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Hi, I'm alive. How long has it been..? I have no clue.

I just want to say that I managed to paint again, only because I'm excited for my vacation next week.

Also, I like how Sauron looks in the Rings of Power. I think I'm gonna watch the show just for him haha XD

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He's an Elden Ring man.

I'm a Lord of the Rings girlie.

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Hello again. It's been almost a year. I hope it's just a year.

My excuse is that I made it, I got my life together. Currently staying with my boyfriend, (soon to be husband if everything goes well financially) and saving for my first car. Life's been crazy. Got a new job to support myself as an artist and moved on, and even if I struggle to contain stress at work, I'm grateful I return home to the man I want to spend the rest of my years with. Time stopped when I drew for the first time a couple of days ago after an entire year. I feel alive again.

I hope I returned to stay this time:)

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HEY! I'M ALIVE!

Here's a Morgoth WIP I made as I had the day off through this ALREADY stressful week, work overload and another stupid supervisor who's been acting jealous of my age. She's 40+ and I'm 21. Apparently she has some aging issues that can be solved easily with therapy:)

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Hello Friends.

Long time no see. I can explain. And I hope you understand.

As I had mentioned in my last statement, I retired from my job, and was workless for about 3 weeks, maniacally searching for another (I strongly advise you not to do this. First find another job, then quit your current one.)

So, I was lucky enough to find one at a bakery. The schedule is tough, but the payment is better than I will ever imagine. I leave home at 4 in the morning and finish at 1 pm.

So due to this work overload, I've failed to even touch my drawing tablet. No new sketches or wips are available. Nothing is made. I have no time to draw anymore and that's the saddest part of my life at the moment. I come home exhausted, and end up sleeping as early as I can to avoid making any mistakes at the cash register which is really important and a great deal in this job. I've learnt how to make various types of coffees and meals, as well as knowing how to knead bread. I've evolved quite a lot comparing my last job, but because of my responsibilities now, I no longer have the strength to continue producing art. That of course doesn't mean I'm quitting this hobby. I believe I just have to adjust to a new lifestyle.

So.. if you're still with me, you might see me drawing something once again but that will take time. So please be patient with me, I'm trying to survive at this point.

If you read this far, thank you. Truly. I just felt like I need to say something and explain my absence. I'll be back.

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Hey guys!

Just wanted to announce some good news:

Since I've told you many times of how much work I do as a waitress, the things my supervisor (if you can call her that) forces me to do, which none of it was in the contract when I got hired, the despicable environment I'm in while working there, and many more things, that I don't have the time to explain because this text would become an essay, instead of a text-post, I'm in the delightful position to announce that today, I'll finally quit my job and search for a new one in the meantime.

One of the main reasons why I took this decision was the fact that I was working all summer overtime, 15+ hours every day, and she had the audacity to pay me only 80 euros. My entire vacation, which was 15 days, I had no money to spare at all. The actual amount of money that I should have received was 3x up. She robbed me, by paying half of the "halfest", thus today, I'm quitting, I'm definitely notifying the manager of the shop for her behaviour towards ALL the employees, the minimum money, the theft, and thus, I'll be "signing" my freedom in no time.

The reason like I said is obvious. BUT it also comes with a surprise. Till that time, (until I get hired somewhere else) I'll be here with you, drawing Melkor, Mairon, colouring my fanfic, continuing the second book, and show you some of my recent projects *using digital art* :)))

Honestly.. I've been wanting to let go since the second month I took the job. 5 months I've endured endless pain and literal suffering, I just can't do this anymore. This environment was so toxic, so unhealthy, that it literally dug deep into my brain and brought back the need to "end it all", if you catch my drift.. Got so bad, I remember myself sitting on the balcony early hours of the morning smoking, looking at absolutely nothing, and saying "I feel.. nothing. I feel empty. I have no dreams no more. Maybe I should have done what I didn't when I had the chance, when nobody was around."

And today I said "hey, THIS is the problem! Because THEY are the ones who make me feel like shit, discourage me, treat me like garbage there! Nobody would care if I indeed finish the job now so why should I lose my life for their entertainment?!"

Remember guys. Do your best in what you do. You don't need to achieve it perfectly, but do your best. And if you KNOW you do your best, and someone tries to drag you down, the problem is NOT with you. The problem is NOT YOU. Flee while you still can and have the mentality to do so. Plan before you make decisions. Always leave with your chin lifted high in the air, and slam the stinky door right behind you. If your gut tells you that something is fishy, it probably is.

Turns out this WAS INDEED an essay. Lmfao kisses lovely people

I'll be back with more Silmarillion characters, I was planning to draw Fëanor someday, MIGHT AS WELL DO

And the best part is? No one can stop me >:))))

LET'S THROW A PARTY TODAY SHALL WE?

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OH LOOK!

I DREW MAIRON AGAIN

Coincidence?

I THINK NOT.

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For those who don't know...

I'm on vacation... To the Underworld .. ✨

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OKAY OKAY I'LL GIVE YOU A GLIMPSE:))

GUYS HOLD TIGHT, IM DRAWING SOMETHING!

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If you've seen this, and wonder "hmm where tf has she been all this time/ where tf is the shit you're drawing" well I got news for you:

I'm stuck at a dead end and now I hate what I've drawn.

GUYS HOLD TIGHT, IM DRAWING SOMETHING!

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SOMETHING FOR SUMMER.

Because this time I ain't going on vacation.. so .. I'll be drawing Melkor and Mairon non stop:)

GUYS HOLD TIGHT, IM DRAWING SOMETHING!

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GUYS HOLD TIGHT, IM DRAWING SOMETHING!

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Wow this has blown up O_O

Thank you guys so much and, would you be interested in a part 2 of this? :D

I had the day off

So I drew him again:))

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"Love by the Fireplace"

So I went above and beyond for this.

I'm currently trying to draw pictures of my Fanfiction and here's a more "romantic" approach towards the first smut chapter, said paintings/pics, are accompanying the book. Some are there already, some are not. But I'm slowly getting to where I want to get with this fanfic, even if it ended about 2 weeks ago.

Please don't judge me, I wanted to write smut with Mairon as F/M and here's the female oc. I've posted her some times in the past too, but this is the first time I draw her with the character I should have drawn her a long time ago.

She's a nasty one. But also kind of cute... The friendly recipe is saved only for Melkor and Mairon xd.

She's a snake with everyone else.

So here's Wualuna and Mairon.

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Melkorie Boii

I FINALLY MADE IT!

I don't know if you can tell but I'm happy. I love him so much.

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I like interacting with you guys. Keep talking to me I'm lonely.

I love this fandom. I feel like I'm drawing for those who talk to me, I don't know, I don't understand this attachment.

But keep talking to me I need it.