kailnonymous

[kailnonymous]

Let me leave

It's the most uncomfortable feeling, when you're stuck inside a body you don't want to currently be in. Weighed down, can't escape, stuck in the celestial plane we call "home". Let me leave this place, let me float, anything to get away from this feeling of heart break.

[kailnonymous]

someone can treat you right and still not be compatible. And that's okay.

[kailnonymous]

The hardest part

I changed my mind. The hardest part is actually getting up and starting my day. Not in the mood to do any of my favorite things, no motivation to do anything, but getting up because I have to. THAT is the hardest part.

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broken again

I think the hardest part is knowing I made it through the last one and once again had someone I cared about, just to be broken again. This was not my fault. He chose not to work on his communication instead of keeping me in his life. I don't want to start over again. I'm tired.

[kailnonymous]

Funny how even in a relationship, you can feel so alone. When they say they care, but you don't hear from them all day. They would prefer to be there for their friend instead of you. But how do you choose, right? Life is so complicated.

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Even in a new relationship, I think of you. I wonder what things would have been like. You know?

[kailnonymous]

Vienna - you can't be everything you want to be before your time.

[kailnonymous]

It's such a defeating feeling when you tell the person you have feelings for, what you want from them, and they still don't do it.

[kailnonymous]

Floating through the stars, feeling euphoric as the hydrogen and gases brush my skin. Like cold little kisses all over my body. 🥰

[kailnonymous]

I will always be there for him, but he will never be for me. I would drop everything, but he will never bat an eye. I've grown accustomed, though. I think I just will always hold a place for him in my heart and no amount of pain he causes will change that.

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People never change, really. They may grow as a person, but their unintentional actions will continue.

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You can't break a broken heart when it's already a familiar feeling.

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I just don't reminisce as much on the good memories anymore. Which was the hardest part. I still have feelings for him. But I think I always will. I thought I knew love before him but he taught me what it was. It's suffocating, it's an adventure, it's loving their interests, their passions and goals. It's wanting to be part of every single thing they do in life, wanting to grow and live and experience with them, and it can be toxic.

[kailnonymous]

Alcohol is funny.

I drink to have fun, and I have fun. But the fun turns to agitation and the agitation turns into sadness. I get into my head about things I haven't felt in a while. And I feel so alone.

[kailnonymous]

From the moment you are born, you are dying. Isn't that crazy? Maybe WE are the aliens. Like…. we start as these tiny creatures that grow to full size and age until our bodies stop working. Our mind and souls remain young, but the body ages as if it's not capable of surviving more than 70-100 years in the environment we put it into.

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As time passes, I think the real reason it hurt so much is I watched him use me over and over, but I continued to let it happen.

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A glimpse into the future would be sublime. No worries about where I will be, how I will feel, or who I might be with. No stress.