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Where is his bra 🤨

I'm playing for the plot part 2

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Am I the only one who thinks about how impersonal Bell’s death was?

Like, from their perspective, the man who’d been their best friend for decades, fought alongside them, betrayed them. Even if they had some time to process it between the interrogation and Solovetsky, it had to have hurt.

Especially because he didn’t even give them the decency of an intimate death. That was phrased weird but let me cook.

It was just a bullet wound. He didn’t even give them an emotionally charged death. Not even point-blank. Adler was standing few feet away from him. I feel like they would’ve been more content if they’d been, say, stabbed or strangled. Because at least then they’d know Adler felt something towards them. But Adler didn’t do that. He downed them like he would’ve any other target. Quick. Disinterested.

Even after giving up everything, he still took more. He put them down, just like what he thought they were. A dog.

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So like the holidays are coming up and my brain thought up something kinda fucked up about Adler and Bell during like Christmas time like but if Bell didn't know yet.

Bell having no idea what to get Adler, but they think it'd be funny to buy Adler a bell. Like a hand held one and it somehow ends up looking exactly like the one Adler used on Bell.

Park, Hudson, and Adler all having the initial thought of "They know."

Bell just being like "I thought it'd be funny cause you started that whole thing." Cause I think that Adler wrote it into Bell's memories that he started the nickname because he did actually but he changed up the story.

OR

Adler buying Bell a bell, which is 100 times worse.

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Nevermind I figured it out. One of my drafts just never saved ueeuueueu

I feel. Like an old man. How tf do I get to my drafts.

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I feel. Like an old man. How tf do I get to my drafts.

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I made whatever this is while listening to Punish by Ethel Cain

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I think about the Duga Ending a lot. Not necessarily the more violent one, where Bell tells their allies to head to Duga to set the trap. But the one where Bell chooses not to, says Duga anyways. With no plan.

I think about that action of saying Duga, leading Adler and the others astray—the completely wrong direction, saying nothing and giving nothing away as they sit with Adler in the passenger seat of his car. How Adler trusts Bell wholeheartedly with the answer of Duga. His dog wouldn’t lie. Why would they? They would never.

Bell, who reveals after Woods words and Adler’s coaxing of the truth—if they lied. How Bell just wanted to see their faces of frustration, of anger, of emotion, but they just wanted to see it from Adler. Bell, the epitome of petty revenge with this action—the chance to actually see the arrogant and normally stoic man break. Only to see nothing. No anger. No yelling. Adler who only has a frown and tone to match his disappointment.

Here is the person, the terrorist that led you astray and purposely caused the death of millions just for the chance to see Adler’s anger—only for him to feel disappointed. More how one would feel and look after seeing their pet pee the bed, destroy and tear off your favorite bed sheets—not at the genocide of millions.

I think about the Duga ending a lot. And how even at the end, Adler’s pride at Bell lowered significantly but not angry. How Bell’s petty revenge tasted bittersweet with blood forming at their chest from the shot, with Adler’s scarred frown looking down at them.

I think about how disappointed America’s Monster was at his precious dog that was always supposed to listen, but bit back and decided to die like this. No assault. Just wishing to see their master’s true face. Only to see that their master’s arrogance and pride was always there, Adler’s mistake. His cocky attitude bit back just like Bell did—roaring confidence that the tool he made and took out a piece of himself to do it would betray him like this.

I think about how could it be a betrayal when Bell wasn’t part of the team in the first place. “You’re still one of us, kid.”

I think about the Duga Ending, and all I see is America’s Monster being betrayed and Bell’s momentary confusion how the monster was disappointed more than angry at their gall.

I think. And I think.

And then I think of Solovetsky. I compare.

And all I can see is their relationship always ends in a betrayal in some way or another. The taste in both their mouths being bittersweet, either with blood or just as a natural after taste of killing a piece of your mind or the one who created your mind.

I think about the Duga Ending a lot.

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Park is British, Lazar lives off of take out, Woods is a burger fiend, Mason's taste buds got fried on rebirth island, Bell is fed only kibble and benzodiazepines and Adler's diet solely consists of Marlboro reds. This leaves Sims as the only safe house crew member who might know how to actually cook

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Yippee I am a certified yapper on tumblr dot com

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Oooo that’s a really great take actually. LOVE THIS

I don’t have a long response, but I would like to pose a question.

Did Adler bring them to the cliff side because he had grown to care about Bell, or because—through the process of brainwashing them and giving them his memories of Vietnam—he felt that Bell was a part of him?

Was the mercy because he, in his own fucked up way, cared? Or was he symbolically putting his own trauma to rest, with Bell starring as the unlucky catalyst?

Am I the only one who thinks about how impersonal Bell’s death was?

Like, from their perspective, the man who’d been their best friend for decades, fought alongside them, betrayed them. Even if they had some time to process it between the interrogation and Solovetsky, it had to have hurt.

Especially because he didn’t even give them the decency of an intimate death. That was phrased weird but let me cook.

It was just a bullet wound. He didn’t even give them an emotionally charged death. Not even point-blank. Adler was standing few feet away from him. I feel like they would’ve been more content if they’d been, say, stabbed or strangled. Because at least then they’d know Adler felt something towards them. But Adler didn’t do that. He downed them like he would’ve any other target. Quick. Disinterested.

Even after giving up everything, he still took more. He put them down, just like what he thought they were. A dog.

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New kinda guy just dropped and I’m here for it

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Park and Adler have to scatter Bell's kibble on the ground because otherwise he'll eat it too fast and puke it all up

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”Queen never cry, Bell.”

This is so bad, did it with my finger on my phone, couldn’t wait til I got home to redraw this.

totally a them thing too

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google photos is so funny. three years since fish in da sink

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The way Adler (probably) just made up a scar story to fuck with Bell. 

In the story where he says he was attacked by a tiger, Adler follows up with “have you ever been attacked by a tiger, Bell?” (Thats also the only one he asks Bell a question to follow up with to my memory.) I am rather bad with tone, but to me his tone shifts when he asks Bell that. I refuse to believe that isn’t a reference to Arash and his jacket and he isn’t saying it just for his own personal amusement with the fact Bell is none the wiser.

I know its common knowledge just how smug Adler is about literally everything regarding Bell but christ can he be normal for just one minute!! The way he’s so confident saying things like this drives me crazy, i could go on foreeeverr about small things/voicelines like that.