justyouraverageghostlyguest

[justyouraverageghostlyguest]

I was listening to "My Greatest Fear" by Benson Boone while I was studying and I could not stop thinking abt

Anthony. Bloody. Lockwood.

Maybe it's because I'm obsessed with the show and the books (I am), or because I've spent too much time watching edits on Tik Tok and reading fanfictions on AO3 and Wattpad (I have), I don't know. Might write a fanfic abt this later but these are just most of my thought processes:

'Got a lot on my mind that keeps me up at night /I'm tossing and turning, thinking that my life's gone to waste / Just filling up empty space' - Reminded me of his horrible sleep schedule, the grief and loss after his family died, and then finding George and Lucy.

'And if there's a God, I don't know where He's been.' - I just keep thinking abt catholic Lockwood, I dunno-

'But you're here now / And that makes it better somehow' - The Lockwood and Co. family TwT

'All the things that I've been afraid to lose / My greatest fear of all is losing you' - Abandonment issues, need I say more???

'I got paranoid about the way you've been holding on.' - Got me thinking of him worried abt Lucy trying to connect with visitors

'I'm scared to take another picture of you / 'Cause I'm scared to have another thing that I can lose' - My poor, poor baby

'I'm losing you / I'm losing you / Oh, I'm losing you / Don't know how the broken pieces fit together if you're leaving / So don't go, don't go' - Made me think wayyy too much of Lucy announcing her resignation and him trying to convince her to stay hsdvhdsbdsjcudcdj

'I would take your hand if I could reach it' - Reminded me of all the times he held her hand before The Hollow Boy and all the times he probably thought he should have and how much he wanted to then-

'Pull you back, but you're already gone / You're gone, gone, gone' - (sobbing)