Exams are successfully passed, article is in progress and thesis topic... Somewhere. There is my b-day soon and I am thinking that last time I celebrated it well like 3 years ago in my country, at home... With friends. And after - covid happened, borders were closed, flights cancelled and I was left alone...
Last b-day at least my digital design major's mate was with me but this time... I am alone.
Desire, Obsession, Fear, Hesitation, Self-hatred, Trauma, Frustration, Distortion. Standing on the edge of where our confusions have led us, we are gathered here. Wandering around with this unknown fever...
"Maybe I was destined to forever fall in love with people I couldn`t have. Maybe there’s a whole assortment of impossible people waiting for me to find them. Waiting to make me feel the same impossibility over and over again."
I'm not sure what scare me more, that you will never start loving me, or that I will never stop loving you. Too sad to miss you, too bad to lose you, too hard to forget you!
Yesterday I was too tired from people and just spent my lunch break alone. Thanks god, the weather was exactly like that - very snowy and cozy. And actually, in our building there is a very nice café.
Was happy to know... 2 month left. My korean internship is going okish