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[kesomon]

To get real a second here...

I’m a healthy 30-year-old working in a semi-strenuous job. I wear masks anytime I’m out, which is infrequent. I only ever go from work to home to grocery and back. I live alone, and I haven’t touched or been touched by another human in 6 months, at the least. But I am an introvert with anxiety, depression, and autism, all un-diagnosed by medical professionals, because I’ve always been functional enough not to warrant seeking medication or diagnosis - the singular upside of which being, people stress me out, so being alone is better overall.

Yet even now, I can feel the effects of skin-isolation starting to get to be a bit too much. A bit more manic when talking to people at work. An increase in speech aphasia issues where the words in my brain don’t want to string sentences in coherent patterns when they leave my tongue. The fact that I do my laundry on sundays and then don’t fold them for two weeks, that the dishes from three days ago are still sitting in the sink when the dishwasher is empty and ready to load.

I am under no illusions that catching Covid would probably be, if not the death of me, certainly the death of life as I know it. This is why I will continue to wear masks, to self-isolate when unnecessary, to grit my teeth and push past the mental issues. But even for an introvert, skin-hunger can be a thing, and damnit I need a hug.

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So okay you know Medusa, Greek lady who, depending on which version of the story you subscribe to, either made the gods jealous or gained the gods sympathy, so she got cool snake hair and the ability to turn men to stone if they looked her in the eye?

I’d like to put forth the suggestion that if she was purportedly so attractive that men couldn’t keep their skeevy hands off her to the point the gods had to intervene, that said gods might’ve done better to make her breasts turn people to stone if they looked at them instead of her face/hair/eyes.

Medusa: first purveyor of the ‘my eyes are up here’ t-shirt.

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Am Back

For reasons mostly related to star wars I am back to Tumblr but don’t know how active I shall be.

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Bumping again, just once more, before I log off for the next 24 hours. Blog is backed up, likes are archived, and I hope to see you all on the other side, flicking dust off our shoulder like being carpetbombed was nbd.

Go out like Luke Skywalker, is what I’m saying.

Peace out, programs. ♥

If you can see this...

Then I have apparently survived the Tumblrpocalypse unscathed. Can’t even find a single flagged post. Guess I’m less full of visible sin than I thought.

I’ll probably stay here for the aimless wandering aspect, but I do have a twitter, where I make my small comments, and a dreamwidth, where I think I will move posting plot ideas for the tagging structure. Ao3, of course, for ficposting. The only question is art, which I suppose I can go back to deviantart for, but I post so little of it lately that it can wait.

/makes a little nest in the tumblrweeds

[kesomon]

The Official “Log Off” Protest F.A.Q! 

The “Log Off” protest is in response to the recent NSFW ban announced by Tumblr. The ban flags all content the filtering system detects as NSFW, reducing visibility to the community. The system has proven time and time again that is inefficient, oftentimes flagging SFW material as NSFW. 

This SFW material includes art, memes and so on. This ban directly hurts the community and will not solve the actual problems at hand due to the poor flagging system. Because of this, the entire community will suffer.  

So to respond, I propose that every user on Tumblr logs off of Tumblr for 24 hours on December 17th at 12 am EST. 

Times are listed above depending on timezone! 

This post responds to some very common questions about the protest. So make sure to read it over! 

How to Export Your Blog: 

https://tumblr.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/articles/360005118894-Export-your-blog

Alternative Sites: 

Pillowfort

Mastodan 

Wordpress 

Twitter 

There is also an official Tumblr blog (ironic, huh?) and Twitter for the protest! It’s at: 

Twitter - https://twitter.com/logoffprotest

Tumblr - https://logoffprotest.tumblr.com/

There will be official updates on each account. Make sure to tag us in any posts, or use the hashtag #logoff2018 ! 

Thanks for your support guys. Let’s fight to make Tumblr better. Actually better. 

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Link Add!

Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/kesomon - for the shitposting and shower thoughts

Deviantart: https://www.deviantart.com/kesomon - for the arts and artistry

Dreamwidth: https://kesomon.dreamwidth.org/ - For the plot ideas and the general rambling (in the event Tumblr dies on me. Otherwise it’s just plot ideas.)

Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/kesomon - for the Ficwritans

I’d post my personal site but a.) it doesn’t really contain anything not found on other places, and b.) social media sites keep flagging it as unsafe which, RUDE. I should probably up and move it to a host that isn’t as rubbish.

If you can see this...

Then I have apparently survived the Tumblrpocalypse unscathed. Can’t even find a single flagged post. Guess I’m less full of visible sin than I thought.

I’ll probably stay here for the aimless wandering aspect, but I do have a twitter, where I make my small comments, and a dreamwidth, where I think I will move posting plot ideas for the tagging structure. Ao3, of course, for ficposting. The only question is art, which I suppose I can go back to deviantart for, but I post so little of it lately that it can wait.

/makes a little nest in the tumblrweeds

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The Irony of it is, I’ve seen more porn on my dash since Tumblrgate was announced than in the entire year leading up to it.

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Different Sherlock portrayals as cats. Because I can.

House is the uncontrollable crazy cat.

Robert Downey Jr. cat is the flaunting type.

BBC Sherlock is the brooding cat.

Elementary Sherlock is the cuddly one.

Canon Sherlock is an awesome YouTube keyboard cat that Watson is always impressed by.

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If you can see this...

Then I have apparently survived the Tumblrpocalypse unscathed. Can’t even find a single flagged post. Guess I’m less full of visible sin than I thought.

I’ll probably stay here for the aimless wandering aspect, but I do have a twitter, where I make my small comments, and a dreamwidth, where I think I will move posting plot ideas for the tagging structure. Ao3, of course, for ficposting. The only question is art, which I suppose I can go back to deviantart for, but I post so little of it lately that it can wait.

/makes a little nest in the tumblrweeds

[kesomon]

The struggle of Adult!christmastime is buying yourself nice things to wrap for christmas but having to open them when they arrive to check for damage, restrain yourself from immediately using them, and fretting over which ones to put other people’s names on as ‘from‘ so that you don’t feel like the most lonely useless sadsack on christmas day.

Or waffling over which ones to give to someone else so they can wrap it in Mystery Paper so you at least have some slight element of surprise come the day, but inside knowing the bitter aftertaste is coming.

I’m very lonely-and-unappreciated-feeling today. There’s no reason for it except Brain Nonsense. I don’t like it.

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Had a random thought-plot that I don’t think I’d be able to write, so I’ll share:

What if, growing up, Rose Tyler had an imaginary friend, and that friend was Bad Wolf?

Let’s intermesh some canon first: let’s assume that the Moment could be used to create or destroy, so rather than blow up Gallifrey, it was used to make it possible to create the pocket dimension. But after that, where did it go? Imagine the Doctors had to link it to the TARDIS heart. Imagine if it was absorbed into that power. The origin of the Bad Wolf, a cyclical loop of time: The Moment is the Wolf is Rose, who scatters the name and binds herself to the Moment, who appears as the Wolf.

....it’s a bit weird but roll with it.

What if the Moment didn’t just take Rose’s face when it spoke to the Warrior? What if it needed a template to work off of in the first place, time to study the person it would appear as. So it searches Time and Space for the one who wields it in the future, and finds Rose.

Rose Tyler has an imaginary friend. A creature of light and teeth that lurks in the corners of her eyes, whispering of things she can’t begin to comprehend, never seen by anyone but always, always there. A wolf at her heels. Watching, waiting, to devour her whole.

Like I said, really random-thought plot.

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This is it, the final version! I think the lighter bronze works best on the center ring, and saturation is turned up for print quality. Unfortunately, the transfer paper I bought is not transparent, so I loose all that fine detail on the scuffy etches. :/ Still, was an experiment! Gonna stick it on a shirt later.

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The problem, of course, with posting work still WIP is that five minutes later you’ve edited it - and 25 people have already reblogged your original.

Did a silvergold edit for the center ring, not sure if better or worse. I like it, matches the pastels a bit more, but others say they like the bronze better.

Made a few edits and improvements (?) to the shirt design I was working on. Surprisingly difficult to find an accurate colour pallet for the rainbow on Thirteen’s shirt.

I like how this came out but now I’m wanting to see it in silver, not bronze; I think it’ll contrast to the rainbow better, maybe. and need to edit some of the etchings to be deeper-carved/floating higher. idk.

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Made a few edits and improvements (?) to the shirt design I was working on. Surprisingly difficult to find an accurate colour pallet for the rainbow on Thirteen’s shirt.

I like how this came out but now I’m wanting to see it in silver, not bronze; I think it’ll contrast to the rainbow better, maybe. and need to edit some of the etchings to be deeper-carved/floating higher. idk.

[kesomon]

Bringing this back from the depths of my rebagel because I feel like we need it in this trying time.

10 tips for shopping self-care

Black Friday I took my happy little anxiety-riddled tail out and braved the stores and I found myself running a checklist in my brain the entire time. I felt I should share it in the event it might benefit someone else. :)

Make a list - Go into your shopping experience with a set list of items to look for and knowledge of where to look. Wandering hither and yon through the winding aisles trying to make your decisions on the spot can ramp anxiety like nobody’s business. Once that list is resolved, then you can make the decision on whether to linger and browse, or to check out and preserve your sanity.

Know your budget - Don’t overspend more than you can afford, and have a plan in place to lessen financial burden if you do. Set yourself a budget that you can work with - such as ‘I will not buy more than $40 worth of comic books per store’ or ‘I will not spend more than $100 overall no matter the item list’ - and while you’re at it…

Establish a threshold -  If its sales you’re after, check the non-sale base prices first, and then set a threshold for how much of a sale you’re willing to work with. Is the $200 TV you’re eying worth it if it’s 20% off its base price, or would you rather buy the $200 TV that’s 50% off base?

Limit your impulses - If you’re hindered by transportation or budget or even suffer from shopper’s impulse (buying anything in sight that has a sale tag, regardless of whether you need it), try bringing a fixed number of reusable bags, only as many as you can carry fully loaded by hand. Tell yourself, anything you buy must fit in those bags, or else don’t get it. It helps!

Plan your route - if your list takes you to multiple stores,  make a route plan. Decide how many items are in each store, where the store is located in conjunction with the other stores, and how to get there with the least amount of traffic, parking hassles, and other transportation issues that might make nerves worse off. Don’t ping-pong all across town multiple times.

Manage your time - Know when your destinations are open, and if the sale is a ‘doorbuster’, the time limits. Prioritize your urgency. Is the doorbuster for the crock pot that lasts till noon worth getting up at 6am? It also helps to put a limit on how much time you spend looking for items in any given store. I myself mastered a 1-hour Black Friday Target run this year - 1 hour from in-the-door to into-the-line - by following all the above tips.

Remember to eat - consume something substantial but light before you begin a shopping trip, and if you plan to be out all day, bring snacks of a nature that you know will not upset your systems. Too much food will just make you sleepy, and too little food will make you cranky. You’ll feel better for it.

Hydrate the hell up - no, seriously, bring water. Bottle, sippy cup, in-store drinking fountain: use them well, use them wisely. Only thing worse than a hunger headache is a dehydration migraine.

Be polite - it takes 5 seconds to smile and say hello before making a request, or smile and say thank you, to the overworked and stressed storefolk that are allowing this madness to occur for your benefit. Speak softly and carry no sticks. I guarantee they will probably smile back and be more helpful.

Don’t panic - In most instances, anything you’re probably after is probably something you’ve been looking for quite a while, but were willing to wait for a lower price. Therefore, it is probably not vital to your continued existence (though you do want it very badly.) If the store is run out, or the sale is not enough of a deviation from the base price, or someone less composed than you is hoarding all the fleecy tees and hissing like a dragon, do not stress, do not yell, do not take your frustrations out on the storefolk. Try online, or check back later, or see if the price is matched somewhere else less dragon-infested. And if all this fails you, take a deep breath, and accept the situation. Wait for the next sale. It might even be a better deal.

I’m not saying that everyone can benefit from this list, but I hope for those it does, that it helps you survive the shopping experience this holiday season and mayhap even for all types of shopping excursions as well. (the bag limit works great for anti-impulsing groceries in my experience.)

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CONVERSELY

Imagine a timeline in which the Time Lords, eager to put the Sixth Doctor on trial, pluck an outlier regeneration from the end of the Doctor’s timestream thinking it’ll be easy to convince him to turn on his past self for a new set of regenerations.

Not yet realising that they already did that, for this particular incarnation. And Twelve, once he realises what’s gone on, plays along long enough to get alone with Six and then turns to his younger self and is all ‘well this is all ridiculous, lets grab Mel and Glitz, rescue the Master, and I can go back to having tea in my office without all these interruptions.’

Boom: Trial of a Time Lord made 120% better.

Although now I kinda really want this to happen to Thirteen too, imagine THAT encounter. Pulled from her timestream, much to her shock, meets Six, and as stated in an earlier headcanon, gets along splendidly, much to the horror of the Time Lords trying to shenanigan things.

Me: Can’t keep eyes open, time to sleep. Me: windows open, shades down, blankets layered, pillow fluffed Me: head down, eyes closed

Brain: HEY WHAT IF Me: godsdamnit

Sorry folks, gotta share a last plot idea else my brain won’t stop screaming at me and let me sleep.

So what if Ten, heading towards the Season 4 trauma and darkness, treading the Line of his darkest impulses, meets Twelve for the first time. Twelve, being the dour and brooding minimalist magician of early days, uncertain if he’s a good man but secretly a softy under all his cross eyebrows.

And Ten has met his Eleventh Self before, in the Time Lock of the Moment; he may not remember if Gallifrey was actually saved, but he has the vaguest idea of what his future self looks like, thanks to the combined subconscious of the Warrior and himself.

And Ten knows Eleven is lying his ass off about being the ‘Eleventh Doctor,’ because yeah, even deep down inside his hearts, he acknowledges the Warrior and the Metacrisis as legit regenerations in his cycle.

So, Twelve’s the outlier. He shouldn’t exist. Gallifrey is in limbo, there’s no such thing as the option of Another Regeneration Cycle for Ten. Dark, brooding, shows up roundabouts the ‘final regenerations’.

And so Ten makes the erroneous but logical conclusion and assumption that Twelve is in fact the Valeyard, another piece of Time Lord trickery sent from the Time Locked Gallifrey of the War to trick him into opening the Lock and restore Gallifrey in all its blood-soaked glory.

Imagine that encounter.

….That is all. :) G’night everybody!

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Me: Can’t keep eyes open, time to sleep. Me: windows open, shades down, blankets layered, pillow fluffed Me: head down, eyes closed

Brain: HEY WHAT IF Me: godsdamnit

Sorry folks, gotta share a last plot idea else my brain won’t stop screaming at me and let me sleep.

So what if Ten, heading towards the Season 4 trauma and darkness, treading the Line of his darkest impulses, meets Twelve for the first time. Twelve, being the dour and brooding minimalist magician of early days, uncertain if he’s a good man but secretly a softy under all his cross eyebrows.

And Ten has met his Eleventh Self before, in the Time Lock of the Moment; he may not remember if Gallifrey was actually saved, but he has the vaguest idea of what his future self looks like, thanks to the combined subconscious of the Warrior and himself.

And Ten knows Eleven is lying his ass off about being the ‘Eleventh Doctor,’ because yeah, even deep down inside his hearts, he acknowledges the Warrior and the Metacrisis as legit regenerations in his cycle.

So, Twelve’s the outlier. He shouldn’t exist. Gallifrey is in limbo, there’s no such thing as the option of Another Regeneration Cycle for Ten. Dark, brooding, shows up roundabouts the ‘final regenerations’.

And so Ten makes the erroneous but logical conclusion and assumption that Twelve is in fact the Valeyard, another piece of Time Lord trickery sent from the Time Locked Gallifrey of the War to trick him into opening the Lock and restore Gallifrey in all its blood-soaked glory.

Imagine that encounter.

....That is all. :) G’night everybody!