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i'm going to die out of heartache

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unfortunately i DID take what you said to heart and now i’m sobbing and debating on whether i should kill you or kill myself

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i love being ghosted! i love being left out!

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no one's reading allat

what do normal people even know about grief. "it gets better with time" no, no it doesn't. the void he left in me by dying and leaving me all alone will NEVER heal y'all hear me NEVER because i'll never stop loving him like i always did therefore the pain will never stop, my heart will always ache and even when im one day happy all i'll think about is how he didn't get to experience the good in life because of a godforsaken cancer. whenever i see someone similar on the street, for a split second i'll be filled with hope that it's him, that he never died, followed by a feeling of emptiness so big it's impossible to explain. and denial, anger and grieving isn't as bad as finally letting go. letting go and making up with reality hurts the most and somehow when i think i went through all stages all grief and im finally free, it all repeats once again like a cycle. his voice will always be in my head, i'll see his face every time i close my eyes and i'll keep dreaming about what could've my and his life been if i never lost him. it doesn't get better with time. it will always be equally unbearable and the day i finally die ill pray to every god possible to allow me to meet him once again and hug him a little tighter than the last time i did before he passed.

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I want to buy you cute things!!!! We can become shopaholics together mwaahahaha

AAAAA YES

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Happy birthday 🎂

ty anon ! 💞

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happy birthday

tysm ! 🫶🏻

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Happy birthday! It's your special day! :)

thank you ! 🩷

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Happy birthday Sora!!! Wish you a wonderful day!

thank you anon ! have a nice day too 🩷

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happy birthday to me

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What are styros?

styrofoam anon (⁠☞⁠^⁠o⁠^⁠)⁠ ⁠☞

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i cannot begin to explain how badly i want to die right now. no i dont want to study i dont want the future or even tomorrow to come. i want to overdose but enough to die instantly because i cant simply bear another failed attempt. i wish i didnt have parents so i could kill myself without any guilt that im hurting someone.

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i had a lesson with my math tutor yesterday and i had a breakdown afterwards, he was mean to me and complaining about my gaps in knowledge even though i told him im behind because for a year i was either bedrotting or going from one mental hospital to another and now he's ridiculing me about it? i want to kms the next lesson is on monday i hope i die before it.

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u are so cool! and pretty!

hehe tysm !

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hi jirais ! here's the discord server i made, it's still in development but i hope y'all will like it !

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Who is / are your favourite Genshin character(s)? Personally I’m a bit of a Hu Tau, Chiori and Yelan simp 🫠

ohh i like chiori too, mine does 50k damage with a random build lmao other than her i like mizuki (just got her!) and xiao!

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hi jirais if i made a discord server would someone be interested in joining ? it would be very open no taboo im not good at building servers but if someone wanted to join i would be happy !