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"What if your soulmate and the love of your life were two different people?"

Thank you for being patient with me if you've sent me messages or an inbox ask on Tumblr. I've been on Twitter, and still need to check them.

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Sketched by me and colored by the amazing @shadsser! (The characters were meant to be college-aged)

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I’m not a hardcore shipper anymore, but I still agree. Why SEGA never chose Amy to become his best friend is an unsolvable mystery. It’s as if something is missing in their character arcs.

Do you have any ideas for how Shadow and Amy’s relationship would change if Sonic had managed to get Shadow back on the ark in SA2? I’m working on my own little self-indulgent fic myself, but I’d be curious to hear your thoughts.

Interesting thought! See, this is a tricky one for me because they canonically act like his brush with death never happened, which is super weird.

There should have been a scene on the ARK where Amy was really upset and possibly even cried after it happened, maybe blaming herself for encouraging him.

There should have been a scene in Sonic Heroes where she latched onto him and gushed about how relieved she was to see him alive while he just stared at her like “???” because he still had amnesia.

She should have been the one to reach out and befriend him, and he should have accepted; not only does she remind him of his late best friend, but she’s seen him at his most murderous and still supported him unconditionally.

She should be even clingier with him than she is with her other friends after what happened. She should have been right with him all throughout Shadow the Hedgehog (2005), guiding him and keeping an eye on him the way one would expect given her personality.

And...maybe this is controversial, buuuuut...it’s always felt a little arbitrary to me that he wound up spending a ton of time with Rouge and Omega and basically none with Amy.

I’m not saying I have a problem with Team Dark. I adore their dynamic and I’m glad he has them, but it kind of feels like they just happened to be there. Sure, he got along with Rouge alright for much of SA2, but she seriously hurt him by spying on him--something she’s never apologized for, as far as I know--and she left him behind to help the others get to the Cannon’s Core.

And that, I think, is where the biggest difference would be.

Shadow isn’t the forgiving type. By the time he’d regained his memories in canon and remembered how she’d betrayed his trust, she’d proven in the interim that she’s ultimately a good and loyal friend. If she hadn’t had that chance, I don’t think she could’ve gotten her foot in the door so easily. And if Shadow hadn’t fallen, he wouldn’t have been picked up by Eggman, so he wouldn’t have met Omega. In fact, I’d go even further than that. Team Dark’s opening cutscene in Sonic Heroes implies that Omega’s there strictly to guard Shadow. Not only that, but I’ve always gotten the impression that that’s why Omega was created in the first place. Mephiles all but confirms this in Sonic 06 by pointing out Omega is perfectly built to defeat and capture Shadow.

“This only proves you were created to stop Shadow, the ultimate life form. Don’t tell you didn’t know.”

So Omega would probably never have been built, at least not in his current form :(

With our favorite murder robot out of the picture and Shadow not trusting Rouge, Team Dark would be kaput, and Shadow really needs someone who’ll reach out to him.

And we all know it would be Amy, right?

It’s not even conjecture. In Sonic Battle, she eagerly seeks him out, even getting irritated when Rouge keeps her away:

On top of that, Amy latches onto Shadow because he’s a hero. I’ve pointed this out before, but the second Shadow becomes the protagonist in ShTH, she’s smitten with him...

...and the same happens in IDW issue 59:

And we can’t leave out The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog:

The social media team gets it.

She’s got a subtle little crush on him already imo even with the few interactions they have. If Amy spent lots of time with Shadow, that little crush could grow to rival another crush of hers ;)

As for Shadow, if she’d reached out to him right away without the time gap from his amnesia, I think his feelings for her--romantic or otherwise--would have been fostered and allowed to grow, fueled by his gratitude. She changed his entire life and would have introduced positivity and companionship into his world. You can’t not feel strongly about someone who does that for you.

Fandom-wise, Shadamy is already extremely popular considering how little time they’ve spent together in canon. It’s the third most popular game ship on AO3, only beaten by Sonamy and Sonadow.

There are more fics for Shadamy than Knuxouge. That’s kind of ridiculous, right?! Shadow and Amy have maybe ten minutes of screentime together! I also think Shadow might have gotten along better with Sonic if he’d gone right from saving the world with him to becoming one of Amy’s favorite people, so I’m willing to bet Sonamyshad would’ve skyrocketed in popularity, too. Not my cup of tea, but I know a lot of other fans like it.

Or...more interestingly...Shadow could’ve been really pissed once he saw up close and personal just how often Sonic ran away from Amy. The Dark Era right after SA2 was when it was worst, too. I imagine Shadow would be furious if he knew the full extent of how badly his favorite hedgehog was being treated. He could have been a godsend for her. You think he’d have put up with this if he’d seen it?

(Tangentially, I think it’s weird that Knuckles was fine with this stuff. I think of him and Amy as sibling-adjacent at times, but sometimes I feel like I have to fudge some details to make it work.)

And how many times did Sonic hurt her or make her cry back in the day?

Shadow’s punched Sonic for less than that. He’s way too loyal to sit there and watch while someone hurts his sweet, kindhearted best friend.

People think of Amy as the clingiest Sonic character, but I 100% believe Shadow rivals her in that respect. I really do. He nearly destroyed the Earth for a friend he knew for less than a year. He latched onto Team Dark like a security blanket the second he was dropped on their doorstep. He would have done the same for Amy, and she really could have benefited from that loyalty. Amy lashed out in that era because of frustration and insecurity from being repeatedly snubbed by her favorite person. I honestly think someone stable and steadfast like Shadow was exactly who she needed. He really could have turned her life around and gotten her the respect she deserved, either by standing up for her or proving to her that she deserved better.

And I definitely think he could have dealt with the Black Arms’ invasion much better if he’d had Amy to help guide him through it. She’s reminded him of who he is before. The Miracle of Love ending proves without a doubt that she could do it again.

It would have been great for both of them. I’m sad Sega never let them have that.

Also, Shadow standing up for Amy and later dating her would make this weird scene from Archie #149 absolutely hilarious:

Granted, that applies to shadamy in general.

Ken Penders & Friends: “Ha, wouldn’t it be hilarious if we had Sonic make a skeevy, totally age-appropriate comment in our kids’ comic about Shadow ‘finding a girl?’”

Shadow: “I found Amy Rose”

Sega: “THAT’S NOT FUNNY”

Sonic: “Idk, I think it’s kinda funny :) ”

Penders: “I have never played a Sonic game”

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I'm practicing AU College Amy and Shadow for @prettypastels7.

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New DeviantART Page

I'm alive! I've just been busy with Twitter and TikTok. I still have messages to read and reply to, but I wanted you guys to know that I opened another DeviantArt account.

You will see old art pieces---

---and new ones.

And yes, I'm still open for commissions! <3

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I saw your work and it's gorgeous! Thank you so much for sharing your warm memories with me.

nearly crying because my favorite childhood artist is back and I'm all grown up and I can also draw now and ik she never will see my things but omg i feel so much joy because I feel like I'm back to happier times of when I was tiny just learning to draw and tracing from the screen to the paper and watching shadamy slideshows on youtube after i spent the whole weekend playing transformice

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Hi Jazzy I just wanted to say that when I was little I looked up to your art a lot!! Since I was in 5th grade I used to see your art and think it was the most whimsical and beautiful work I've seen (ESP the Amy Rose arts!) and you gave me so much inspiration to learn to draw like you did, now I'm 20 and I still look up to your art a lot! I hope you're doing as well as I am when I found out you're back :)

Ahoy there! Thank you so much for dropping this wonderful message into my inbox. I'm eternally grateful for people like you who gave and continue to give my work so much love and affection. I could be doing better, haha! But thank you so much for asking! Keep drawing!

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Commission for BANG of Frankie and Shadow the Hedgehog.

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Hi!

I just wanted to say that it's so refreshing seeing you back on the internet. In middle school I looked up to your art; the seamless transitions of line density, and your designs of Amy Rose are so inspiring. You were, and still are, a masterful artist. I'm just so so so happy to see you back on the internet, whether writing or drawing. I hope all the support shows you that you're well loved and received. Keep going, we're all rooting for you!!

I do have one question; Would you ever consider drawing Final Fantasy characters? I'm asking because your style reminds me alot of Tetsuya Nomura's (the mind behind Final Fantasy 7, 15, Kingdom Hearts, etc.) I think your art styles really compliment each other, and it would be really cool seeing what your mind can come up with. Just a suggestion though!

Omg, thank you so much! My heart is full! I'm honored to be able to read your message! It really gripped me. I was so mean toward my artwork before I left the internet that I really regret it now.

All of this support has blown my mind, especially on Twitter! I feel surrounded by love and good energy.

You made a wonderful suggestion! I never considered drawing Final Fantasy characters, but when I get better at drawing, I think I'll give it a shot!

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Jazmine, I'm just now discovering your account & art for the first time in years. I'm autistic, and STH has been my special interest since I was 8 years old (around 2009-2010.) When I was just a kid, I remember finding your art and being so excited to show my best friend, who I'd also roped into STH. When I asked her just now who I just rediscovered, we both totally freaked out, LOL. You were two little girl's favorite artist. I would spend hours trying to draw in your style, and watching those horrible AMV's of your work with grainy 2000's pop songs in the background. I can confidently say those were some of the most fun times in my childhood, and to this day, your art remains a staple in my life. I'm 22 years old now and have my degrees in art, and I just wanted you to know that you took part in that. Your work inspired me to go after what I loved and experiment with different things in art. Thank you for creating, and thanks for making me feel like a little kid again :) Xoxo - A loyal fan

Omg, lookit you! You're an example for ME. Art was simply my hobby, but I should've done more with it. Thank you for dropping by with this soul-touching message. I'm almost speechless! I'm very excited to see your work!

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The fact that I’ve been looking for your art for years 😭 I am glad I came across your Twitter page just now. My childhood self is screaming that I found my favorite shadamy artist after so many years!!!

Haha, hello there again! Thank you so much for saying this. It warmed my heart. This time, I'm here to stay on the internet.

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Omg it’s actually you!! Holy crap!! I’m so happy to see you returning! It’s been nearly a decade but I still look up your old art for inspiration to draw beautiful Amy and curly hair.

It’s wonderful to have you back!

It felt wonderful to see your comment! Thank you so much for the warm welcome! I'm happy to be back!

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hi jazmine!! I've been a fan of your art since i was 8 and was (still) obsessed with shadowAmy 😭😭 i really adore your artstyle! if you don't mind answering, what is ur artstyle in the anime shadowamy called? I'm getting inspiration by it if you dont mind ofc!!

Hi, rcckyz! Thank you for reaching out to me and being so doggone sweet! I don't have a name for that particular style, but I'm sure it was inspired by something. Unfortunately, I don't remember! I apologize for the useless answer! Please have fun with it!

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Commissions are open! This one is of Shadow the Hedgehog and Amy Rose for mayli_draws and her AO3 fic, "The Prince of Black Arms."

I also wanted to let you all know that I've been seeing your kind messages! They've made me so happy! I'll be getting to each of them very soon!

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If only I could hug you for real! All of that does sound stressful. I know you’re more than grateful to have a partner-in-crime like your husband.

Procrastinating washing my hair by researching scalp psoriasis... Yeah, I do have a coal tar shampoo, Neutrogena's T-Gel... Yeah, it's probably connected to the Hashimoto's hypothyroidism, cuz psoriasis is also an auto-immune disorder... I should go wash my hair with said T-Gel, again. I know it works. For a couple days at least. If I wash it twice with that & then again with H&S & then conditioner. So it's so long & involved & hair is falling out anyway... & my hair's still way past shoulder length so it's so much to get through just to treat my damn scalp. I gotta cut it shorter but it still needs to fit into a pony tail or my dad won't shut up & Oct 4th cousin's wedding with Qanon uncle isn't too far away so I need to not become a target -verbally or physically- for him either. & my brother. & the guy my cousin's marrying. & my other uncle. Meanwhile my scalp is so itchy & flaky, but all these men... I just wanna cry... But Hunny. Of course. Hunny. HE'D support me in anything, so far as even shaving my head, ESPECIALLY to treat a medical condition, if only dermatological. He's working til 8 & I'm supposed to pick him up & we're gonna go out. & when we get back & I ask him to help me cut it shorter, I know he'll be scared he'll "mess it up," but he'll do it. And if anyone says anything in front of him, their next conversation will be with the floor. ... So anyway this is also why I keep Ternion in my mind all the time. @jazmine-here

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Honestly, turns out, I swear I could've been diagnosed with that fic alone.

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My heart dropped. You're going through way too much. I have a relative who deals with alopecia and it was hard to sit through when it was at its worst. I can't offer much from where I am, but I pray that this gets better for you.

Procrastinating washing my hair by researching scalp psoriasis... Yeah, I do have a coal tar shampoo, Neutrogena's T-Gel... Yeah, it's probably connected to the Hashimoto's hypothyroidism, cuz psoriasis is also an auto-immune disorder... I should go wash my hair with said T-Gel, again. I know it works. For a couple days at least. If I wash it twice with that & then again with H&S & then conditioner. So it's so long & involved & hair is falling out anyway... & my hair's still way past shoulder length so it's so much to get through just to treat my damn scalp. I gotta cut it shorter but it still needs to fit into a pony tail or my dad won't shut up & Oct 4th cousin's wedding with Qanon uncle isn't too far away so I need to not become a target -verbally or physically- for him either. & my brother. & the guy my cousin's marrying. & my other uncle. Meanwhile my scalp is so itchy & flaky, but all these men... I just wanna cry... But Hunny. Of course. Hunny. HE'D support me in anything, so far as even shaving my head, ESPECIALLY to treat a medical condition, if only dermatological. He's working til 8 & I'm supposed to pick him up & we're gonna go out. & when we get back & I ask him to help me cut it shorter, I know he'll be scared he'll "mess it up," but he'll do it. And if anyone says anything in front of him, their next conversation will be with the floor. ... So anyway this is also why I keep Ternion in my mind all the time. @jazmine-here

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Honestly, turns out, I swear I could've been diagnosed with that fic alone.

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I sketched this six years ago on my iPad! I was learning how to use that apple pencil.