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Ruka Gojou I Commissioned From @leahtrsv [on tumblr]

Posting this here for fellow Ruka appreciators.

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Welcome

I do not know when we will publish about what is really happening here. Life has begun to narrow around us. My children are calling on you from Gaza😔 for help to escape from this unmerciful world. Please participate and donate, even if a small amount of money. Make the world see what these children are suffering from hunger, disease and homelessness. Are these children to blame for what? gets here😭😔

Thank you for listening

Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #49 )

https://gofund.me/a25b42f8

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I'm so scared to losing my family 💔💔🥺

✅ Vetted by @90-ghost  -vetted link

For all kidness people and humanity please consider me as your sister that need a shelter for her husband and baby.

My baby is too little for this bad suffering.

All I need from you is to help us by donating with a little amount of money and if you can't you can share at least 🙏🙏🙏🙏🚨🚨🚨

The money for evacuation is:

$5000 for me

$5000 for my husband

$2500 for my baby

All remaining funds will go to affording Adam’s surgery and helping us survive until we find jobs and start our new life.

You can donate here

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Watching Season 2 of Invincible. On Ep 4 (Spoilers)

Omni-man: So......

Mark: I FUCKING hate you.

Omni-man: .......Okay.

(Long Pause)

Omni-man: You know I still be fuckin tho right?

Mark: ...What

(Longer Pause)

Omni-man: ....Bugussy.

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Finished something in Medibang after a thousand years of not completing anything

I wish I had the foresight to make the background detached from the form of the figure. Oh well.

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donate to black trans groups

the following organizations accept donations via Venmo, PayPal or Cashapp:

Homeless Black Trans Women Fund: supports Black Trans women that live in Atlanta and are sex workers and/or homeless

Trans Justice Funding Project: supports grassroots trans justice groups run by and for trans people, focusing on organizing around racism, economic injustice, transmisogyny, ableism, immigration, and incarceration

Trans(forming): membership-based organization led by trans men, intersex, gender non-conforming people of color, to provide resources and all around transitional support

Black Trans Men Inc.: the first national nonprofit social advocacy organization with a specific focus on empowering Black Transgender men by addressing multi-layered issues of injustice faced at the intersections of racial, sexual orientation, and gender identities

Kween Culture: provides programming towards social and cultural empowerment of transgender women of color

Heaux History Project: a documentary series and archival project exploring Black and Brown erotic labor history and the fight for sex workers’ rights

Tournament Haus Fund: mutual aid fund for protesters and trans/non binary BIPOC in the ballroom scene in Portland/Tacoma/Seattle

Black Excellence Collective Transport for Black NYC LGBTQ+ Protesters: raising funds to provide safe transport for Black LGBTQ+ protesters (NYC)

F2L Relief Fund: provides commissary support (and legal representation & financial assistance) for incarcerated LGBTQ+ and Two-Spirit POC in NY state

Trans Sistas of Color Project Detroit: uplifts, impacts and influences the lives and welfare of transgender women of color in Detroit

Black Trans Protesters Emergency Fund organized by Black Trans Femme in the Arts Collective: supports Black trans protesters with resources like bail and medical care

Black Trans Travel Fund: a mutual aid project developed to provide Black transgender women with the financial resources to self-determine safer alternatives to travel, so they feel less likely to experience verbal harassment or physical harm

Reproductive Justice Access Collective (ReJAC): a New Orleans network that aims to share information, resources, ideas, and human power to create and implement projects in the community that operate within the reproductive justice framework

the following organizations can be donated to individually or all-together via this split donation form that will split your donation amount to equal parts:

Okra Project/Tony McDade and Nina Pop Mental Health Fund: provides Black Trans people with quality mental health & therapy and addresses food security in Black trans communities

For The Gworls: provides assistance to Black trans folks with travel to and from medical facilities, and co-pay assistance for prescriptions and (virtual) office visits ⁣

Third Wave Fund: an activist fund led by and for women of color, intersex, queer, and trans people under 35 years of age to resource the political power, well-being, and self determination of communities of color and low-income communities; rapid response grantmaking, multi-year unrestricted grants, and the Sex Worker Giving Circle

Unique Womens Coalition (Los Angeles, CA): supportive organization for and by transgender people of color, committed to fostering the next generation of black trans leadership through mentorship, scholarship, and community care engagement work

Black Trans Women Inc.: a national nonprofit organization committed to providing the trans-feminine community with programs and resources 

SisTers/Brothers PGH (Pittsburgh, PA): A transgender drop-in space, resource provider and shelter transitioning program

Love Me Unlimited for Life: helps transgender community members reach their goals and fulfill their potential through advocacy and outreach activities

My Sistah’s House Memphis (Memphis, TN): designed to bring about social change within the Trans Community in Memphis by providing a safe meeting space and living spaces for those who are most vulnerable in the LGBTQ+ community

Black LGBTQIA Migrant Project: builds and centers the power of Black LGBTQIA+ migrants through community-building, political education, direct services, and organizing across borders; provides cash assistance to Black LGBTQ+ migrants and first generation people dealing with the impact of COVID-19

Taja’s Coalition at St. James Infirmary (San Francisco/Bay Area): navigating housing, medical services, legal services, and the workplace, as well as regularly training agencies

Marsha P. Johnson Institute: helps employ black trans people, build more strategic campaigns, launch winning initiatives, and interrupt the people who are standing in the way of more being possible in the world for black Trans people

Black & Pink Bail Fund: national prison abolitionist organization dedicated to dismantling the criminal punishment system and the harms caused to LGBTQ+ people and people living with HIV/AIDS who are affected by the system 

Black Visions Collective (MN): healing and transformative justice principles and develops Minnesota’s emerging Black leadership, creating the conditions for long term success and transformation

Middle Tennessee Black and Indigenous Support Fund (Middle, TN): a community fund for Black and Indigenous queer and trans folks to foster wealth redistribution in its larger community, direct the funds to Black and Indigenous community members, and build the leadership of Black and Indigenous community members

SNaPCo (Atlanta, GA): a Black, trans-led collaborative to restore an Atlanta where every person has the opportunity to grow and thrive without facing unfair barriers, especially from the criminal legal system

Brave Space Alliance (Chicago, IL): created to fill a gap in the organizing of and services to trans and gender-nonconforming people on the South and West Sides of Chicago

House of GG: a nonprofit, founded trans activist Miss Major Griffin-Gracy, that is raising money to build a permanent home for Transgender people  and be part of a growing network of Southern trans people who are working for social justice

TGI Justice Project: a group of transgender, gender variant and intersex people inside and outside of prisons, jails and detention centers challenging and ending human rights abuses committed against TGI people in California prisons, jails, detention centers

Trans Women of Color Collective: creates revolutionary change by uplifting the narratives, leadership, and lived experience of trans people of color

Youth Breakout (New Orleans, LA): seeks to end the criminalization LGBTQ youth to build a safer and more just New Orleans, organizing with youth ages 13-25 who are directly impacted by the criminal justice system

Translash: a trans-led project uses the power of individual stories to help save trans lives, shifting the cultural understanding of what it means to be transgender, especially during a time of social backlash, to foster inclusion and decrease anti-trans hostility

TRANScending Barriers:  empowers the transgender and gender non-conforming community in Georgia through community organizing with leadership building, advocacy, and direct services

My Sistah’s House: a trans-led nonprofit providing first hand experience and field research to create a one-stop shop for finding doctors, social groups and safe spaces for the trans community, providing emergency shelter, access to sexual health services, and social services

TAKE Birmingham: focuses on discrimination in the workplace, housing advocacy, support for sex workers, providing trans-friendly services, and working to alleviate the many other barriers that TWOC face

Dem Bois: provides charitable economical aid for female to male, FTM, trans-masculine identified person(s) of color ages 21 years old and older for them to obtain chest reconstruction surgery, and or genital reassignment surgery

G.L.I.T.S: approaches the health and rights crises faced by transgender sex workers

Emergency Release Fund (NYC): aims to ensure that no trans person at risk in New York City jails remains in detention before trial; pays cash bails

HEARD: Helping Educate to Advance the Rights of Deaf Communities: supports deaf, hard of hearing, deafblind, deafdisabled, and disabled people at every stage of the criminal legal system process, up to and including during and after incarceration

Black Trans Advocacy Coalition COVID-19 Community Response Grant: works daily to end discrimination and inequities faced in health, employment, housing and education to improve the lived experience of transgender people

Princess Janae Place: provides referrals to housing for chronically homeless LGBTQ adults in the New York Tri-state area, with direct emphasis on Trans/GNC people of color

The Transgender District: aims to stabilize and economically empower the transgender community through ownership of homes, businesses, historic and cultural sites, and safe community spaces

Assata’s Daughters (Chicago, IL): Black woman-led; organizes young Black people in Chicago by providing them with political education, leadership development, mentorship, and revolutionary services

Collective Action for Safe Spaces: A grassroots organization that uses comprehensive, community-based solutions through an intersectional lens to eliminate public gendered harassment and assault in the DC area.

The Knights and Orchids Society (TKO) work for justice and equality through group economics, education, leadership development, and organizing cultural work throughout rural areas in Alabama

The Outlaw Project (Phoenix, AZ): prioritizes the leadership of people of color, transgender women, gender non-binary and migrants for sex worker rights

WeCare TN (Memphis, TN): Supports trans women of color 

Community Ele'te (Richmond, VA): provides safe sex awareness and education, linkage to resources, emergency housing assistance

TAJA’s Coalition (San Francisco, CA): ending violence against Black Trans women and Trans women of color 

Black Trans Task Force: intersectional, multi-generational project of community building, research, and political action addressing the crisis of violence against Black Trans people in the Seattle-Tacoma area

The Transgender District: stabilize and economically empower the transgender community through ownership of homes, businesses, historic and cultural sites, and safe community spaces

Black Trans Media (Brooklyn, NY): #blacktranseverything storytellers, organizers, poets, healers, filmmakers, facilitators that confront racism and transphobia

Garden of Peace, Inc. (Pittsburgh, PA): for black trans & queer youth, elevates and empowers the narratives and lived experiences of black youth and their caretakers, guides revolutionary spaces of healing and truth through art, education, and mentorship

House of Pentacles (Durham, NC): Film Training Program and Production House designed to launch Black trans youth into the film industry and tell stories woven at the intersection of being Black and Trans

Minnesota Transgender Health Coalition (Minneapolis, MN): committed to improving health care access and the quality of health care received by trans and gender non-conforming people through education, resources, and advocacy

RARE Productions (Minneapolis, MN): arts and entertainment media production company for LGBTQ people of color that promotes, produces, and co-creates opportunities and events utilizing innovative artistic methods and strategies

Baltimore Safe Haven (Baltimore, MD): providing opportunities for a higher quality of life for transgender people in Baltimore

Transgender Emergency Fund of Massachusetts: recently helped organize a Trans Resistance Vigil and March through Boston, in place of the Boston Pride Parade that was cancelled due to COVID-19

Semillas: in Puerto Rico, the trans, gender non-conforming and queer communities are facing many obstacles to survival

Street Youth Rise Up: change the way Chicago sees and treats its homeless and street based youth who do what they have to do to survive

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A Fair Night

Tired I flail a pen across paper. Work that could have been done sooner sits on my desk. As bags form under my eyes I sit taking in the labor born from my sloth thinking "What a nice night. Had I had made time for myself today what wonderous things I could create on such a pretty night as this".

(Sigh)

Procrastination stinks man.

Ya know...Sometimes when I'm tired and out of it I think of what things would really be nice in a moment. A small imaginary scenic thought.

currently I am alone in a dark room with a singlur purple light bulb illuminating everything around me as my electronic fan noisily sounds...

It'd be nice to be on beach in a beach chair. The moon shining across the sea in the distance. Perhaps a nice little sweet tea to the right of me on a little stand or table. Just closing my eyes as cool breeze washes over my body and the sound of waves lull me into a nice calm. Once in a while I open my eyes to see the light of the moon glisten across the water...And theres that nice beach smell...just kind of sinking into that environment without a worry. No papers due. The fear of unclear prospects are hushed. Just sittin there being where anyone else would want to be.

Anyway, back to work.

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hm....I like the idea of commissioning someone, but am having choice paralysis with What i'd want....plus i'm just kind of anxious with that specific social interaction having never commissoned someone before.

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Wh-Wh-WW- Whats going on-on?

Okay.....Wait was worth the animation.....That said I don't know what the fuck was going on. Nigga needs to go through this shit asset by asset.....Also not these niggas making Super Saiyan God Super Saiyan Form 3 Vriska. Like...........................Niggas boutta write about this one.

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Valentines Day huh?

I wish valentine class candy bags were a thing that went onto college. Like why would anyone stop doing that? I want a bunch of lil treats to go home with while stressing over my midterms and contemplating the utility of my degree.

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I wish normal people ended up following me out of the few strange characters with questionable posts that I get every 6 months or so.

Idk why, but hazbin hotel has been a constant for these people..............I wonder if that means anything.....idk I haven't seen the show.......Anyway business as usual. As you were reader.

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I need someone to do a Rose Lalonde redraw of this Yesterday.

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Wait, Tyler's Gay?

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Hm (Silly Homestuck Ramble)

how do youths even get into Homestuck at this point? curiosity? From like where? Just randomly getting into Homestuck video essays? I know its not THAT old relatively speaking when comparing it to all the other media people somehow get into, but honestly to me at least if you're somewhere in your teens and still willingly reading (like actually READING) Homestuck it feels like seeing a toddler get into star trek. Like what are you doing here?

Which I will acknowledge as a very silly way to feel considering how Homestuck is entirely constructed around teen struggle and growth ....But its like......2010s sensibilities (Slurs).....With hussies annoying ass writing style......With Dave.............With Sburbs Nerd ass Programing gimmick and all.....Also to go back to hussie they were just strange and not normal about their own characters...................

Its truly interesting.

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Random Media Rant about Fake "depth" in writing.

Upon further thinking its weird how popular doki doki got with how utterly mediocre and cliche the game is. Not only had its entire horror trope already been explored else where to better degrees, but also just as a visual novel it only has shallow and unexplored archetypes. Barely even actual characters.

I think a term I've been using recently has helped me kind of contextualize a feeling I have had towards writers/artists that use trauma or touchy subject matters to "Up" their art without actually adding depth and instead overindulging crass sensibilities within their own expression.

Utensil.

DDLC's use of suicide is used as a Utensil. You add suicide to a game. It becomes dark and creepy. The thinking stops there.

Kind of like Gen Urobuchi and how he depicts violence against women Or Toshiki Inoue and his strange record of sexual violence or sexually demeaning scenarios involving women in his works.........Or Kouta Hirano...............Moving on

I just feel like the susceptibility of younger and less critical audiences to these "Utensil" usages of intense subject matter is a bag of tricks that can easily be used over and over again no matter the year. That's kind of an obvious observation, but the mechanism of such trend is so annoying to me. I guess the dead end there is that young people easily attach themselves to newer media more present to them. Also, critical thinking in regards to art and media is a bit scrambled, because

A lot of people don't care to indulge art critically and

The directions one can take when perceiving art is very variable.

I hate toting the word "Critical thinking", because I myself am not the smartest with media analysis either. Its just such an apparent thing that is lacking for a lot of people.............

ALSO an aside from this

Somewhat Warm take: Kill la Kill fucking sucks.

-Written by a 40 year old man

-That Bath scene

-Shallow narrative about "Sexual Freedom" and Facism.

It might of hit for ya'll then, but that shit foundationally is a 2 pack of ass. Like I get the love for it if you grew an art style from Trigger aesthetics, but nah the dick riding for that show needs to be put to bed on god.

......Utena to me will always be the LeBron of this shit. Go watch Utena or somethin if you want a story about patriarchy and toxic sexual dynamics under patriarchy. Clamp got its yucky moments for sure, but they cooked that shit up and down the block fr and at the very least its a studio with Women at the helm of the art centered around feminist messaging.

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Touken Ranbu Thoughts (Ramble)

I headcanon so many of these guys as trans and enby its actually kind of insane. Like it disturbs me how much transmasc energy can exist in a game and that aspect just BARELY gets any attention paid to it.

I suppose the series is....I don't know if "Niche" is even the right word to use really. I just legit don't see it talked about as much as like your

"Fate Grand Orders" or [Insert other popular Gacha] in English circles

Maybe it's because the broader target is fujos more so (especially from what I've seen from the stage plays). Maybe I'm just crass and my vision is short-sighted on how many Queer people make up the fandom.

also being completely fair from a another angle it does have the fate problem of like getting weird ass niggas to illustrate for some of the characters. I don't think it gets Jack the Ripper bad ever, but it would be disingenuous to pretend like there isn't......More unfortunate targeting within the title in areas.

I also dislike the trend of Pokemon-tier melanated characters in the series (out of the few there are). I suppose the majority of the characters aren't super detailed toward realistic standards of anatomy or human features, but it's still is a bit of a bummer.

Like why is bro Gray? It looks off right?

Welp..............I'm at the end of the ramble so here is my headcanon list

Jikkyuu Mitsutada - Transmasc Non-Binary

Ishida Masamune - Non-Binary

Goke Kanemitsu - Transmasc

Murakumo Gou - Transfem Non-Binary

Yamanbagiri Chougi - Leaning Transmasc, but I kinda see it all

Mutsunokami Yoshiyuki - Transmasc

Shishiou - Transfem

Otegine - Transmasc

Kashuu Kiyomitsu - I see it All

Yamatonokami Yasusada - I see it All

There are probably a few I'm missing. There are lot of characters.

Also being real I'll never end up making a large post about senjyushi but here are some guns I fucking LOVE just in the vague execution I understand they have.

Furusato (BRUH)

Margarita (The T swagger on this one)

LIKE COME ON BRUH! COME ON!!!!

I really need more trans protags in fiction that also just do cool action shit. I NEEED that bro. I'm fiending for that.

(It'd be cool if they were like....black too. idk. Just thinking out into the open here.)

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Small Vent

The more I see the conditions throughout the world worsen and the plight of artists increase in these times of economic duress the less I want to make art of any form. It feels useless almost.

That's why I've fallen into a low point of creative productivity. It just annoys me so much. I've kind of just been daydreaming more rather than dedicating my hand to creating stuff.

Usually, at such an emotional point, I'd make something out of anger or sadness, but I don't feel like I even have the energy to do that anymore.

Hopefully, this moment passes sooner than later.