said here applies to whoever the killer is. As the media circus plays out, a lot of talking heads will be pulling out all stops to remind us to hate each other, not the insurance CEOs. Do not fall for their tricks!

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Remembering Our Dead

[TRIGGER WARNING: VIOLENCE. MURDER]

For years I have posted about this day, but today is different because I have never felt more afraid for the future or for my own safety.

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Hope is hard. It hurts. It disappoints. It backfires.

But eventually, it reaches back.

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Wanted to share the link: Nightmares from Nightfire

Just a note as well these are DRM free so the change of gathering data depends on the device you use and not the file themselves.

PS. Yes I am still alive, just a whole lot of life kicking me in the teeth.

Good day, Abigail,

I wanted to pass this along so that you might share it with others. You have had high praise for Gretchen Felker-Martin’s Manhunt and right now Humble Bundle has the ebook included in their Nightmares from Nightfire: 18 Essential Reads From North Premier Publisher book bundle with it supporting the National Coalition Against Censorship (I do not know if links are allowed so did not put a direct link in). All the best.

That's fun! I usually prefer regular old paper and ink books though because they don't gather data on me while I read them

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Sometimes I actually get things done

So as I have said in past posts that I am part of Anime Festival Orlando and well we decided to start a podcast for some reason. If you want to hear me talk about con going with other people who run anime cons why not check it out. I will put the show notes under the cut if you want to know more.

I am rather proud of what we did and cannot wait to finish the next episode.

https://podcast.animefestivalorlando.com/e/episode-1-the-new-threat/

Join us for the first episode of the Happy Happy Anime Festival Orlando Podcast Go Go Go! Where different members of the AFO staff come on to talk about what it is like to be on staff at an anime convention. In this episode, the AFO Crew talks about what got them involved with AFO and anime conventions in general. We set up the declaration of anything we talk about being an anime (because we are an anime convention). One of the hosts gets isekai’ed in, Misha’s Glossary begin, and we go over the pros and cons of going to either Subway or Domino’s Pizza.

Hosted by: Brian – Marketing Manager David Francis Diana Michelle "Misha" Underwood Morgan LeFay – The Countess

Check out more about Anime Festival Orlando at https://animefestivalorlando.com/ or afo.moe/links 

Misha’s Glossary:

Isekai (異世界) - a subgenre of fantasy in which a character is suddenly transported from their world into a new or unfamiliar one. [How we get people to join the podcast] Moé (萌え) - Moé is related the feeling of "cuteness" a character can evoke. [Welcome to…] Tsundere (ツンデレ) - character with an initially harsh personality who gradually reveals a warmer side. [As seen on this this podcast] Yiff - Not defined on a PG-13 Podcast [It’s pronounced like it’s spelled]

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As something that can only really happen every four years Anthy Himemiya's birthday falling on Feb 29th just adds to the character. When you think of it she is always just out revolution with the world, because she has already done it and so her only have a true birthday every four years give her that mystery just by a simple bio line. But there are far better people who could drill down into the deep meaning that Ms. Himemiya has being The Rose Bride. Just for those out there that need this remember.

Someday, Together, We'll Shine.

Happy Birthday, Anthy!

February 29, 2024

Reblog this with your favorite Anthy thing! Repeats allowed, multiple things allowed, fanart allowed, official art allowed, essays/meta allowed, fanfic allowed-- just lovingly place some Anthy in here and reblog it so that someone else does the same!

I'll kick it off with a couple things:

Yuka Yamauchi had an AMAZING take on Anthy in the new musicals and I honestly wish I could just get a cd of her alone singing the tracks-- her voice is gorgeous! Well, either that or a ten hour remix of her Anthy laugh, which is terrifying and yet somehow inspiring.

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Hoo boy. I remember when this video came out. You would NOT believe just how much Evanescence was the soundtrack to the early fandom. Pretty much as soon as Evanescence's debut, Fallen, dropped, aaaaaaaalllllllll the Utena fans ran to their writing programs to write songfics. Still, I've always loved the choices the creator made in this particular video, and despite being potato quality, I think it still holds up.

Your turn! Put some Anthy in here to celebrate her birthday! Uh, you don't have to write them up like I did though, I'm just yappy.

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This is my life regarding any gay magical girl.

I just found this meme format and you better believe I'm gonna start milking it dry bc of the amount of obscure trivia I know lmao

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For this WeebWednesday switching away from gay magical girls to well I saw this and had to share that yes they are real and I have pictures.

These were taken at the Museum of Pop Culture in Seattle Washington on May 2016.

I found myself having, not exactly an argument recently, but a highly opinionated conversation with someone who did not believe my assertion that once upon a time there were official Hello Kitty vibrators. With the aid of the Wayback Machine, I found this article, and thought the world at large might enjoy it too...

Here's the text of the article:

The history of the Hello Kitty vibrator

By Peter Payne October 4, 2004

Sanrio is one of the top character licensors in the world, having more or less created the business model of doing business by creating something that doesn't really exist and licensing its use to other companies. Sanrio produces nothing -- all their characters, like the Little Twin Star, Minna no Ta-bo, Bad Batz-Maru, exist as legal entities and nothing more. Their most successful character, Hello Kitty, or Kitty-chan as she's known in Japan, is now now thirty years old.

One of the many companies that license Sanrio's characters for their products was a Japanese company called Genyo Co. Ltd. Genyo made a wide variety of products, from bento boxes to children's toys to chopsticks, many with the Hello Kitty character on them. They scored big in the late 1990's with an off-the-wall hit, a series of Hello Kitty toys which featured a different Kitty figure from each of Japan's 47 prefectures, each representing something the prefecture was famous for. (The figure from Gunma Prefecture, where we live, represented a wooden kokeshi doll.)

In 1997, Genyo designed a product that would live in infamy: the Hello Kitty vibrating shoulder massager, which really is a shoulder massager (trust us -- it says so on the package). Sanrio approved this design without batting an eye, and the product enjoyed modest sales in toy shops and in family restaurants like Denny's and Coco's. It wasn't until 1999 or so that people began to catch on to the fact that the Hello Kitty massager had other potential uses, and with amazing speed, they started popping up in adult videos in Japan. The next thing anyone knew, they had changed into a cult adult item, sold in vending machines in love hotels -- after all, what self-respecting man wouldn't buy his girl a Hello Kitty vibrator when she asked him for one?

The emergence of the Hello Kitty vibrator as a cult adult item caused friction between Sanrio and Genyo, and Sanrio ordered the company to stop making the units. Genyo refused, since it had paid a lot of money to license Kitty for their products. There seemed nothing Sanrio could do, since they had approved the item for sale (see the official Sanrio sticker on the boxes). The answer came when the Japanese tax authorities raided Genyo on suspicion of tax evasion. It seems that some creative accounting was going on between the president of the company, a Mr. Nakamura, his vice president, and the owner of the factory in China where the units were made. All three were arrested, and Sanrio had the excuse needed to yank Genyo's license. They seized the molds used to make the vibrators and destroyed them.

And so, the sad, weird chapter of the Hello Kitty vibrator is at an end. The last of the Kitty vibes are gone, so now what will the world do for wacky comic -- and sexual -- relief?

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coming out as trans on other platforms: carefully worded statement, thoughtful reflection on my responsibilities as a public figure

coming out as trans on tumblr: SKIDDLE SKIDADDIDALE MY NAME IS ABIGAIL

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1095 Days Into My Life

Unfortunately I have not written as many actual blog posts as I would like, mainly keeping up with my #WeebWednedsay and other random fandom things. But today is a little different, today is three years into my life, my true life, a life I never thought I would live. Before I continue I will say this might get a bit deep, a bit personal, has trigger warning for mental health issues, and a lot of gay. If you have issues with anything lgbtqia+ or are a TERF please kindly fuck off. Good, now that that is out of the way, welcome to my life.

Let’s wind the clock back three years, I hated my life and myself. My father used to say before anything you had to love yourself and at the time I loathed myself. I could put on a mask to go to work, I would don a black duster to be who I thought was my true self, but I still hated who I was. I just thought it was part of having bi-polar disorder and depression, the feeling of always being on the razor’s edge of suicide just trying never to actually take an actual razor in hand. I will say I never committed any acts of self-harm which mainly one reason I never tried was out of spite for others. But now, I truly can say I love myself. How did that happen?

We need to go back a bit longer to see the start of this, that wonderful time of SARS-CoV-2 aka COVID-19. I at the time was working full time at home so the world shutting down around me did not cause me to have to drastically change what I already was not doing (being social), but during this time I did some reflection and saw that yeah I really did not like myself and needed to change it. And here is where my love of Utena just predicts things. I present to you THE EGG SPEECH:

If the egg's shell does not break, the chick will die without being born. We are the chick; the egg is the world. If the world's shell does not break, we will die without being born. Break the world's shell! For the sake of revolutionizing the world!

Now in the anime the egg is a whole different thing but in the lgbtqia+ community being an egg means you are trans but do not know it yet. You have your egg cracked when you figure out that yeah you might be trans. Which I kept saying for me never happened because for the longest time I said I was gender fluid and for a while used Ze/Zir pronouns but that has changed. See for a while I would do what in the convention world is known as CrossPlay, which is to cosplay a character that is a different gender than yours and well looking back I am surprised that it took this look to figure out that yeah I am girl.

Anyway, going back to why today matters, I decided to go talk to someone about what options I have for transing my gender and found a wonderful doctor who went over everything and prescribed the first dose of estrogen that I took on Jan 30th and damn did my body like what it got. I dropped the Ze/Zir to She/Her and started to go out full time as the woman I am now. 

Another thing that happened that day that I also see as a major sign that this was the right choice (besides my health being better, that I take after my mother and grandmother, and well not hating my life), was a person on YouTube that I liked so much I give them money on Patreon and here is the video:

Identity: A Trans Coming Out Story | Philosophy Tube ★

So thank you Abigail Thorn for being there for me in a very weird way. And I just found out she has a Tumblr account so yeah check here out here: theabigailthorn.tumblr.com

I am not going to say everything has been easy, I got fired from my job at the time for being trans, I have had the governor of the state I live in want me dead, I lost a favorite books series that I connected with because the author also seems to want me dead, and I am now the scariest thing to a conservative white male, transgender.

But honestly things have gone better than I expected. My family has taken it rather well, even those who I thought would not be as open to it have started to be more comfortable about it. The con I help with well they already had me wearing a lolita outfit all weekend so that was no big deal. My friends are still my friends and really that is all I can ask. I can say that I finally no longer feel weird saying that I am a lesbian and now I can be gay and do crimes. 

So for all those that think being trans is bad or harming others, or any of the other bullshit, please again go fuck yourselves, with a rusty spike. I am living my best life and I am finally able to look into a mirror and say I love the person I see and am glad that there are others that love that person as well.

Now back to your regularly scheduled whatever else I seem to do here.

-M

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Decided to reblog this for #WeebWednesday because of spoilers for both shows. If you know you know, if not, WATCH MOAR UTENA then Madoka Magica.

People who think Homura is evil would never be able to handle Anthy Himemiya.