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i don’t know if this will be in any way fruitful i am NOT optimistic about it but. if anyone knows of someone who used to have the url jimsrightsactivist who is/was in the homestuck & mob psycho 100 fandoms and goes by (used to go by?) the name zee. PLEASE please please send them my way i just looked through a bunch of old screencaps of our conversations and i got so wistful it hurt. i’m not exactly keen on putting my old name/url out there because i can’t log into my old account to like. purge it of its evils. so instead i’ll just say “hey remember friends or pho and karkat turning into a werewolf in a chipotle bathroom? remember goot roper? remember carptan camch or whatever the fuck awful typo i made that one time? remember snowdin town’s theme?” and hope that works for communicating exactly who i am LOL

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well well well. look who finally figured out what email he used for his old blog....

so, hi. the last post on this blog was from december 2016, so... i’d expect most of my followers are inactive and the few people i follow who are still active probably unfollowed ages ago, unless they never cleared out their accounts... but i thought i’d make a little post here as a sort of update and finally offer a means of contact

so. i’m freshly 23 years old now (jesus CHRIST). i’m not using this blog anymore, so i won’t be updating my bio/about/whatever to reflect that, but i’ll note i exclusively use he/him now. while homestuck is still constantly in my periphery (more literal than that sentence should be, there’s a dave strider vinyl figure in a bin almost within eyesight of my desk chair...) i haven’t really engaged with it in... years... other than a recent look at its unfinished japanese translation, seeing as i started learning the language a few years ago and got curious. i still stan aradia hardcore, btw, nothing in life will Ever change that

as you can probably (hopefully) predict from the fact that i was 17 when i last used this blog (and 13-16 when i used it actively) and i am now 23, this blog, uh... would not be a great reference point for determining what kind of person i am now. i won’t write it off as completely detached from my present identity, and i’m not saying this because there’s some sort of “dirt” you could dig up from looking through my posts (there... really isn’t, just a whole lot of cringe), i’d just like to make it clear that judging the present me by whatever the hell was wrong with me when i was a teenager would leave you with a lot of inaccuracies about me. being a teenager sucks and you’ve got way more things wrong with you mentally than any other stage of your life and i’m happy to report many of those things wrong with me have resolved themselves with time, but also, the cringe. the cringe. my god the cringe, please for the love of god know that while i am still cringe i am not as bad as i once was

anyways, what i am trying to communicate is that while the person who ran this blog and myself may technically inhabit the same body, we’re not quite the same person; and yet, this is still my body, my face, my words, my thoughts, all contained here, even if i no longer understand those thoughts and feelings and words, no longer feel like the face depicted is my face. going through and making every single one of my old posts unrebloggable would be not only tedious but a ridiculous, gargantuan task, considering my post count is just short of 50,000 and no matter how many of those are reblogs that i wouldn’t need to alter, it took long enough just deleting a bunch of old selfies that i truly don’t think it would be worth it

thus, my request is this: my art is all fair game, but any (old) personal posts or selfies i'd like left alone. no likes, no reblogs, just let them be, please. while i've left a good portion of the latter up for posterity, i'd prefer you not even look for them. likewise, i've gone through and deleted all instances of my deadname; do not try to seek it out. or i may smite you in real life

other than all of that, i'm willfully leaving this blog up as an archive. please don't abuse that, please respect my requests regarding what i am and am not okay with being interacted with, and please keep a healthy barrier in your mind between who i was as a teenager and my new, adult self, because even i don't know what i was going on about back then

with all of that finally out of the way, if you're looking to contact me for whatever reason, you'll find my new blog in my next (and probably final, ever, for this blog) reblog. that post is a plea for a friend of mine who i miss and have completely lost contact with to come and talk with me again, if they'd like, so i'm hoping that posting this here and giving them a way of contacting me might help if they ever come back and look at this blog, which was the impetus for me hunting down my own log-in info to begin with, though not the sole reason (i really did want to purge this fucking thing of its evils even if only a little i've been meaning to do that for ages)

i don't intend to ever deactivate that blog just as i won't be deactivating this one, but as a failsafe, you can also email nisutitja @ gmail, because i don't really wanna just... put my discord where everyone can see it. that is not my main email, but i do own that address. might be a little late on the response but it should be reliable enough

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The Best Part

​what is the best part of bread……

bread

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welcome to my twister mind

right hand blue

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i’m gay and i have a headache

reblog if you too are gay and have a headache

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self care is drinking 3 pots of coffee and getting into a knife fight w god

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MERRY CHRISTMAS & KNUCKLES

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if i was a gym leader, anonymously give me my gym’s typing and my ace pokemon

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Found a use for those 10lbs of Polyfill

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proper artists giving a critique: wow… the mediums you used and the the varying textures create such a pleasing conflict in the piece and the composition and vibrancy of the colors all really add up to make one solid painting

me givin a critique: awww fucke dude id…. shit man id eat this if you’d let me

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highschoollevelotaku said: could i request some cute Meulin Leijon please? if i cannot, that’s okay jsut figured to ask ^w^

maneki-neko pose because apparently i hate myself enough to not only give her mountains of hair but also two visible hands

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i mean like i could say shes winking because shes a weeb and you couldnt really fight me on it but the truth of the matter is i just did not want to draw the other eye

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highschoollevelotaku said: could i request some cute Meulin Leijon please? if i cannot, that's okay jsut figured to ask ^w^

maneki-neko pose because apparently i hate myself enough to not only give her mountains of hair but also two visible hands

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that me in the corner -_-

that me in the spotlight losing my religion -_-

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now the question is do i shade the back of her hair or is that threatening mane too much for me

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i simultaneously love and loathe drawing hair