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senior year

graduating next week...

scared

send help

i swear i was just on zoom with my freshmen teachers last week

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i feel like i just keep coming back to tumblr to read smut and look at fanart

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yall pls... i put spotify on my dads phone so i could use it in his car and i logged into my account since i have spotify premium and i was planning to uninstall it afterwards but he was like "no what if i want to use it" and i was thinking this man has a wrack of cds in his garage cause he doesnt know how to stream music. anyways so i was like “okay,” and left it there. its been like a week and i didnt think he would actually use it but then i was editing my playlists and i saw this and i was like wtf :D ?  then i realized he made a playlist all for himself and im like genuinely so proud like this made me sMILE AND SHIT

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so now i just have a playlist called “Dad”

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i have recently rediscovered music from grease... and these songs are just feeding into my ego 😀👍

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having a god complex but is secretly insecure about everything inside and overthinks >>>

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help

I realized I only know how to talk to women when they start the conversation.

and I just started a conversation with a female.... and all of a sudden I don't know English.

I don't know how to talk to women

women are scary

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LOL WHAT THE FREAK AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE MAN

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let's discuss this.

can we just talk about the elagance that is raya and namaari???

thanks :)

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aka im dying slowly :D

*trigger warning cause idk if yall sensitive about this stuff*

so i was diagnosed with a chronic illness, around early 2019, called GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease). if you dont know what it is i’ll simplify it for you. its when a muscle at the end of your esophagus does not close properly. this lets your stomach fluids to leak back, or reflux, into the esophagus and irritate it. it causes maaajjjjooooorrrr chest pain. one time my legs gave out bc of how much pain i was in, i swear i was having a heart attack, i was rushed to the ER that day (dont worry im fine now). but depending on how severe it is you could have an acid reflux once a month to everyday. i used to have it everyday but i got it under down to once or twice about every two weeks with diet control. 

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now that i explained all that...i can get to my story.

so i had another acid reflux this morning around 6:30, im not usually up by then so the reflux woke me up (acid refluxes usually get worse while youre lying down). i did what i normally do so its not as bad and its pain i can deal with; took meds, drank a lot of water and sat up for the next two hours.

i figured my girlfriend was up by then so i texted her then eventually told her i was in the middle of a reflux attack. she asked me if i was okay blah blah blah.

i started to have watery eyes and was drooling excessively at some point (which is my body telling me that i was going to throw up...i know from bad experience)  so i was on the verge of dying, texting my girlfriend and i just sat there... if i didnt know how to handle it id probably be on the floor dying. 

she kept asking me if i was okay (since i told her i was probably going to throw up) and for some reason, dont ask me why, a part of me was in continuous pain for the past two hours and yet my brain was like:

is in the middle of dying: ah yes must text female significant other 

then proceeded to tell her to start planning my funeral 

and she asked me why i wasnt in the bathroom preparing for my timely death, which i then responded with “i have to make sure you know what flowers i want at my funeral ok :D”

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im fine now :)

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my ms. ma’am student teacher lady

alri guys....this ones for the girls, the gays, the theys and all of the above if you like females.

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is it just me or do you guys ever hit that point where you finally have that one teacher thats not old, and attractive asf lowkey? then you end up having the smallest crush on them after having like...one private conversation with them? HAHA 

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thats me with the student teacher for my english class ;-; (let me remind you shes the student teacher so she’s a lot younger okok)

we have private conversations everyday and im like DYING, its fine tho :)

i did get her instagram tho so...poggers?

what her find this somehow, then I’ll really die :D

.......someone pls help me 

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watch me start some fcking controversy istg....

ANYWAYS HAVE A NICE DAY :D

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ive been watching too many different shows

ok but like, redheads??  (especially women)

they hit different 😩💕

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dogggooo :D

so we got a new dog yesterday, he’s a doberman/great dane mix...but we think he’s part rottweiler too. he’s about a year old and already the tallest one in the family (he’s 6ft lol) he’s a lot to handle but i cant wait to see the havoc we’re gonna cause >:))

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dont ask me why

i had the sudden urge to mix coconut pineapple sparkling water and raspberry lemonade gatorade ._.

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it just tastes like spiked sprite tbh....except its not spiked LOL

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ah yes...procrastination

dont you just love skipping all of your school work thats due tomorrow night and chose to watch LoK instead for the plot :)) 

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and by the plot i mean korrasami 

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next day edit:

in conclusion, we died.

all nighter on a skoo night

so i introduced some friends to the show She-Ra and now we’re gonna watch all 32 hours (we counted how long it would take us) of it STRAIGHT. cant wait to die tomorrow morning…….wish us luck ;)

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all nighter on a skoo night

so i introduced some friends to the show She-Ra and now we’re gonna watch all 32 hours (we counted how long it would take us) of it STRAIGHT. cant wait to die tomorrow morning.......wish us luck ;)

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im a sinner

i did math homework during chemistry class

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the pop tarts are the only good thing about this

it completely passed my mind that holidays exist and i forgot that today was MLK day. so i woke up early for my zoom classes, coffee and pop tarts at the ready. then i saw there was no zoom link posted for today. i thought i would be 10 minutes late for class looking for the stupid thing.... only to find out i had no school today. the panic level i was at for no reason was astronomical.

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 its outrageous :D