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Does anyone have the sheet music for Yuri On Ice? 🩷 I would be so grateful if someone could forward it to me!

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I forgot how to do trigger warnings im so sorry

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I’m trying so hard not to kill my self. And I’m struggling. And I’m tired. :(

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Hi! Good to hear the hugs and happy thoughts helped even a little bit. Hope it gets better soon for you! Hang in there. Have a flower 🌻

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Long time no see. Trigger warning for rant and mental health.

So we broke up. The guy I posted so much about in December. He had moved to live with me but he turned out to be quite manipulative and very very unmanaged BPD. Which was so difficult for my own emotions to regulate.

Classic does something shit so he cries in your lap kinda guy. Literally. Sweet when he’s happy, cold when he’s not. Not to mention he has a daughter he hasn’t seen for a long time due to money issues, but prioritises buying beer and cigarettes.

It was a few months of pure happiness until I realised this guy is immature and can’t handle money and his own emotions well. And I tried for a few months to handle it myself but I couldn’t so I ended it. He begged me to let him stay until he found a place, fair. I’m not the kind of person to make someone homeless unless pushed.

Which lead to a couple nights ago. He’d done a couple annoying things that morning that bothered me but wasn’t enough to really communicate about so when he came home from work and wanted to chat friendlies I said I don’t feel like talking. We’d previously had a conversation about respecting boundaries since I had a hard time when he was being cold and short with me and we agreed that he would just let me know if he doesn’t want to talk or needs space and I can respect that.

Guess it doesn’t go the other way though because I was sat on my couch and forced to communicate while he stood by the lounge room door. So I opened up and I guess he didn’t like me telling him what bothered me (because really it was so minimal I didn’t NEED to talk about it) so he decided to just tell me that I don’t care about him like he cared about me and that it’s entirely my fault that his life is ruined.

That I made him move here and now his life is upended. That I’m killing him. That I don’t love him as much as he loved me. That I hate him.

So I told him to get out. Goes against everything I am as a human being. I know I’m kind and patient but he pushed and tested it and didn’t want to lay in the bed he made. So instead he called me inhumane and in the worst tone “I wouldn’t do this to my worst fucking enemy”. He may as well have spat at me with how awful he said it.

Anyway. He finally left. Made sure to tell me in these literal words “you should feel guilty, this is fucked.”

So now I’m back alone. But even though I’m isolated I have so much support. My friend got me a care package and another sent me some money for home security (my dad’s been stalking me as well for a whole year but that’s another thing). In heart broken and extremely hurt but I’m going to be okay.

I was with a person who, when push came to shove, turned out to be terribly cold, self preserved and whose addictions mattered more than anything else.

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Hi! Sending you some happy thoughts and hugs for the day!

This couldn’t have come at a better time :,))

Partner and I broke up after 8 months and I’ve been struggling with finding out a close friend has cancer.

Big hugs for whoever this was. 🩷

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though the movie might be cancelled, yuri on ice will live forever in our hearts. thank you yoi fandom, it's been real ♡

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well gee, bringing this back around then I guess. Thanks Mappa

Stuck in never seeing Ice Adolescence hell

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I was watching Joker Game again and now I can’t stop imagining these two as superspies. Dressed in white shirts and suspenders. 

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he when he

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Baby Christophe 🌻

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when bf says “I hope I’m the last guy you date” 👉🏻👈🏻 uh YEAH obviously I’m gonna marry tf out of you.

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Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all my lovely friends on here! I care about y’all so much and am so happy to have met you all 💗 I hope today is full of joy in any capacity.

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Katsudon Piroshki!

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Hey Paige ❤

I'm so sorry to hear about your family-situation. I think sometimes parents forget that they actually are grownups and that they should act that way, instead of acting like children. Blocking and unadding on social media is so childish. I hope things are getting better, especially now since Christmas is right around the corner.

I'm also really sorry about your grandma. I think you should go visit her grave.

And when it comes to your ex; if you're not happy in a relationship you should step out of it. Don't feel guilty for that.

I really hope things are getting better for you. I do care about you and I'm sorry that I haven't replied earlier. Life is hectic, but I'm doing well.

I wish you a merry Christmas and a happy New year ❤

- A

Oh Hoshi 💗 thank you so much for these kind words. I’m so sorry I didn’t see them sooner! I’ve actually been really happy lately and less online due to it.

I started using this blog a bit more as a personal diary than intended but I don’t regret it one bit when I get kind words and good friends reaching out!

Christmas is going to be great this year- I feel it. I hope it’s all wonderful for you too and things slow down so you can breathe. 💗💗💗

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My bf loves inline skating and watched Yuri on Ice with me and LOVED IT SO MUCH AND WAS SO INSPIRED he chucked on his skates after 5 years and we went for a skate!!!!

HES AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL AND HE WAS SOOOOO INTO YOI WITH ME IM IN LOVEEEEEEEEEE

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I FOUND IT !!!!!!!!

broke up with my fiancé cause if we aren’t obsessed with each other like Victor and Yuuri I don’t want it.

but also genuinely just wasn’t happy. but I’m inspired to find the kind of love kubo sensei taught me about.

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jfc I’ve never been happier.

My BOYFRIEND is MOVING to BE WITH ME.

He got a full time job here and he’s coming to live with me and NO I DONT CARE IF ITS SOON. I’m too happy and too ecstatic to look into the logistics of it. He’s moving 6 hours to be with me- be near me.

He’s just. Beautiful. I’m stupidly in love. We’ve spent the past week and a bit together and it feels so normal. Like- supermarket trips and cooking dinner together. Cleaning up afterwards. Dinner with his grandparents and helping them around their house when he’s at work. I just- ugh. I love him.

He’s the most sincere thing I’ve ever come into contact with. He didn’t have sex with me for one day bc he didn’t want dopamine getting in the way of some of our choices and I just. Aggggghhhhh I respect that. Also he posts on fb about me and is very publicly in love with me KAHDKAHD

And his DOGS LOVE ME 😭😭 one of them is a girly who LOVES and protects her dad. And she stopped barking at me aggressively and scarily and rolls over onto her back for pats and lets me play with her. He said it was so special and now I have a dog that’s gonna protect me too. 😭

This is just a document of the rest of my life. I have never been so happy.