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Me in elementary school.

I hate how often someone suddenly changes how they act towards me the second they find out I'm autistic. I'm still the same person you were talking to before you found out!

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"Rapists should be castrated!"

Me: Can we chop off Dick's (not his real name) hands too?

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Most my school life I wasn't severely bullied (I had two serious incidents though), but is it worth the mood disorders and bullying to have autism?

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Was What My Teacher Did a Gray Area?

Trigger warning: sexual assult.

I had this bully in 4th grade, we'll call him Dick.

Dick name called me in P.E., I had a cup of water after P.E., and I threw the water at him. I got in trouble.

Later on he would kick me while we were sitting at the desks, so I would kick him back. I got in trouble, and Dick was excused because his long legs made it an "accident". I started sitting with my legs behind the chair.

Then shit really started to happen...

We were in a group reading when he started to pinch my butt and rub my private area. I started to cry. I think my teacher took me outside the classroom and asked me what happened. I told her that he rubbed my private area, then she said that he would never do that.

Was what she did a gray area?

Later on I would sit in this weird position with my legs crossed and behind the chair.

I didn't tell anyone else for years because I didn't want to repeat the same experience with my teacher, and I didn't think anyone would believe a kid could do that.

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I wanted to be a skeleton to express my physical and emotional pain.

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I felt like a burden on society, no longer feel like one, and I'm still one...