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i’m gonna start making music, does anyone have any helpful suggestions on good software ??

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A little poem/short story type thing i wrote a little bit ago…

I called for God under the starlit sky, hoping he'd see a child.

Please don't notice that the flowers are perishing in my braided hair.

I swear they used to dance.

Don't notice my childhood with rotted roots of despair.

Let me be saved. Let me be forgiven. I never knew of the monsters in my garden.

I never knew I lured them in. Let me climb to the golden gates like I still climb the trees.

Am I still a rose? I promise I can be, I didn't know I needed thorns.

They poisoned my pores and ripped away my petals that were once sewn with faith.

I tried to scare away the monsters, I didn't know he was the devil.

I hoped someone would hear me weep or notice as I withered. Can everyone see I am carved with sin, is that why they pay me no care?

I promise God I can be worth saving. I did not mean to lure them in.

Too many seasons passed and eventually I stopped kneeling, now laid down in this meadow.

The bugs crawled over me and I begged them to feast, wishing they would chew off the scars.

I still pleaded for anyone to hear me, anyone to see a child. I stained the soil with my tears, but they never helped me grow.

I screamed at the sky and I clawed at my skin. I dug my own grave and got comfortable in it.

Now my petals grew backed wilted with affliction.

I built thorns and coated them with the poison they left in me. Ready to strike at anyone near, no fime to check if they are monsters too.

My roots are rotten with rage. I am gated in this garden. These flowers will lay dead in my mangled hair.

My bones decayed where I urged for a saviour still beneath the same starlit sky.

Never again will I be a blooming rose but I was just a child.

-by me (lara morningstar)

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i wanna make music so bad, how do people even start

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i died dead. was watching live streams of the eras tour earlier today and it literally felt like i was there for the i can see you music video world premiere. kansas city you were blessed with so many things are any of you alive?!?!!

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i’m being so genuine. how do i give up on my dreams in life. i’m being crushed under the weight of never being able to try for them.

-help me

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lover, you should of come over

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romanticise everything

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i still need you to believe that i’m pretty

left no sign of the tears that caressed my face,

in a way i only wished you would

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maybe i was just a girl.. interrupted.

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i’m just a girl

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shape me the way you want

break me if you need to

please just hold me while you do

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“I think you lost all interest in this world. You were disappointed and discouraged, and lost interest in everything. So you abandoned your physical body. You went to a world apart and you’re living a different kind of life there. In a world inside you.”

— Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

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pretty girls pretty clothes

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the man behind my favourite drink #rum #sailorum #aesthetic #tattoos

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real (severely mentally ill but still hot)