jellyf-yve

[jellyf-yve]

something more ingenious than putting your user name your new fav animal which is also the animal you see yourself as (jellyfish) and combine it with your own name (yve)?

nah.

live laugh love jellyfish & sharks

[jellyf-yve]

i am SUCH a comical figure

guess i'm DEEP into The Amazing Digital Circus now!

just saying this.

yeah.

[jellyf-yve]

this. THIS is simply MAJESTIC.

I felt ROBBED at all the tickle codedness of this scene only to NOT GET IT? Fine I do it my dang self 😤

Jax needs to have an attitude adjustment. And you can't just say "Are you smiling? Why not?" Whip out a chair with robotic hands, see the lee panic in Jax's face, then EXPECT ME TO BE NORMAL. WAAAUGH!!!! I CANT TAKE IT WITH THESE NORMIES /hj

[jellyf-yve]

Spoilers for Mastermind (Helluva Boss Ep.11 s2)

i don't care y'all this part gave me THE lee chill. as strange as it might be i already was a big lee for this man but THIS threw me straight into a deeper lee mood and i don't know when and how i'm going to get out of it.

the eyes.

the look.

the smirk. THE SMIRK.

this man knows what he's doing to us and he's proud about it.

this is going to be the start of many new tk fic ideas.

[jellyf-yve]

been thinking about myself & my appearence a lot lately.

ever since i've started to grow my hair i've felt a fem energy in myself, more than any other period of my life.

problem is, when boyish periods kick in, i feel really uncomfortable, and sometimes it's hard to just think "i can be a boy with long hair"

man i want to chop my hair off so bad but then i'd feel guilty because DAMN it looks so good now

i've worked hard for my hair to reach its current length (below my collarbones) but the locks that were supposed to be the curtain bangs reach BELOW MY CHIN NOW and sometimes it's unbearable for me to see them

my ideal haircut oscillates between anything short and a jellyfish haircut and it's kinda funny to see how i can't pick something in the middle.

plus I WANT MY BLUE HAIR BACK...i have 7cm of regrowth and now all that's left of my blue hair era are the very ends...

i'll come up with something (i hope)

[jellyf-yve]

need to knead into the back of someones ribs while they're face down and can't do anything to fight back.

does it tickle too much ? that's too bad. if only you could reach my hands and make it stop ... how unfortunate!

[jellyf-yve]

THE historical moment has arrived (⁠ノ⁠ಠ-ಠ⁠)⁠ノ⁠彡⁠┻⁠━⁠┻

i'm changing my username

reasons: Kaeri is an old name which i link to something and someone i'd prefer not remember anymore (implied PTSD)

Kae is the name that feels right to me. as well as Yvette, even more Yve. i feel like Kae and Yve suit both as female and gender-neutral names, which is how i feel these days.

many things have happened, and i've come to the realization that my feelings are valid. that i should put my mental health first sometimes, and not fulfill someone's desire just because i liked them.

value yourself, you deserve it (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠���

[jellyf-yve]

answering a lot of days after but here we go!! thanks for the tag @italeean ^^

(yes i do have VERY RANDOM music tastes...)

tagging whoever sees this and wants to join!! ^^

Challenging you all!

Put your music library on shuffle, then list the first five songs that come up in a poll to let people vote for which one they like the most!

Then tag Tumblr friends to keep the game going!

[jellyf-yve]

is it just me or wanting to be loved and tickled while you're wearing your favorite clothing piece is the cutest thing to wish (someone give me a tickle hug as soon as i put on my waistcoat please)

[jellyf-yve]

Is anyone else just so excited to see Stolitz as a healthy, established relationship?

I love the angst. But someday (hopefully) we'll get to see Blitzø and Stolas in a loving, healthy, passionate relationship.

And it's going to be glorious.

[jellyf-yve]

Ok sorry I'm gonna open the wound again but

Do you realize that when Stolas said he wanted to end their deal, Blitz didn't get angry but implores him bcs of the book.

But AFTER getting the crystal, his anger explodes because Stolas talks to him about feelings.

He could have got angry right away bcs it would ruin his business, or just take the crystal and don't bother about the rest, but no, he lashed out because the poor guy thinks Stolas is joking with his feelings, and it affects him because HE CARES FOR HIM. And he refuses to believe Stolas or anyone could love him so it HURTS HIM.

[jellyf-yve]

so uh

i've been getting a lot into Lady Oscar (Rose Of Versailles) lately. and i mean A LOT

and it's a really, really good anime in my opinion. like, themes about history, role of women in the years, health and social differences.

but themes about love? this serie is the most heartbreaking thing ever. i don't think i've ever cried for an anime (except maybe MHA when some Hawks scenes), but i swear on everything i've felt my heartstrings tugging after ep.27. the way ep.28 talks about unrequited love literally broke me into tears

(summary of this post: say hello to my latest obsession beside hellaverse)

[jellyf-yve]

i feel like y'all needed to hear this

so there have been many times i talked about my laugh sounding strange, sounding like "kyahaha" due to my tendency of making the sound "kh" before laughing.

but y'all never heard me laughing FOR REAL. and that means a lot of wheezing. AND I MEAN A LOT.

so here's a little video for y'all to make up for my frequent inactivity

(there's a friend with me in the background but i'm sure you can EASILY tell which one is my laughter.)

yes i do have the habit to record myself laughing because i sound hilarious

have fun ^^

[jellyf-yve]

morning imma leave y'all this video and actually make a comeback!!

(LMAOOO I LOOK SO STUPID AND HIGH)

i've been going nuts lately. my mental state has deeply worsened and i feel like i'm in a situation that is far more complicated than i've ever imagined.

BUT let's not talk about it!! we have better things to discuss about :D haha!

HELLUVA??? BOSS?????

omg guys y'all have no idea how much those horny demons are affecting me rn (no i'm not talking about the latest episodes i'm talking generally and how i've basically turned into a whole different persona that switches on and off whenever someone mentions helluva or something that is possibly closely related)

(i haven't seen my therapist in 7 months due to economical problems and i've started gradually going insane to the point of being told i could be autistic or schizotypal [by friends who are already diagnosed. they know what they're talking about].)

also yes i've completely lost my persona so i don't actually care how you call me. either Kaeri, Kae, Onyx, Annie, Annabeth (complicated but funny how this new persona called "Annabeth" was born), bro, simp, girl, sharkie, whatever you want (i love sharks btw :3)

anyways aside from that, i've finally come to the point the thing i needed was a simple pause. a pause to get all my thoughts together and start from the top. so guess what? i didn't pass this school year. i failed and will have to repeat the third year of high school. which sounds like hell to me?? but on the other side i'm still proud of myself. there was a day i was forced to go to school despite staggering due to me being idiot and taking more pills than prescribed, and i thought that would be my final day. my classmates wouldn't stop staring at me when i had panic attacks in class and i eventually had to go to the toilet to throw up. but i made it! i came back home with horrible grades and tears running down my face, but i still could make it.

life is going way worse even without school. but at least i won't be forced to see my past classmates anymore.

aside from all those traumatic moments i'm literally jumping in joy rn cause i'm going to attend my first Pride ever with my bestie in Milan :3 and that's probably why i can't sleep properly and i keep waking up before my alarm.

i hope y'all are having a great time anyway, love y'all!!

-Kae

[jellyf-yve]

Helluva Boss is seriously messing up my mental health rn but this has to be said.

Don't get me wrong, I love Stolas. He's had amazing character development, I was glad to see him happy and thriving with the new guy in Apology tour and all that.

BUT

WHEN HAS HE EVER?

WHEN HAS HE FUCKING EVER?

Look Blitzø has fucked up and I don't think anyone's denying that. BUT SO HAS STOLAS. And I find it hypocritical to dismiss parts of his character just because they were at the start of the show.

Stolas DID look down on Blitzø. Maybe unintentionally yes, but he still did so and the fact that so many people insist that he did not PISS ME OFF.

[jellyf-yve]

hi friendddd ^^ hru?

hii!! ^^

i'm good, thanks!! i've been feeling strange lately, but i somehow managed to cope up easily most of the times<3

how about you? ^^

[jellyf-yve]

hi hii!! it's rintarousbestiekxrma/gxmeqr, i just changed my user :)

aaa hii!! thank you for letting me know!! ^^