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they need to make a separate search function for when you do not wanna fuck the character youre looking up

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thinking about the perfect court tonight. or the would-be perfect court lineup: riko moriyama (01), kevin day (02), nathaniel wesninski (03) and jean moreau (04). something about neil and jean being "misplaced forever partners". how neil would've been so staunchly loyal and protective and devoted to jean and how jean would've had someone as brave and fierce and bold as neil to rely on in the nest. kevin and jean living out the reality of the broken perfect court for years, being abused and battered and how jean said they'd bent over backwards to prevent the other ravens from noticing riko's treatment of them. how it was about pride and dignity and self-preservation. thinking about how kevin went to the nest brokenhearted but jean went to the nest angry. thinking about the miserable years they spent at each other's side, tending each other's wounds, murmuring in quiet french, jean watching and wanting kevin silently and kevin only having eyes for the court. riko toeing the line with kevin between "beloved brother" and "punching bag". how neil josten's number (10) is the inverse of riko's number (01). how in a previous draft andrew says kevin loves neil because of how similar neil is to riko. how jean's ideal perfect court number would've been 4 and 4 means death in japanese, and in every other draft jean kills himself. thinking about that alternate universe where kevin and nathaniel and jean all coexist under riko's heavy hand. how they'd look out for and protect and care about each other in the bloodstained walls of evermore, united under the cruel thumb of the master and his deranged nephew. something about how in another world, andrew would've been a part of that lineup. how jean said the perfect court was in dire need of a goalkeeper, and andrew was worthy to fill that role. thinking about how jean was certain kevin would die after the finals game, that riko would kill him and the master would kill riko, and then it would only be him, neil and andrew, and how they'd rebuild the perfect court with just the three of them. thinking about how desperately the other ravens strived to be given neil's 4, and how much that number cost jean and how in the end it came to nothing. and jeremy thinking he wants to know what it was for. the perfect court. the tragedy that could've been.

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"Did you think you were special?"

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I really wonder how aftg would change if Kevin was dead

if kevin was dead at the start aftg wouldn’t happen if kevin was dead at the end tsc wouldn’t happen it’s all a very simple matter really

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The foxhole court, chapter five

First books monsters were something really.

On an aftg reread, which is very useful to survive school these days. Currently into the kings men, i'll make more fanart cause this brings me so much joy (which - idk what it tells about my mental state). If you have suggestions on what I should draw next I'm taking em.

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biblically accurate Kevin Day tattoo apparently

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Neil is willing to kill for Jean, having only been his partner at the Nest for three weeks. Can you imagine if they had grown up together?

Also I can't get over the thought of Nathaniel comforting Jean whose pining for Kevin.

And that because they both grew up so unloved and uncared for they always use terms of endearment and hug a lot (they still snark each other, of course). They are the most important person to the other.

Imagine if they got rescued by the Foxes and the headache Wymack, Betsy and Abby have trying to coax them out of their codependency. Lol good luck.

Wymack: maybe go for a walk Jean

Jean: ok I'll get Nate

Wymack: or you could go by yourself?

*Jean and Nate start screaming like they're being murdered*

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something about andrew loving aaron so much that he killed for him. something about andrew doing everything in his power to protect aaron. something about andrew needing aaron’s approval about his relationship with neil. something about aaron trying throughout their sessions with bee. something about aaron not wanting to lose andrew. something about the twinyards.

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I hope Andrew Minyard is having a nice slow and quiet Sunday morning with his husband and his two cats, a call planned later with his brother and cousin, and nothing to worry about except what the redheaded menace sharing his life is preparing for breakfast that’s already smelling slightly burned

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by the way nora said that when aaron and andrew went their separate ways from south carolina aaron hugged andrew and andrew was the last one to let go. if you even care

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y'all read all three aftg books and still said Kateaaron wouldn't make it past college. THAT is fucking crazy

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I'm still not over people acting like Andrew choking Kevin was this big scandalous thing. he's cut him too mf and i can think of two times off the top of my head that Kevin has slammed Andrew into a wall. that's how they play it's fine

(also this is the only time Andrew has hurt him out of desperation and not just for fun and it's the incident everyone focuses on. like why?)

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nobody's soldier

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Ill never forgive the aftg fandom for saying aftg is poorly written but loveable. it is so fucking well written. The characters are all interesting individually and as group dynamics. The plot is unexpected but always makes sense. Theres so many incredible 1 liners said. Theres humour. Theres heartfelt love. Theres angst. You can cry and you can laugh and you can get invested. Nora made characters with actual fucking personalities instead of just catalysts for neil's story. She did this so well she was able to take 2 minor characters and give them an entire sequel.

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the curious incident of jean moreau finding out capitalism wasn’t a state in america

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i don’t know about you guys but the main reason i am still on tumblr in 2024 is BECAUSE it is the most cloutless least influential social media app out there and that is the experience i am after. absolutely none of this will ever translate into significant attention or real success in my life and that is so beautiful.

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Sorry, sorry, but manipulative hurt/comfort is fucking cocaine to me. The predatory aspect of it. The vulnerability—500% better if the hurt party knows they're being manipulated and is past the point of caring. The juxtaposition of sweet and sharp flavours. Barkbarkbark