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[k1ele]

one of the positive things about being addicted to cigs is, that you don't get a feeling of hunger or appetite at all.

[k1ele]

was forced to go to mcdonalds with my fam today, so i had like 1000cals :((

luckily i'm gonna be fasting the next week tho. i'll try to go for the whole week, but 5 days is the minimum!!

[k1ele]

Well if it isn’t the consequences of my own actions 😔

[k1ele]

the moment i actually kind of recovered or shit, just to wake up one day and start this shit all over again😻

but now weighing fcking 70kgs. wish i never recovered at all.

i'm thinking about not eating the whole next week/at least 5 days. the last weeks i also tried to stay under 600cals. only the alcohol fcked my intake up :((

[k1ele]

feeling like a god when i binge and don't gain weight

[k1ele]

binging<<<<<<<<<<<

[k1ele]

it's really sad that i could be skinnier if i'd never even had started to lose weight.

bc then i wouldn't obsess so much about food,what wouldn't lead me to binge -> i'd just stay the same way

I think i lost my last braincells writing this lmao

[k1ele]

some thinspo bc i feel like shit today </3

[k1ele]

i have to say it's pretty convenient that working out triggers my ed :)

[k1ele]

why does alcohol have so many calories? :/

[k1ele]

the thing is like,why tf do my friends call me skinny when i gained fcking 15kg(ig about 30lb idk?) in the last year.

ahhh i want to weigh 45kg again..i was so skinny!!!

but that's what i'm going for again ^^

[k1ele]

after 1 year denying that i'm fat and doing nothing,i started loosing weight again :)