lunevioletworld

[lunevioletworld]

Hello. How are you? I can't believe it's been a year. It's already middle of March and I suddenly remember you.

I remember that we were in relationship only for 2 months but it felt like years. I still can't comprehend how I fell hard for you. How did you manage to make me lose my mind. I can't comprehend either how you fell for me that fast and make me believe in you that much. How come I was too afraid to lose you. You said you loved me more than I know, said I was your Sun, said you would always be by my side. Yet in contrary, you were always the first one to let go of my hand and disappear from my sight whenever there's problem. It was always you who wanted to cut off our ties. Why did you make me believe and love you that much if you're about to leave me alone. You know it's cruel. You played with my heart yet you didn't want to take responsibility. You always hid behind the lines that you hate conflicts and didn't want to get in conflicts. You always ran away, leaving me alone with the problems.

The last time you left me, I didn't try to hold you back, rather I let you go because I was so done being treated that way. A month or 2 away, I heard from my friend that you left a note at my house. A song titled "Always". I didn't know what you were thinking for giving me another song after you left me the last time. What did you expect from me. Did you want to let me know that you still "loved" me but you couldn't be with me or what?

I hate you for making me feel worst. I still can't accept that and will blame you over and over. You were my biggest mistake. I just hope that one day I can really get over you. I'm sick to know that I still remember you even for a second. I want you to completely disappear from my memories. Just go away from my head!

[lunevioletworld]

Farewell, dear old friend. Now our stories become just the Memories of Eternal Love. In the end, you walked away from me again, but this time I didn't stop you nor hold you back, because I know my place, and I'm ready to let you go. Hopefully both of us will heal and get the best of our lives.

[lunevioletworld]

"What should I do to remove you from my heart? Sigh... I'm all worn out... Please help me..."

[lunevioletworld]

She knows that it's hard, but she hopes that her heart will get better in time.

[lunevioletworld]

"Pain" by Ingrid Andreas

I know this hurts real bad right now

I know you feel mad and sad right now, sad right now

But the sky isn't falling, no no no, that's just the rain

It's safe to just call this

Pain

Girl, I've been there, yeah life, it ain't fair

It's okay to not be all right, just go 'head and cry

It might sound insane but I promise one day

You're gon' be thanking your lucky stars

For all this pain

(Pain)

Without the pain, how would you know

What things to change, and what stays the same

And which parts of you still have to grow?

It can be ruthless, yeah, I've been there too

But you're gonna get through this

Pain

Girl, I've been there, yeah life, it ain't fair

It's okay to not be all right, just go 'head and cry

It might sound insane but I promise one day

You're gon' be thanking your lucky stars

For all this pain

(Pain)

For all this pain, oh (pain)

The sky isn't falling, no no no, that's just the rain

It's safe to just call this

Pain

Girl, I've been there, yeah life, it ain't fair

It's okay to not be all right, just go 'head and cry

It might sound insane but I promise one day

You're gon' be thanking your lucky stars

For all this pain

For all this pain

(Pain)

For all this pain

This is a song for Violet to mend her broken heart.

[lunevioletworld]

She saw him on the street this afternoon, little did she know that she had been removed from his friend list. She tried to say hi just to make sure if it's really him, but there's no response.

She thought that if he was a stranger, he would just say something like "do I know you?" or anything. Since there's no response, she concluded that it was really him cutting her off.

It's not that she wanted to run back to him, it's just that she thought that if he acted neutral, it would be easier for her to move on.

[lunevioletworld]

Sunday, August 6th.

There she is again, standing alone on the edge of the cliff, watching the moon at Calamity Realm. The sky is cloudy tonight, but the moon still shines brightly. The cold night wind softly brushes her hair that's already getting longer the past four months. She feels longing, melancholy, and lonely at the same time. Sits down, she can only talk to herself.

"I see that you're back into this world. The truth is, although my memories of you fade slowly, it's still hard for me to breathe every time I see you from afar. It looks like you're doing just fine, continue on with your life. Unlike me who's still bound by the ghost of you." She said that with a bitter smile on her lips. At times her eyes get watery. Tears are almost falling from her eyes, but she tries holding them in.

"I really hope that I can stop thinking about you. I hope that time will heal my broken heart. I really hope that I will be better in time. I really do hope. Because it hurts me every time I remember you. My conscience tells me that I have to let you go completely, and I do forget about you most of the time, but sometimes, the ghost of you just comes back as if it wants to check on me...." She holds her breath and sighs. ".... So pathetic of me. Sometimes I act strong, but sometimes I just can't help it but give in to these negative feelings..." Brushes her tears, she wanders again at the moon. "Is there any way to forget you quickly?"

Time passes. She's still sitting by the moon, overwhelmed by her thoughts. Deep in her heart she hopes that sometimes he will remember her and think about her. Because to her it's unfair that she still finds herself hard to completely remove him from her heart, while he seems to do vice versa. Though she knows that no one needs to hold onto the past, no one needs to suffer anymore from the parting. It's just that sometimes she ponders that there were times when he was her moon.

There are messages coming to her mailbox, then she realizes that it has passed about two hours there. "Moving on is harder than I thought." She said with a bitter smile. She gets up and looks at the moon once again. She reaches her hand out to the moon. "Good bye", she said.

Now that she feels a bit better after talking to the moon, she turns back with a soft smile on her lips. "It's time to go back to reality", she said to herself on her way back home.

[lunevioletworld]

That moon will never come back. It's not hers anymore. She's been by herself ever since it left, but now there's no more hope for her. It's really gone to another world that she can't follow.

[lunevioletworld]

"So our story comes to an end. He's really gone." She said that to herself, trying to accept their fate, and let it go.

[lunevioletworld]

In the end, it was just a long daydream. But everything inside that dream felt just too real... either the joy, the love, the warmth, the sadness, or even the pain... Leaving behind vague and distant memories and loss to the heart.