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Delusions

Currently we were in the common room, regulus' head on me, he's reading his so called interesting book about constellations.

"I love your hair" breaking the silence as my fingers run through his strands. His eyes meet mine, those beautiful eyes I spent forever figuring out.

Looking up at me from my lap, "you said that already." caressing my hand ever so gently.

I smile at him, "Well I meant it."

Suddenly a loud thud interrupts our conversation, causing our heads to turn in that direction. Regulus sits up in curiosity. To my surprise I see Lucius Malfoy and his goons or whatever they call themselves; messing with a pet. My face scrunches in disgust, I can't describe how much I hate them.

"Leave it alone, Malfoy" telling him off, but of course he won't listen, he's a Malfoy.

"Oh hello Y/n" he teased, ignoring the fact regulus was right beside me. If he thinks I would say hi back, he's actually delusional. He walks towards me, feet following the other.

"You look rather alluring today." toying with me, hes been flirting with me since day one, I told him to quit it over a million times. I feel regulus tense beside me, my hands still caressing his. I can't help but want to touch him when I could, it's like I can never get close enough to him, like it's not enough.

"Are you free on" before he could even finish, reg interrupts him "Leave her alone" inhaling for second before continuing "Clearly she doesn't want you."

Malfoy's eyes avert to him, snickering oddly, "Let her decide, you never know maybe she wants someone that could actually give her what she wants" apparently referring to himself as someone who can provide for my needs.

I glance at regulus, he looks like he's so close to hitting him.

Abruptly, he grabs me by the neck, pulling me close to him. He closes the gap between us, I feel his cold skin against mine as his hand tightens around my neck but not enough to hurt me. I try my best to kiss back with just the same amount of desire but I end up getting lost in his touch. He bites my lower lip, I allow his silent request, letting him take the dominance. His tongue enters my mouth, kissing me like this for the first time. I pull away for air, eyes trained on him. Finding myself completely dumbfounded, I stare at him with so much affection I can't even contain my joy.

He looks up at Malfoy from the couch "I think we have our answer." smirking slightly at his win. With that he begins walking away, looking angry as ever.

I pull on his collar, leading his face back to me. I kiss him once more, with a soft smile on my face, I can feel his too.

We were summoned in the grand hall to eat supper a few moments later. Once we got to the hall, almost everyone was there already. A bunch of heads turned to face us, making me feel awkward. Regulus on the other hand, he doesn't sense awkward moments like this, possibly cause he couldn't care less. I brisk walk to the Slytherin table, he follows closely after me.

As usual, the head makes a long speech full of announcements and what not. I look down, seeing his hand on his lap, I start tapping it softly. Heat starts to accumulate on my face, I shouldn't be this crazy over this boy. He finally understands the sign, taking my hand in his as he looks me in the eye.

"Get a room." A random slytherin student mutters, causing me to stifle a laugh.

Leaning down to meet my ear, "I wish we could." his breath hot, a shiver runs up my spine.

My eyes slightly widen as I stare at the table, processing what he said. "Oh?" I reply, trying to match his energy. His mouth opened, when the food appeared before us. "Maybe we could, later." finishing, I let go of his hand to get food.

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Understandings

I stare at my ceiling, my mind blank. Turning my head to look at my clock, it reads 2:46 am. I'm not an ounce bit tired, causing me to exhale in boredom. I abruptly sit up, gazing at the room before me. As I think of ideas for me to do, I come up with one; I want to go to the astronomy tower. Without thinking I just start walking towards my door, turning around midway because I realized I forgot my wand. Once I grabbed my wand, I was out of there as quick as possible. I know these halls like the back of my hand, been here a million times.

"Finally" I whisper to my self in relief. So I walk in, one glance and I'm in awe. My reactions like I've never seen it before, although I've been here two times already.

"Y/N?" a voice whispered, I hold my breath in fear of being caught. I turn around speedily, just to see Regulus, with that I exhale.

"Godric" exclaiming in distress "You scared me, reg" At my comment he chuckles a bit.

"What are you doing up here at this hour?" asking suspiciously, laced with concern. His eyes meet mine, just for a split second. But enough for me to catch.

"I could ask you the same question." He replies judiciously, glancing at the night sky every once in a while.

"Fair enough" grinning at him, beginning to sit down at the edge. He soon does the same, feeling drowsy and numb.

"Did something happen?" I curiously said, looking at the brightest star.

"My fathers disappointed again." Now looking down at the floor, "It's so frustrating, I try and try my very best but" he stops abruptly, "it's never enough." It's agonizing, I can hear his pain. I put my hand on top of his, rubbing my thumb across his hand to make him feel comforted.

"I'm sorry, reg." honesty takes over "You're more than enough, perfect even." He looks into my eyes and he smiles, not a fake one but a genuine one. Although he ends up looking away.

I focus my gaze on the boy beside me, taking in every detail painted on his face, as if he was art. Suddenly I gasp, causing him to turn his head. I see a wound on his neck.

"What happened!" worriedly saying, getting nearer for a closer look. He leans away, a hit of shock hit him at my sudden movement.

"Sorry.." I whisper, afraid to scare him off.

"It's nothing" he replies back at my concern.

Shooting him a worried look I say "Let me help you clean it." My eyes plea "please." Getting him to agree, he nods. I smile gratefully at this.

Alas we finally get to the hospital wing, without anyone catching us. I go through the cabinets, celebrating on the inside once I find the first aid kit. Walking back to regulus, I find him sitting on the edge of a hospital bed.

"Found it." I exclaim happily, he smiles awkwardly back. I begin to clean his wound, at first he winced a bit but he got used to it eventually.

Feeling a pair of eyes on me, my face starts to grow hot. I quickly checked to see if he was really looking, he was. His eyes dilate, the blush on my face growing.

"All done" I whisper timidly, looking down at the floor.

"Look at me." he requests, breath hot on me. When I do, his face is flushed just like mine. He looks at my eyes then moved on to my lips. 'Oh god' I think in my head.

"May I?" he mutters nervously, I abstractedly nodded in reply.

This sensation is new to me, his hands travel to my waist. Holding me as if I was fragile, breakable. He leans in, closing the gap between us. My brain goes foggy the moment his lips touched mine, the way his perfectly moves against mine. Much to my dismay I pull away for air. Staring into his eyes once more, "Goodnight, reg." I say, pulling away from his grasp.

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Antithetic love

Play: Je te laisserai des mots by patrick watson ╰┈➤

I beam at him as I stare into his eyes, he soullessly looks back. "Very pretty boy" I tease, pushing a strand of hair behind my ear. His eyes slightly widen at this remark, though it's barely noticeable. Good thing I'm observant, it's fairly helpful when it comes to regulus.

Currently we were at the library, near the back, mostly secluded from other people. Due to regulus' family problems, we've had to keep our 'friendship' (a/n: mhm friends); a secret for as long as I can recall. He glances towards the isles every now and then, nervous whether someone would see us or not

"Don't worry about it too much, reg." I remark, causing him to look back at me.

"I know, I just can't risk anything right now." He replies nonchalantly, 'God, he's so cold when we're in school premises.' I repeat in my head once more, just as I did earlier.

I didn't let that interrupt my fun though. I go back to gawking carelessly at him and him looking back at me, squinting slightly as though he was trying to read what I was doing.

It didn't take long until he averted his attention back at his book, resulting with me huffing loudly in defeat.

I lit up as I thought of an idea, I'm positive it looked like I had an actual light bulb hovering above my head.

"You love me" announcing slyly. He looks up, rather quickly might I say, opening and closing his mouth like he's trying to say something.

"No I don't" he retorts at my sudden confidence. I scoff at this, leaning forward closer to his face.

"Sure you don't" I respond, before I continue teasingly "is that why your cheeks have gone red?"

He raises his hand to touch his cheek. Muttering a swear under his breath, feeling the heat that accumulated in his face, he looks away embarrassed.

I smirk amusingly "don't be uneasy, reg." using my finger to guide his face to face mine " I like you too."

He flinches slightly at this, pulling his face away from my touch.

"I don't.." he trails off, stopping himself.

Looking at his lips, I've never wanted someones touch this much in my entire life, I didn't know whether I should feel terrified or glad. He glances at my lips for a few seconds. Out of nowhere he pecks my lips, quickly facing away, staring into the distance. I flush a deep crimson color. I knew he liked me but I never thought he would do anything about it, after all he is regulus.

I cough, clearly shocked. He side eyed me, glancing at my reaction. I try to play it cool by concealing my cough with a laugh, "Well- aha- someones hungry."

He closes his eyes at my remark and stands up, preparing to leave. I quickly grab his arm.

"No! I liked it.." muttering quietly "don't leave me." I finish. He sits back down. The air felt tight but I didn't care whether it was awkward, I was with regulus and that was more than enough.

"You're mine." I smile playfully, he rolls his eyes at this, taking an eternity.

"I'm yours." He whispers back.