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i need to somewhere to vent while i’m dieting and this seems like the best place. i don’t have the habits i used to, or maybe i’m too delusional to admit that i do, but i’m actually losing weight for the first time ever. and the motivation or end goal seems real or legit this time. but it’s little moments like right now that i want to break my diet, or to be real honest, indulge or relapse into past habits that are not good for me and that i’ve outgrown a while ago. these habits of not being mindful or not sticking by my morals, i’ve outgrown years ago. but they’ve dug it’s claws so deep within me that it honestly feels like the biggest mountain that i have to overcome in my life. if i can do this, i can do all the other stuff i want to. i have to remind myself of that. so maybe ill keep using this as a place to vent emotions when i’m feeling vulnerable, like right now. i am stronger than i give myself credit. :)

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haven’t been here for a while now

things have changed and things are changing. but im glad to be back. i’ve been restricting more and more each day, and i can finally feel myself getting motivated to starve. i needed this. i havent felt like this in a while and i honestly missed it so much. 

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I basically want to be unrecognizable by the time I lose all the weight. I want to be completely different. I’ve always been this way and now is the time to transform.

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Reblog if you’re going to reach a goal weight before autumn 🍂

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I’ve now, more than ever before, want to starve myself. And the fact that I don’t care anymore, makes me more motivated.

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I think I only post when I’m fasting. Ever since I started and know that I have it in me, I do it at least once a week.

I guess I’m happier and feel more proud so that’s why I post.

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✨Following all thinspo/ed accounts that reblog this AND follow me ✨

Help me spice up my feed y’all.

If you already follow me, unfollow and refollow.

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What “pro-ana” means to me

Of course I’m not “pro” ana. None of the people who post with this tag are. None of us want you to develop an eating disorder. None of us want you to starve yourself, harm your body, and hurt your mind. Come on, who the hell would wish this on anyone? 

I’m not pro ana.

I know what “ana” is. It’s not something anyone in their right mind would support. I’ve been living with an eating disorder for over 10 years now. That’s my whole teenage and adult life right there. I don’t remember what it’s like living without it. I don’t know what having a normal relationship with food feels like. I don’t know how people go about their daily lives without obsessing about what they eat or how they look.

I’m not pro ana. 

“Ana” isn’t something you get out of. I’ll go through a restrictive phase, then relapse into bulimia, and every once in a while, feel like I’m getting better and healthier. It never lasts. It’s as if my eating disorder went to sleep for a while… took a little break, and then came back a little stronger. It always does. 

I’m not pro ana. 

If you’re not dealing with an eating disorder, or if the content on my blog is triggering to you PLEASE don’t follow me. Please don’t think eating disorders are an easy way to lose weight. Please don’t take any dieting tips from “pro ana” blogs. Please, please, please don’t starve yourself. Don’t harm yourself. Binging, purging, restricting, fasting are terrible ideas. Run while it’s still time. 

I’m not pro ana. 

I’m “pro” supporting my sisters and brothers who struggle with an eating disorder. If I post something with the tag “pro-ana”, it doesn’t mean I encourage you to develop disordered habits… it means I’m here for you. I’m right there with you. 

I don’t support eating disorders, I support people going through them. 

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Attempting a 48-hour fast with lemon water and cucumbers before I leave back to college!

I need a full detox before I go back! Currently in hour 18! I got this!

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Guess who just accomplished their first 24 hour fast???

This girl! 🤘🏼🤘🏼

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By Christmas, I will be 15 pounds lighter. I swear it.

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next 20 days are going to be the hardest ever...but oh well