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[makytriz]

What happened these 3 days

I know, it’s been almost 2 days since I’ve last blogged but honestly I had nothing to blog about! My life’s pretty boring all in all. But, since so many things happened now I thought I would be a good idea to catch you guys up. 

Well, we actually went outside a few days ago! It was honestly so much fun, I forgot how much humans there is in this universe. I felt so much disconnect to the outside world when I was stuck in our home all the time. 

Anyways, enough rambling back to the story!

So, we basically ate at this burger shop called Shake Shack, it was hella expensive and the burger would most likely just end up in the toilet. But, even though it was very expensive it was freaking delicious!! 

My parents also bought us Matcha frap from Starbucks it tasted divine. Anyways after, my mom literally bought us so many earrings which is kinda insane! But considering me and my sister thought for almost our whole lives that we couldn’t wear fake earrings or fake accessories in general since our mom told us that we’re allergic. Surprise, surprise we’re not! 

We got home around 10 pm, I think. And we basically stayed up until 1 am? around that time. Basically, I felt lonely the whole night and I basically made a blog ranting about how I had no one to talk to and that I envied my sister cause she never ran out friends to talk to. But, if I could go back and tell myself something that day, I would have told her that ‘EVERYONE IS ASLEEP! MY FRIENDS ARE ASLEEP SO IT MAKES SENSE WHY I HAD NO ONE TO TALK TO AND I SHOULD HAVE PROBABLY SLEPT ALREADY XD’ I can look back at that day and just laugh it off now but the night itself damn, the loneliness really ate me up. 

Okay, so after that day, I actually was able to re connect with my past school mate and friend because of Instagram we will be calling him America boy. If it isn’t obvious enough he went to America that’s why he had to leave. Mind you I haven’t talked to this guy for almost 2 years now and I just slid to his dm’s and was like ‘Hey, America boy’ and oddly enough he actually remembers me. So, we basically just chatted for a while until, I had to eat and basically the convo ended at that. 

So, skip to the night before today, I was once again had no one to talk to!! Do you see a pattern here??? So, I basically just dm’d people who I thought would be awake like, Kitty since she usually never sleeps but she did and America Boy, since America is like 4 hours late from where I’m from. 

And he basically just helped me sleep by chatting with me. It’s quite nice knowing that I can still socialize with other people without being totally awkward and pushing them away. 

Anyways, that’s all I’ve got for today. I hope you’re having a wonderful day or night! I have to go wash the dishes now! 

Goodmorning, after and night to all! Thank you for reading! BYEEE!! 

[makytriz]

Okay, maybe it isn’t so bad after all..

I know that I am indeed contradicting myself, even though I did just make the blog post talking about how playing Valorant was a very big mistake for me. However, with the help of my friends which we will be labeling by their go to characters in Valorant. Sage, Reyna and Raze really helped me get through the ‘I hate Valorant phase’ playing with them was truly so much fun! We basically played and voice called for about 2 hours.

We played a custom game. I ended up with Reyna and the reason why this is so horrendously funny is because me and Reyna basically share the EXACT same brain cell. At first, we we’re winning but after getting 8 wins it never got any higher and so Sage and Raze won.

After which we decided to play an unrated game since basically all of us except Raze could go to a ranked game. Sage however, had to instead use Viper since our teammate already picked Sage. So, for now we’re going to call Sage, my friend, Viper. In order to not confuse you more.

So, basically Sage, the stranger ALWAYS kept getting the spike, every single round. It turns out Sage kept getting the spike so that Sage could get kills! Which was annoying at first to be honest. However, after playing 14 rounds with Sage we found the fun in it. That match was the MOST epic match ever that we did. Our team had 13 while the other only had 1, I kind of feel bad for them since I too felt how it was to try your best and lose so badly.

Anyways, I know my friends will probably never read this but, I really want to thank them. They probably won’t ever know how much they made me happy today just by talking, joking, laughing and playing Valorant with me.

If you have any friends may it be 1, 5 hell maybe 10! Go take the time to talk with them again. Because, I know sometimes this quarantine thing really makes me forget that behind my walls someone out their cares for me.

If you don’t have any friends. I want to tell you this. I can be your friend; I care for you! I may not even know you but, just know I’m here. There’s one person in this whole universe that cares for you. 

[makytriz]

Valorant nightmare

Ahh, the currently popular multiplayer tactical first-person shooter game. 

So, why is this fun and exciting game turn to a nightmare for me when I only downloaded it 4 days ago? Well, let’s start from the beginning. 

I decided to download Valorant 4 days ago since, my friends kept talking about it and due to my fear of being left out during conversations, I downloaded it. My worst mistake ever. 

The first 3 days was so much fun even though my shooting skills is horrendous. I had no idea how to shoot for the life of me but, I had fun laughing and just having fun. I even convinced my siblings to download it and to play it with me. Soon enough I was able to get my first ever free character which was KillJoy. 

I gotta admit I was horrible at using her sure, but, I’ve only just gotten her for Christ sakes. Then, today happened... 

I spent the whole day basically sleeping since, my body was just screaming at me to sleep the whole day, so I did. Until night time came and since I had nothing to do and no one wanted to talk to me I figured I’ll just let out my frustration through playing Valorant, a big mistake if you ask me. 

So, I went on right ahead and played a spike round or whatever it was called. So, I decided to use Killjoy as my character. The first three rounds was fantastic! The two guys who kept getting kills was amazing at the game and basically carried us while, I just kept dying, which really wasn’t that big of a deal for me. I just found it funny. 

Until, another round came and this guy named Evan with some numbers in it suddenly told me to go to one corner. I assumed he would give me a gun or something but, he instead killed me using his skill. 

I know this might not be a big deal for a lot of people. However, this really triggered a past trauma that occurred in the past when I was playing with friends. 

I suddenly experienced heavy breathing and I began to cry. So, I just left the match and cried. I can barely remember the experience of my sudden trigger now even though it just happened minutes ago. 

So, yeah. Evan or whatever the fuck your name is, EAT A DICK, BITCH! 

sorry for the languagee!!

[makytriz]

Introduction

Hi, welcome to my safe place! You can call me Maky or triz either is fine. So, if your anything like me, who always wonders why someone would start a blog, story or movie. To spare you the mystery also, so that months from now I can remember why I even started this blog. 

Well, my parents always used to tell me that having a journal is helpful since, you could go back and read about your past an live through all the happy memories once again. However, the number of journals pilled on my table is worrying and neither of them is ever fully filled. I guess it’s cause I knew no one would even read it other than myself so I made zero effort. So, I decided to do this. 

Spread around the globe my personal life! 

So, expect a ton of ranting and maybe some few break downs along the way but, also some fun and happy memories. Well, it’s currently 9 pm right now so, I hope you have a good day! 

I hope to see more of you soon byee babes!