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WIKTOBER: Open for Submissions. | A KinnPorsche: the Series Fanfic.

This sixth chapter references milkfic. Please read the end notes for further information.

Summary:

Chay runs an annual fic fest for WIK, a popular singer. Kim, a lurker in his own fandom, becomes an admin.

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crossposting onto here another kimchay ship thing!!

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Random KimChay Alternate Universe Idea: A deity alternative universe where Chay is the god of summer and the hearth who is stolen away by god of death Kim with the encouragement of god of royalty and conquest Kinn. Unknowingly, Chay is from another pantheon which causes the pantheons to start clashing in an apocalyptic event as god of war and fire Porsche tears apart the world looking for his younger brother.

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#kimchay episode 10 cuddles? kimchay episode 10 cuddles.

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@yilinglaozu asked: "vegaspete or kimchay for the gif asks 👀"

KIMCHAY

make me choose ask game

+ bonus

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KINNPORSCHE ANNIVERSARY WEEK 4

Favourite romantic relationship: KimChay

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KINNPORSCHE WEEK DAY 3

Favourite couple: KimChay (pt.13/13)

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crossposting onto here another kimchay ship thing!!

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baby with a broken heart..

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chaylivia rodrigo

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well..still no jeffcode photos from Phuket ..

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and i continued with..

kimchay/jeffcode as snoopy and woodstock agenda :)

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hold them tight and never let go...

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all the touches that he gave...

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mafia princes..

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Adore your fics!! Just wanted to ask what made you fall in love with KimChay?

anon

anon

do you have a moment to spare to hear about the gospel of jeff satur's face?

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okay, for real, shameless wanton thirst aside, i kiss you on the mouth, anon, for sending me this ask, because right now i am cracking my knuckles and gearing up to write a WHOLE DAMN MANIFESTO like we're on livejournal circa 2005.

i know we all joke--justifiably!--about how kim and chay spend most of the show in an entirely different genre than everybody else, living out their uni BL romance tropes in style. but this is the thing: for me, that is part of the allure of their story, not a flaw.

because we know that they're in the wrong genre. and, more importantly, kim knows they're in the wrong genre. so every single interaction has to carry that knowledge, because there is only ever one way for it to go, and that's for it to blow up in their faces when the genres collide.

i love that. i love a love disaster waiting to happen! i think it's neat! and it all ties into one big thing i love about this show, which is the fact that you can't really separate the storylines for the three pairings from each other, because they are all in part about men learning to choose love and tenderness when the world they live in, and the abusive fathers who define that world, are applying crushing pressure to make them cold and hard and cruel.

so you have kim, youngest son of the World's Worst Dad, who has managed to carve out a little piece of the world for himself that has nothing to do with the family business. at the university open house thing he talks about the cost of pursing something you want, and he's talking about music and college and privacy and life that isn't about mobster shit and all of that, about the fact that he had to separate himself from the brothers he loves to pursue it. it's one of the first things we see him say in the entire show for a reason, because it's setting up the collision course that's gonna happen down the line. every scene of his is this amazing, sad interplay between the connections he yearns to have (not just to chay, because we also see it when he interacts with tankhun) and the fact that he is constantly checking himself and pulling back.

the fanon that kim is closed off and cold is not true! that is not the character we see! he's warm and fond and smiles and laughs and teases and is generally friendly--except for the heartbreaking moments when he obviously, visibly catches himself and closes down. such as the scene at chay's kitchen table! right before the kidnapping! that is a man who wants something so badly and is about to walk away from it anyway.

how can i not want a plotline that a cracks a character like that open? I AM ONLY HUMAN. we must crack him like a walnut.

and then we have chay! who is the most precious perfect angel bean imaginable, and might not be in the mafia but does not have a particularly easy life--one of the first scenes we see him in is the aftermath of some pretty brutal violence done to their family! the whole plot is set in motion because their lives are dangerous and unstable and porsche wants better for his brother!

but what chay does have is his brother's unconditional love and the absolutely insane levels of courage required to go after what he wants--even though we learn, much later, that he never expects anything good to happen.

this drives me MAD with fondness for this kid. he says he never expects good luck or happiness, but he goes after it anyway. over and over again. asks his idol to tutor him. forces him to take it seriously when kim tries to blow him off. and then as soon as they're more comfortable with each other? flirts his little heart out like a champ. those eyelashes. writes a love song and plays it. confesses his feelings.

he just. GOES. FOR. IT. it's beautiful.

and it's the THEMNESS of them that makes me love them together? because kim is made up of yearning for things he's always telling himself he can't have, and chay is made up of whatever strange alchemy is required to make somebody who doesn't expect happiness chase after it anyway. chay is pushy but kim seems to like it. kim runs hot and cold (hoo boy does he ever) but chay seems to roll with it. they like each other. they enjoy each other's company. they're so so so very fond of each other.

then everything EXPLODES IN THEIR FACES and it's just.

DELICIOUS.

story-wise it's delicious because kim handles it so badly! (SO BADLY.) because later in the club chay yells at him for the mixed signals! because chay is also kinda handling it badly! and suddenly we see kim become this wild violent little freak and it's very sexy! because murder and songs are the chosen love language i guess! they are young and in love and also kind of idiots! THEY ARE IDIOTS YOUR HONOR. i love them.

i think they are going to work it out. and not with that much difficulty. i don't think it will take a lot of bitterness or shouting or groveling or all the icky things people put into the kinds of fic i never want to read. honestly i think chay is more emotionally mature than that? based on how he handled finding out that his brother gay married a whole mafia? and kim, with his song, has very obviously decided to stop being pathologically emotionally avoidant. growth!

but the point is, chay and kim want the same thing, but couldn't say it at the same time, then the mafia bullshit came between them. but what came between them isn't so bad that it can't be gotten over. so now they need to be awkward and blushy and stammering toward each other for a while before having a real conversation and figuring their shit out.

and i love that too. i love that things are a mess for them when the season ended, but not an unfixable mess. i love that kim is on his way to figuring his shit out. i love that chay is giving himself space to figure out what he wants. that's an unfinished romance that's a lot of fun to imagine for fic and meta and the bedtime stories i tell my own brain before i fall asleep at night.

there it is, my kimchay manifesto.

also for real have you seen jeff satur's face.

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