lilithnoah

[lilithnoah]

hello u guys. as you've maybe noticed i am not that active on tumblr anymore. sometimes it kinda feels like tumblr is dying. and i want to be able to talk to you guys about poetry and art and read your writing and i feel like tumblr isn't really that place anymore. so if you wanna talk to me or read my writing you can check it out:

and feel free to say hello to me on instagram :)

[lilithnoah]

a love letter to my girlfriend

loving you is all-consuming

my heart still flutters when

i see your name on my phone

or your face.

loving you is as easy as breathing

the most natural thing to me.

loving you fills me up

from my toes to my brain

with wonder.

i don't want to imagine a world without you

[lilithnoah]

Collab with @lexiklecksi ��

Summer days don't die

The air is hot and heavy today

I'm stuck here this summer holiday

In this town with the wooden barn and the three restaurants and the old lady who sells apples

I wanted to fly away to foreign countries, but this pandemic keeps me grounded

Like a bird in a cage

My wings were cut short and now I'm fluttering helplessly around

They tremble under the weight of lost chances

Maybe I don't need my wings to fly

Maybe lost chances are new ones found

Written in collaboration with @lilithnoah

Prompt by my poetry club @resilient.poets on Instagram

[lilithnoah]

how can a kiss feel so much like home?

our lips have known each other for a while now

i know every crease

on your skin

it's seconds of heaven on earth

every time our lips touch

[lilithnoah]

Hey everybody, I'm back on Instagram, feel free to check it out :)

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A post shared by Lilith Noah (@lilithnoah) on Aug 12, 2020 at 6:29am PDT

[lilithnoah]

i'm drowning all my plants

because

i don't know when to stop giving.

do you have a piece of me already?

no?

today's the day, buy one,

get one for free.

i've donated a pice of me to charity

and my soul to you.

take it please

i don't know what else to do with it

[lilithnoah]

yes i cry a lot.

is it my fault that there's a

river running through me?

sometimes there's a flood after heavy rain

and the water washes through with

the force of a thousand men

and sometimes it drys out

brown dusty drought

there's nothing i can do

about these forces of nature.

(i am a force of nature)

[lilithnoah]

hey, i feel bad again

am i a snake with my intestines

trailing behind me?

am i a bird with my wings cut off

feathers raining down like snow

stomp on me all you want

cut tear rip

me apart

i do it all the time, anyways

i've become soft as a cloud

let me rain down and disappear

[lilithnoah]

old hometown holiday

churchbells ringing and they echo

in the valley, between mountains covered

in snow.

it smells like grass and cows and

forests and summer

and calm, fresh water.

here the floor cracks with every step you make

and the wind is whispering poems

in the old wooden attic

and as i'm whispering along i feel like

home

[lilithnoah]

better safe, then sorry

i tried to show you how much i

love you

by giving you roses with the thorns cut off

so you would never ever

get hurt.

i hugged you and wrapped you in

bubble wrap

and accidentally suffocated you inside.

now i've got nothing but an unhurt, unscarred

corpse

[lilithnoah]

can you close

the curtains please?

i don't feel so

comfortable

with everyone peaking inside.

can you shut the blinds please

because i'm turning

into a pillar of salt

underneath every gaze.

can you close the door please

because i can't let a single crack

show through

[lilithnoah]

you are my intrusive thoughts

constantly

on my mind

it's sometimes bad but

mostly good

the way my brain loves you

clings to you

yes i am clingy.

it's sometimes bad but

mostly good

[lilithnoah]

when i pour my heart

out to you

i need to be filled up again

with secrets, forbidden words

but this radio silence

keeps me asking for more

because this hole in my chest

emptied of my feelings

weighs heavy on my soul

[lilithnoah]

My boyfriend thinks we won't work out and that we're too different, and broke up with me because of it. He left me while I'm five months pregnant with our baby girl. I'm due in October. He says he wants to be there for us, but just as friends. I don't think I can just be his friend.... I'm too in love with him...

you love me

like one loves sundays

or a cool beer

you love me like

one loves a good nights sleep.

but i, oh i

love you like a golden sunset

like the warmth of a fire

i love you like i love coming home.

don't i deserve to be loved that way too?

[lilithnoah]

i know i didn't heal you

but maybe i was the reason

you started to heal yourself

just like an earthquake can start a tsunami

(you're the tsunami in this one

tall, fascinating and terrifying)

i hope that we never stop

tearing down cities together

[lilithnoah]

hey, i'm not sure if you're doing the confession thing anymore, but i had one if you don't mind! so, my girlfriend and i broke up a few weeks ago because she needed some space to figure things out. we started talking as friends a while ago, but we're both madly gay for each other and we ended up in a kinda-relationship phase rn. i completely understand that she's going through a very tough time. but sometimes i wish i could just call her my girlfriend. does that make me a terrible person?

i want to call you mine again

while we hold each other tight

but not so tight that

i might crush your delicate bones

i want to call you mine again

like i did before

but i don't want to cage you

bird set free

i hope you'll call me yours again someday

and that's when

i can call you mine again

[lilithnoah]

i am white. i am privileged. i will never understand the struggle. but i stand with you

if you can, donate:

black lives matter: https://secure.actblue.com/donate/ms_blm_homepage_2019

the bail project: https://secure.givelively.org/donate/the-bail-project

reclaim the block: https://secure.everyaction.com/zae4prEeKESHBy0MKXTIcQ2

george floyd’s memorial fund: https://www.gofundme.com/f/georgefloyd

or sign petitions:

justice for george floyd: https://www.change.org/p/mayor-jacob-frey-justice-for-george-floyd?utm_source=brand_us&utm_medium=media&use_react=false

#wecantbreathe: https://www.wecantbreathenational.org/

(original illustration based on photo from mike von)