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I realize I've been pretty MIA. I should probably try to explain why.

The short version of the main thing is this: I have a very difficult time bringing myself to be on Tumblr these days. In fact I find it legitimately hurts and wears on me, even on good days. Because I had an incredibly dear friend here I worked with, and it/they easily might have been the best part of my life I had to look forward to, and what we had going together became a part of me that I just can't cope with losing. And I lost them/it. And so I'm finding that it's not really possible for me to be happy and comfortable for the most part here without them. They keep saying they'll come back to me 'soon'... but it's going on several months now. That hope is getting harder and harder for me to hang onto. And I just... I feel so empty and alone and broken.

Among other things as well, I lost my only other friends I had, who l'd nearly known my whole life, through a very painful series of events. And yesterday I found out suddenly that my grandfather passed. He was such a special part of my life, particularly throughout childhood. I feel like I keep losing such important and irreplaceable parts of me and of my life everywhere I turn these days. And, God, I just want a fucking break... From this... from the horrifying state of world at large... Everything. I can't take everything.

So, I'm probably putting this blog on an indefinite hiatus. Not that I don't very much appreciate the support l've been shown here, I truly am so fond of those of you who tried to give this blog a real chance, and even those of you who just kinda hung out on the sidelines, maybe liking a few posts here and there. But, truth be told, it severely depresses me to simply be logged on to tumblr most of these days, let alone trying to stay active and decently productive with everything that I lost and is hurting me and continues to, to seemingly greater degrees by the day.

Yeah... maybe I need a fucking break.

(As an aside: you may or may not have noticed that I disabled anonymous asking. Let's just say people were being uncool with it and I feel better not giving anyone that option for the time being. I'm sorry to those with good intentions who this might have become an inconvenience to. I know it really sucks when you have to share the consequences of shitty things that you didn't have a part in.)

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anyway...

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I suppose banishment is more or less a step further than jailing because, generally, you have opportunities at some point or another earn or buy yourself out of jail.

But if you're kicked to an entirely different world and your only hope of ever coming back is if someone just so happens to activate a door next to you? Which is extremely unlikely considering that clearly only happens in children's rooms or in particular cases like banishment.

But it's revealed that Waternoose, in particular, definitely abused this, anyway, by just banishing monsters that he felt would get in his own way rather than having done any real harm or proved to be an exceptionally significant threat to monsterkind.

And that is also the only context in which we see banishments. It's pretty unlikely (I feel) that Monsters Inc. is the only company that has the resources and authority to deal out banishments, and it's entirely possible that different monsters in charge are left to decide what sort of acts warrant banishment in their respective facilities.

...Which I guess is maybe just a longwinded way to say that, well, we can only really make guesses in the end 😅

Speaking of World Building…

I feel like the concept of Banishment in the Monster World is very undercooked and could use some more exploration

In MI, Mike even mentions Bigfoot and The Lochness Monster as those who were banished but no further insight on that

Randall and The Abominable Snowman also were banished but these instances are short lived in the formers case and not really dwelled on in the latters case

Also more importantly, what’s the point in banishment if the Monster World has a jail system?

Like what exactly are the qualifications of Banishment?

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there's also a version where Claire uses the family's big company money to pay Johnny's bail and he learns really nothing from the whole experience except maybe don't ever hire anyone who works/worked for Monsters Inc. and Tylor is dumb >:(

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Idk if there's an end to this pain

It's become extreme

I can barely put one foot in front of the other, everything is pain. everything.

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genuinely Chet's near-obsessive affection w/ Johnny is so funny tho

Johnny's like "yeah, Chet's cool. we went to college together and now he works for me. it's nice and all ig."

and then Chet's just "Johnny is literally the greatest monster in the world, I would die for him. maybe even I would kill for him if he asked me to idk? I'll do anything for Johnny, that's just how great he is. also we're totally bffs, even if Johnny doesn't say we are, that's okay bc he's just so busy focusing on being cool and powerful but trust me, he def knows we're besties"

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I've been pretty firm in this belief from the start, and I maintain that, at least through childhood (even into early preteenhood more or less), Roger did have a very positive and even loving relationship with his dad.

They loved each other so much, once. Roger has always been eager for knowledge and new experiences, and Waternoose was only too happy to pass on what he knew to his boy... with the idea, probably, that he would ultimately build Roger up to be prepared and worthy of taking over the company, when that time came.

But there was clearly some point at which he effectively gave up on Roger, so to speak. Roger wasn't a 'proper' monster as he grew out of childhood, as far as his dad was concerned, or at least not a proper Waternoose. He had lost interest in the idea of being a scarer or the business of scaring like his dad, for one thing. (Which, as we all know, would have been nothing short of taboo at the time with his father being such a renowned and revered and famous scarer + laugh power not yet discovered.)

But Waternoose compensated. With Roger seemingly out of the picture for good, he would set his sights of choosing a monster who was worthy and ultimately trusted for the role where he felt that Roger had failed to prove himself to be. He latched onto Sulley and regarded him as if he was his son. It filled a void. Someone he was both very fond of and proud of who he felt he would gladly trust to take over and run things when the time came that Waternoose would retire. Of course he wished it could have been his own son. But, for the good of the company, it was more worth it to ensure that Monsters Inc. had a strong future ahead.

I think Waternoose always prioritized the company over everything else, even his own family, to varying degrees. And maybe he expected Wendy and Roger to understand (or at least overlook) this, being a part of his family and having love for him, and to accept it. And while we have nothing to go off of to know how Wendy might have felt about that, I reckon that Roger didn't totally appreciate Wendy and he being beneath business in his father's eyes. And he probably wasn't exactly shy about it.

Because he didn't want to try or pretend to be something he knew he never would be just to appease his father and 'earn back' the love that they once had. So, he wasn't going to.

When the news about Waternoose's crimes and his cruel intentions and consequent imprisonment went live, that only nailed the lid on the coffin for Roger; that things could never be like they once were. The love that they shared could not be regained. And, if he was honest, that night Roger had begun to question if he really even wanted the love of someone like his father. Least of all his very father in particular who, once, Roger would happily trust and support with little question, even if they had differing views on Roger's future. (Among other things.)

And, maybe, if Waternoose couldn't earn Roger's favor after what he'd done, that would drive him to lash out. Perhaps he sowed the first seeds of doubt in Roger, assuring him that it would all be over for him if was out that he was a Waternoose, too. Likely predicting how Roger's fears and insecurities and his being prone to fits of intense anxiety, et all would run with it.

I can imagine that he still didn't want the chance out there that someone like Roger might one day take over the company. So he tried to make Roger think that he couldn't really trust himself to, with, among other things, all the lying and hiding he was now doing.

I think Waternoose genuinely loved and cared about his son. But I think he hated Roger's rejection of the path he had hoped to lay out for him more. Add that to the fact that, rather than wanting to help and support his father like Waternoose may have hoped for merely because they were family, Roger condemned, and refused forgiveness to, him instead.

And I think, for Waternoose, maybe that was the final nail in his coffin. Maybe Roger had a sense that they would never truly make peace with each other on any foreseeable level. Maybe, after what had happened, he would always suspect his father of plotting something or harboring ulterior motives. And maybe that made him so quickly jump to aggressively accusing Waternoose of sabotaging the company (perhaps in partial interest of sabotaging Roger's chances of having a future with Monsters Inc.)

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in 2025 im manifesting it so every artist creates at least 1 piece that they really like 🫵🫵🫵 if you are an artist you MUST create something you find worthwhile in 2025

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no no no. you don't get it. a hug is not enough. i need an embrace. i need to be held for 45 minutes straight while someone lets me sink into them until my body understands it can lose the tension its been holding onto for so many years. i need arms warm and sturdy and reassuring that aren't going to let go. sometimes i count the days by the times ive been held and the space between always stretches too far for my liking. i need permission to be vulnerable. ive never had someone's hands in my hair. just for once id like someone else to love this body other than me

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🔧 » Blog Update + low activity notice

– Some changes have been made to the rules; new ones have been added and others cut or edited.

– Made some minor edits to both the blog description & promo.

– While I don't expect I'll be absent enough to warrant taking a hiatus, please note that overall activity and especially posting artwork will be pretty low for the time being. You are more than welcome to engage with the blog as usual at this time! Just be aware that I may likely be slower to respond to some things.

(I know I've sort of already posted about that a few times, but I figured it warranted me making an official note of it for the blog by this point,)

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🔧 » Blog Update + low activity notice

– Some changes have been made to the rules; new ones have been added and others cut or edited.

– Made some minor edits to both the blog description & promo.

– While I don't expect I'll be absent enough to warrant taking a hiatus, please note that overall activity and especially posting artwork will be pretty low for the time being. You are more than welcome to engage with the blog as usual at this time! Just be aware that I may likely be slower to respond to some things.

(I know I've sort of already posted about that a few times, but I figured it warranted me making an official note of it for the blog by this point,)

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Go on Anon and ask my muse your burning questions!

About them, about their world, about their friends- Anything!

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Anonymously tell me what you want to see happen to my muse.

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send me questions you have about my character!

anything and everything. favorites. thoughts on people, on events. what they would do in a certain situation. how things would be different if something had/hadn’t happened. simple questions, complex questions. have at it!

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