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we all ugly to somebody don’t trip

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I feel heavy

No not in a way of being too over weight

The way that your chest sinks in but air isn’t fully coming in

I feel heavy

I feel like I dry swallowed a pill

No tears have yet to come

I feel heavy

My legs and arms don’t want to support my weight

I feel heavy

My eyes are trying to focus

My brain can not so I just zone into space

I feel heavy

My brain feels like it’s dragging my body down

All my thoughts at once

I feel heavy

My heart is speeding

But it’s not enough, so it’s dragging my brain down with it

I feel heavy

I feel my ears zoning into the black nothingness

Helping to drag down my brain

I feel heavy

My hands can’t hold anything

I feel them tingling

I feel heavy

My stomach is sinking

Dragging down the rest of me

I feel heavy

Every ounce and being of my life just hit at once

Every thought, every breath

Sinks me back into the hole I tried so hard to climb out of every night and day

I feel Breath

In my lungs I feel the air come back

I feel my throat

It’s not so rough anymore

I feel my arms and legs

They’re starting to hold me again

I feel my eyes

They’re drying up, the world is coming back into focus

I feel my brain

It’s starting to focus again

It’s starting to pull itself up

I feel my heart

It’s not racing anymore

I feel it helping lift up my brain

I feel my ears

They’re starting to hear the birds chirping

I feel my hands

They’re not tingling anymore

I feel my stomach

It’s not sinking anymore

It’s untying the knot that it made

I feel...

Okay

I feel

I will always be okay

I feel

As if these attacks will never end

I feel

Happy and safe

I feel

thankful for the ones I have by my side

I feel

Loved

I am

Loved.

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Reason why I look like shit all the time: I don’t look in the mirror because when I look into it I’m disgusted with the reflection I see.

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I got to meet Basement last night after their show at Reggie’s! They were fucking awesome! Put on a great show and we’re the funniest band I’ve ever met in person. HOPE THEY ENJOYED THEIR TIME IN CHICAGO!

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I got to meet Basement last night after their show at Reggie’s! They were fucking awesome! Put on a great show and we’re the funniest band I’ve ever met in person. HOPE THEY ENJOYED THEIR TIME IN CHICAGO!

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Got and made my kid a matching vest as mine.

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lawl

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If my kid grows up to be Stevo from SLC Punk!, I will be the proudest father in the world.

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SLC PUNK <3