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Hi I hope you are all well. First of all, thank God for everything. Please help us!!!!! Manal is now in the hospital and needs to undergo surgery. The doctors told us that the operation will cost $5000. Please, please save Manal's life. Don't let her meet the same fate as her brother Mohammed. Manal's life is in your hands. Donate on the link to cover the cost of the operation. https://gofund.me/a3f747d1 .. This account has been verified by @90-ghost

The goal is $5000.

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(Spoilers) Just a Reminder to Curly Sympathizers

Jimmy and Curly are not "Problematic Favs". They're literally thematic vessels for THE problem.

CW: Mentions of SA, and Abuse

Curly (And Pony Express as a Company) Never Cared to give Anya Pysche Evals. Curly only started to care for that when it doubled as an occupational hazard to him and his image.

Curly actively vouches for Jimmy as a crew member despite his "struggle" on earth. I don't see how it'd be far-fetched to assume that involves some form of Misconduct with the fact Curly literally says

"You've gotten through difficult situations before" RIGHT AFTER talking to Anya the actual Victim.

Curly doesn't understand why Anya was talking about the locks on the sleeping quarters and moves past it to reinforce the company's logic. [The Company and Curly can not be bothered to consider or provide actual safety for women. It is an afterthought that resembles a cruel apathy towards women's perspectives in a corporate work environment.]

Would Curly have given the gun to Anya if she asked? Probably not. While that is somewhat debatable It rings to the shitty isolated environment where Anya would have to take up such a mindset. Not to mention Curly is clearly super pals with Jimmy, so if that was a concern he'd probably take Jimmy's (and the rest of the guys) side considering he later took jimmy's side under the fact he sexually assaulted a woman.

The first thing Curly says to Jimmy after trying to consolidate Anya is "I Can Fix This". Curly enables Jimmy to find ways to get out of taking responsibility for the harm he did to Anya.

Curly buckles to the fact his mind is more focused on his position and reputation as a Captain rather than the personal impact Jimmy's harm has caused Anya. This issue is an occupational obstacle to him first and foremost.

Jimmy: "This can be remembered as a tragedy".

Jimmy: "The Tuplar crew was never found."

Jimmy: "You're standing at the top. Feet in cement. Right?"

Curly: "...Right."

And his complacency and dissonance of that truth leads him to do absolutely nothing.

I have seen so much art, and discourse treating him like he wasn't an active enabler. You know what. Fuck it. Half of this is going to double as an Anya Post. thinking about how people disgustingly twist her character to redeem two shitty men who are completely at fault irks me so much.

Anya

The fact that Anya doesn't really get to build herself as a character outside of the scenes that reinforce her tragedy, and antagonist environment feels super sucky.

The purpose of such a narrative direction is of course meant to feed into Jimmy's resentful apathetic attitude towards her, and emphasize the cold unfeeling corporate entity that hired her to be on the tulpar, but as a narrative choice, it still feels rather cruel to take in. Jimmy literally erases her personhood from his mind and only internalizes her presence as a threatening womb while taking the rest of the games runtime to focus on himself and the other men on board.

I see many renditions of Anya in fanart. Adding to her character in ways people weren't really given the time to appreciate or take in during the actual game due to how little she's left with.

I find her canon resolution both annoying and interesting due to this type of interaction where the fans are being pushed towards an interpretive play pen where they are motivated to give Anya more characteristics, quirks, and perspectives than she was allowed to have or emphasize within the game.

Using such field of creative deliberation to redeem the men that actively harmed her is such a gross way to use that play pen.

To get into some interpretations

A pretty important moment occurs after Anya runs out of the medical room during the painkiller scene with the thought:

"I have to believe that our worst moments don't make us monsters"

I think there are quite a few different ways to take this line in this moment, but to share my own perspective I believe it most likely stems from these potential factors:

Anya is trying to maintain a metric of empathy and trust to continue to control herself in the current conditions and stresses she's under at this moment. The needs of the crew can not be upheld without this kind of thinking while under the orders of her abuser.

Anya still cares for Curly and is disconnecting the harm he caused from the rest of his humanity as a person who is also suffering.

Anya is reflecting on her own legitimacy while the internalized trauma she went through makes her feel alienated from herself. Accepting the actual piece of shit that is Curly allows her to hold faith in herself as a person through the shared correlation of pain and "mistakes" as she percieves it bonding her with Curly.

While somewhat ambigous I think its important to generally understand these types of potential layers when interacting with the themes and subjects presented by Anya as a character. Ideas which are critical and dissective of Anya as an actual Subject above a simple generalized understanding of her peripherally as a victim.

also Idea 2 doesn't make Curly vindicated. Curly was the only member that Gave Anya some sense of care (As ingenuine as that care was). That dependency is toxic and was unfortuately potentially of mental necessity to Her. To reframe it as a point for Curly to show he was better than what he presented himself to be so deeply annoys me with how uncritical that reframing is when addressing the actual faults and mentality that led him to his bedridden state. With how little Anya is already focused on, it feels like that interpretation and dynamic hands Curly the position of "Subject" while Anya still remains an "Event" to some people.

That kind of thinking not only significantly reeks of a lack of indulgence in actually trying to further interpret the facets presented in Anya's character, position, and mental state, but also dilutes the meaning to be had in analyzing Curly as an enabler. The framing of Curly as an "Enabler in Rehab" or "Tragic Casualty" feels so utterly ignorant, redundant, and enigmatic to my senses when he is so utterly undeserving compared to Anya who barely gets any other elaboration or analysis from the community outside of "awww wasn't that sad" or sensationalization around "The Event".

I WOULD go into Anya's logic leading up to her death, but thats a post and analysis for a different tumblr user to take care of. I honestly just gradually have developed new ways to hate the Mouthwashing fandom, so I really needed this to make mental space for the next few horrible bizarre takes i'll inevitably see about this game.

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God

It feels so nice hitting a good chain follow spree. My following stocks are rising.

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Venom: The Last Dance Movie Thoughts (Spoilers)

Its very sad how this trilogy at the very end sort of detracts from the main focus of the romance to give time to this Van family I can just barely bring myself to care about outside of maybe the scene where Eddie talks to leaf. then theres these scientist that are bumbling around.

Its just a bunch of uninteresting sequences where people I don't know or care about keep talking and talking. sometimes it really does feel like the writers were doing madlibs across certain sections.

Also, venom animals are cool and all, but they had like seven symbiotes to play with that all just got merc'd in the end by some generic starcraft-looking alien things.......Okay maybe I'm being a little too harsh, because I actually think those aliens are really cool, but as a main reoccurring antagonist, it gets boring. You tellin me knull has hundreds upon hundreds of these bugs and couldn't just send even more, thus making Venom's sacrifice literally aimless. Also what the fuck even is this acid thing still left here from the start of the movie? This shit is just around and Venom knew it'd work?

Also venom dancing with Mrs.Chen was cute, but that being the pit for next conflict is just bad writing.

It just feels like everything got so PR'd up that the movie stopped having a vision for crafting actually interesting scenes.

Also why is Venom's body count for Hispanics so high? Like sure he killed a bunch of police and army grunts, but the scenes where non-feds are being framed as the bad guys feel very racialized. Also ya animal abuse is hell tier, but when the framing is "these dogs are more important than these POC's and the WHITE MAN is delivering justice upon them" it gets weird.

There's also an entire conversation to be had about how a black man is once again empathetically framed while actively sitting in the fed/military chair.

It's just such a disappointment. First Fuck Marvel of course for their support of the IDF

(I acquired venom the last dance through the void)

but, also I have to question what the process of making this movie looked like for the writers. To me, it just seems like a case of an incohesive group trying to appeal to communities they don't understand, but I could be wrong and it could be a pay thing as well.

I know the marketing for Venom previously has proved to be not financially smart for Marvel considering the fact the gay subtext has made it harder to get into certain countries, so maybe that somehow affected the attitude during the creative process?

There's also the note to be made about the Director and writer changes throughout the trilogy.

I'm just spitballing though. Don't listen to my dumbass theories that may be completely wrong.

I just can see these potentially being factors.............also to make something clear writers should be getting paid even if the movie literally just consists of a nigga pulling his pants down and hitting a goatsy

Cautionary Definition Goatse: For those unaware this is in reference to popular shock videos spread across the early 2000s of men spreading their assholes.

right into the camera.

.....that was a cruder way to put it, so to make my take clearer:

my opinion on the quality here isn't an attempt to say writers should get fucked out of their money for bad writing. That's not a fundamental issue here. I do hope all the sick fuck Zionists there do in fact suffer some form of retribution and repentance though.

......................................................................................................................On a different note It's interesting to think about how Venom is basically Transmasc and Fluid....Thats all. I just find that to be something very interesting that I wish I saw more people talking about actively.

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Double X2 CSM and Homestuck Release

ooo.......Left with 2 really interesting cliff hangers.

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FD Sig Edit I made today

(Because the New Video)

What if instead of the joker it was the Uncler and he made video essays and liked feet?

Also I used the original image to make this creepy ass image a while ago, by fucking with the leveling in medibang.

This would be such a good image for an analog horror.

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Pupa (Brief Song I made)

Enjoy the drums.

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I really love this post.

Talking about the implicit harms and toxicity within this Era of Internet Fandom fucking bangs.

There are so many layers of non-indulgence on the part of fans that create this "death of the author" bubble where the themes are melted into the shape of varying crude enigmatic desires.

It's very bizarre the scale of how much of it potentially isn't just ignorance, but a choice to ignore implication too. A very harmful thought that seems to be able to come from all forms of identities & fandom is the idea "I need this".

I need them to be gay, (Fujo Territory, and Toxic BL or GL)

I need them to be white, (White)

I need them to be in pain,

(sensationalized feeling externalized via the art of a character without thought of the contextual reality of what the art may represent to others. [Drawing young characters being bloodied, centering ones venting around depicting a character of another race being tormented, or further brutalizing a character tastelessly.]

and so on.

This idea of needing these characters in these ways and these ways showing themselves to be in demand for a fair share of a fandom's population genuinely is several studies and conversations to be had.

I say this with the intention of not coming off as pessimistic, but I do wonder if there will ever be a time when mediums, and media placed in this category of digital entertainment will be something communally more mature on a broader scale as the people who care about what other generations have deemed as "time wasting" art become more important in facilitating the safe spaces and environments in which this art is discussed and held.

Digital Communal Responsibility. Stronger Social Contracts.

There are so many social issues to worry about before we can really even consider getting there, but I have hope in my heart we will somehow.

It's too easy to ignore the task of actually indulging the meaning of art. Such a growing form of stagnation is so dangerous.

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Thematic Questions

do you know what your reaction to the media you consume means within the reality of your identity as it intersects with others?

Where do you think an artist's artistic intent comes from?

did it come from a healthy or unhealthy place?

how might your headcanon relatively align or contradict the health state of their art?

does your headcanon come from a healthy or unhealthy place?

Is the way you indulge art amongst fandom and community healthy?

how & why?

This isn't a "put a shirt on" thing. Do your conclusions feel right to you? I can only ask that you explore that for yourself as your ideas surrounding art grow alongside you as a person.......

again SUPER good post from zzxid. They constructed such a good point in such a good way and I appreciate people who can use words like this.

I genuinely think Mouthwashing fandom is a good example on how real life misogyny is very wired on people brains and influenced how they engage with fictional misogyny.

You have a story about a woman being assaulted and telling a man he trusted but being dismissed because he is friends with the attacker, and people fixate on shipping her with either of those me.

You have a story about how men that downplay their male friends violence, assume neutrality is the safer option, unintentionally help create an environment that's unsafe to vulnerable people, at a risk becoming a victim themselves. And people make it about toxic yaoi.

You have a character kill herself because she didn't want birth the child of her abuser. And people make AUs where she happily keep the baby.

Misogyny isn't just "I hate this women", it's also downplaying their trauma, defending those who caused it, and reducing them to mothers or wives against their wished under this idea of what womanhood is about.

I don't think we can separate fandom misogyny from it's real world influence, not yet.

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Traditional Doodles

I think I've entered a purple love phase. Honestly, my favorite favorite color still has to be blue, but I've been very purped out as of late I'm realizing, so here are a few doodles I've done late at night with my singular purple lightbulb. The first 2 are recent. last a tad older.

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Heres all my Old Image Edits

Leaking these out overtime seems weird so heres all of my image edit pieces. (November ‎21, ‎2023 - November 8, 2024)

Skull Brain Spirit

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LOVE VOLUME (album cover concept)

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TOWER ANGEL

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Mars

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God is an Orange

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3rd Mirror

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Sanctuary

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Poor Doggy

(It's my art so I get to make the title as pretentious and cryptic as I want!!)

All of this work over the course of basically a year. Wild to think about.

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Introduction

Hey everyone.

I'm a 20-year-old Music maker and hobby artist.

I'm Black and I go by Her/Him/Them.

Here's my freshly started Blusky:

and

Heres my rebooted sound Cloud:

My Blogging Principles

Racist, Terf, Pro-Isreal, & any other form of Right-Wing weirdo will be Blocked Summarily upon notice without exception.

If I in any instance have an opinion that you disagree with I am open to a cordial conversation. I enjoy talking to people and further assessing my wrongs if I happen to have any, so don't be shy (if you're not being an asshole about it).

[If I need to add to this I will in the Future]

My Intentions for this Blog

I do music, traditional, & digital art

I will be posting all of my art whenever I catch the feeling.

On top of my art I happen to be a pretty opinionated person so If I end up watching, listening, or reading a piece of media I find interesting this is also going to be my rant space for those things.

My Interest

-Touken Ranbu (Stage & Anime)

-Homestuck

-Independent Music, Animation, Comics and Film.

(I love the obscure and avant-garde stuff) [Especially if it's brief]

-Vocaloid (and Utauloid)

-Theatre (Mostly Musicals)

-Story Podcast

(DNDads, Dimension 10, & Adventure Zone-esque works)

and

many more I'm probably forgetting about.

My Favorites:

Musicians: just to name a few George Benson, Ehiorobo, Louis Cole, Black Midi (& Geordie Greep), Shiina Ringo, Hakushi Hasegawa, Sugo Shikao, Kirnji, Malice Mizer, Kenshi Yonezu, Buzy (The Idol Group), Jazztronik, Tricot, Toby Fox, Nelward, MF Doom, Mary J Blige, Knxwledge, and Tyler the Creator.......................Theres a lot more, but I'll stop their for now.

Albums:

Shiina Ringo - Kani Ki Semen Kurinohana

Cortex - Blue Troop

Jazztronik -Colors of the Day

385 - Nōmiso araou

Ehiorobo -JoltJacket

Cities Aviv - Man Plays the Horn

Ka - Honor Killed the Samurai

Martin Martini and the Bone Palace Orchestra - Dream Until you Die

Tyler the Creator - Call me if you Get Lost

Geordie Greep - New Sound

Among many more

Films/Movies: RAN, I saw the TV Glow, Monkey Man, Watermelon Women, Inu-Oh, Happy Together, Mad-God, & Blood Tea And Red String

Anime: Gundam Thunderbolt, Cowboy Bebop, Saiki K, Utena, Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu, Gintama, & Golden Kamuy

Manga: PunPun, A-bout, Bibliomania, Vagabond

Musicals/Stage Plays: Sweeny Todd, Kinky Boots, and Cabaret

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With that Covered I hope you have fun with whatever this blog might offer you and thank you for your time.