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my friend keeps calling me a whale😂😂😂😂😂😂so funny😂😂😂😂 im gonna kyms😂😂😂😂😅😅😅

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lost 14lbs/6,8kg in june 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

may july be even better 🙏🙏🙏💢

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GUYS PLS HELP A GIRL OUT

my parents are forcing me to eat and get really really mad when i dont .

can u give me some tips ? PLEASE I NEED THEM

I CANT EAT I CANT EAT I CANT EAT I CANT EAT

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my mum is my biggest meanspo, wanna know what she said gi me the other day ?

i was wearing my brother shorts , she looked me dead in the eyes and said “ you’re going to make them explode “ then she started ti say about how fat i am and that im a cow, she started making fun of me and said “ Let’s make a bet, take the scale, if you weigh more than me I’ll give you 50 euros,What are you afraid of it because you are obese?”

i was like 😐 oh thanks mum, thats what i needed your so supportive i love you

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this page became a rage page about my friends 🤨lol not so funny😆

we were bored so me and my friends in class decided to write some good things about this school year to eachother and then read it (Ex. S this year’s w you was good bc youre funny…)

me and S did it, then we read it, when it was turn of my other friend N she started laughing, then she said “thanks S for making me laugh” and then it was my turn but she said “and A(me) No”

i was like “wtfym” and they both started laughing 😆, she didn’t have anything good to say about me😐

OH another fun thing!

we were changing classrooms and we were going to english class, i was with N and i said to her that we should sit together, she looked at me a but disgusted and was like “nah i rather sit with S(the other girl in my trio)” i was like oh😶😐 but as a coward i stayed silent, i think she then felt bad so she sat w me, but it was boring and i tried to be funny but it came unnatural so it was even more boring

why im always left out?

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VENT

wanna know another fun thing that happened?

so in my class two boys thought that they were the best and the coolest so they made a list of the ugliest and prettiest girls in the class…(no, we are not in middle school….)

anyway so i told to my trio about this, and in the lesson we were separated bc of the seating plan, the hour went by and in the next lesson we were talking and a friend that we have said to me “ you know what S told me before” and i said “no tell me” and S was like “omg nono dont tell it” and N started laughing

So my friend E said “ well S before was telling the list of the prettiest and ugliest of the class in her opinion and said that, she is number 9, N number 8 and you(me) are number 10 “

(we are 16 girls in class, which 6 are allegedly “the ugliest one “ so im like a grade below them…)

my friend just told me that im ugly and that she’s prettier than me, while i spent the whole year telling her that she’s beautiful and things like that

Well she weight 43kg and N weights 48kg, meanwhile i weight 79kg so maybe a there is a reason ..

( im not the one that did the list, they were to stupid boy, i actually think its a fucked up things to do as that the allegedly “ ugliest girl” actually are really pretty girls, but really pretty)

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!!!!VENT!!!!

it was my bday party today, i invited some friends over.

The party ended and we were 4 , then my 2 friends had to go away, i walked them to the entrace so that they could go, i went back to my friend that stayed and jokingly i said “now we’re just me and you baby” and she said “ yeah, unfortunately… , i should have called my dad to pick me up earlier,i always try to make this not happen (to not be alone with me)” so i started laughing and said like “ ahahahah i know you love me “ but then she went serious and said “ no srsly , i dont want to be alone with you its embarrassing “

i felt the tears in my eyes and then there was a cringy silent after that (no she wasnt joking, she was serious as she said that to me ) so i was like “oh yeah that actually hurts my feelings but lets talk about something else” and then we moved on

But it still hurts, and the thing that hurt most is that i literally always see it, they (my friends) always make fun of EVERYTHING i say and do, and even if i say something correctly they always stare at eachother and laugh about me and what i said, without caring about my words.

i get it ,sometimes i have the habit of speaking fast amd i eat my words but istg its something i do not bc im stupid (actually academically im more intelligent than both of them) but because when im with ppl i trust i literally dont care to make a speech taht makes sense and i dont like “force myself” so i actually speak my mind and say everything that i think of

im gonna go cry about this

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io

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being afraid of weighing yourself is probably a sign that you haven’t been following your d13t.

are you not serious about this? do you actually even want it? stop ruining your progress. imagine where you could have been by now if you had done what you’re supposed to.

it’s not that hard.

just. stop. e4ting.

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Sometimes you just need someone to hold you tight and whisper "it's going to be okay." Until you fall asleep.

Is that too much to ask?

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ramadan kareem to all my muslin ed girls, and boys

i hope this ramadan we all loose at leats 10kg !! so 2,5 per week, not much we can do it

SOOOOO as every ramadan these are the rules

- dont do suhur , its extra kcal for mostly nothing, personally after suhur i go back to sleep so its like i didn’t eat and i dont have extra energy and i just ate kcal for nothing

- obviously no liquid kcal

- at the table i can only eat ONE PIECE per thing, ex. if there are bastilla i can only eat one and stop, cant eat another one; so i still eat what i like but don’t exaggerate.

- eat max 3/4 different things ( as i said one piece per thing)

-go to the gym i dont care do low intensity cardio workout but still go

i need to loose this 10kg I NEED IT I NEED I WEIGHTED MYSELF AND IM 81kg, its my highest weight ever in my entire life, i never thought i would be thi giant and in so ashamed about it cause i always see girls in tunbler that weight like 50 kg and are so good with their ed and im here binge eating since september and gained 20kg 😀

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so you know how fucking fat i am?

we were talking today in class me and my friends and my friends S said “well i do skating after school you dont do anything “ so i replied with “ no i go to the gym honey” and her and my other friends started joking like “aw every 3 montsh you go” and ok we were joking.

but then i said “well even N doesnt do anything (my other friend)” and S replied with “well at least she has a perfect body you..” and she didn’t finish cause everyone got quiet; i punched her as a joke but i swear to god i started feeling tears in my eyes.

its one of the worst thing somebody ever told me .

just for reference my friend (the one with the perfect body) is 50kg around 130lbs, S is around 40kg so 90lbs and im 170lbs 😁

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Mmmmmm someone big n strong wanting to protect me & ruin me at the same time ♡♡♡

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I'm so tired of being the biggest one in my friend group

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I want to be sick, but not in a "bmi too low" way. I want to be mentally sick, struggle with food in unthinkable ways, that the smell of something makes me cry bc of the calories, not being able to eat even if people beg me. I want to be so sick that even looking at food scares me

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my parents took me to the doctor because i dont eat, at the doctor i started crying telling her about my issues with food(eating disorder) , it was a cry for help, she calmed me and told me she will call my parents and explain to them this problem.

The next day she called my mum and talked with her about this eating disorder that i have and that she should bring me to a psychiatrist, my mum then proceeded to ignore this thing thinking its just dumb and that the Social workers will take me, she said that it was stupid and the doctor was just trying to make our family look bad . this happened 2 years ago and i still think about how my life will be different if my mum would have sent me to a psychologist to recover instead of ignoring the problem

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what’s the largest amount of weight you have lost in a month?

ill start: 17,6lbs(8kg)