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just forgot the surname of a character from my first ever hyperfixation and i can feel parts of myself slipping away. i am mourning the loss of my knowledge and who i was at the time. i feel like im losing pivotal parts of what built me

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woke up at 18:45, have written 3 936 words of a new fic i had the idea for as soon as i woke up, currently 1:45am, going to sleep now! what a day!

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penelope garcia

she has sooo many problems ,, heart eyes

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it’s like i don’t even try to be happy with the ao3 tags im reading the second i wake up…

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one thing i think is that the marauders aren’t vaping enough in modern au’s.

like you’re telling me Mary wouldn’t be puffing on a strawberry ice lost mary? Sirius wouldn’t think a lychee ice elf bar compliments his outfit? Peter and his pineapple ice?

Remus would absolutely bully them because ‘don’t be a loser, smoke a cig like a real man’ as he should

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thinking about how JJ buries her trauma the most she can. she's someone so deeply afraid of vulnerability. and i think that we sometimes forget that JJ, at a very young age, didn't only lose her sister (which is already hard enough), but lost her support system entirely.

i don't remember the exact episode, but JJ's mother says "I got so caught up in all my troubles that I forgot there was another little girl under my roof who had just lost her sister. You needed me, and I wasn't there." Jennifer lost her family, all she had when she was only eleven years old. and since then, she's been caught up in running away from being hurt in any way, and hurting others just the same. because the moment people know, it becomes real, as she herself stated.

Jennifer Jareau is a woman who trusts very few people, even though she's someone so reliable herself. and why she's so reliable is because she had to learn to be since she was a CHILD. it breaks my heart.

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ik it makes perfect biological sense however i find it so so funny how my menstrual cycle influences what fics i want to read

like when i’m ovulating it’ll be the filthiest smut anyone has ever heard of,,, or pregnancy/kid fics that would never normally interest me

when that stage passes though and it’s the lead up to the main event it’ll be the saddest most earth shattering angst/whump ever… the switch up is crazy

shout out to all people who menstruate i’m sure this isn’t just a me thing

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was at a karaoke night at the pub and i kid you not i saw:

regulus and barty and evan dancing together

james doing a song with alice

marlene dancing

lily and pandora

remus being remus (sitting in a corner)

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This job will eat you up if you let it. So what do I do? Find a way not to let it.

AARON HOTCHNER SEASON ONE

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i just know sirius black has the craziest oldest siblings guilt ever and 100% convinced its his fault while also being hyperaware its not his fault at all

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me when im writing a fic and I look back at the plan to see whats next and its something the now developed character would never do...

where do i go from here

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Why do i have to write the inbetween bits in a fic why can't I just write the big plot points and the fall out of them!!! I'm here to make my characters suffer... that's the fun stuff to write (IMO). This is why I need to stick to one or two shots.

Anyway go check out forwards beckon rebound (pinned on my page)

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i’ve been so traumatised by the use of ‘to build a home’ in television shows that i just heard the first NOTE in this cm episode and tears sprung to my eyes

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season three gives us SO much of the iconic scenes like i’m three episodes in on my rewatch and already i’ve seen

- emily in the red tank top

- reid and morgan stuck in the elevator

- emily coming back after quitting and jj being unable to stop looking at her

like come onnnnn

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Just thinking about the intimacy behind a very soft and gentle "Let's get you home."

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Forwards beckon rebound chapter 2!

Sorry it's late! It turns out at uni you actually have to do work! who'd have thought???