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playlists playlists playlists!!

hello all, how i've missed you. i hope all has been well!

as always, i have playlists for you :-) they're not super fandom-specific this time around, but for the feelers. the ultimate shout into the void. i see you.

"you lean in to hear, him patting your head:" https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1FebN7ZrHKWomISAMynSCa?si=8d72e8dfb570435b

this one is a playlist i made when i thought i was "just friends" with someone. you know that intoxicating feeling when you're alone in the cold air with someone you think could be your soulmate, but you're not sure how you feel?

"shining just for you": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6W2o3aU8qPvAuQDCnEpmHf?si=aca1e29a8f524a1f

this one is themed! (ish). i made this playlist based on "Z" by Therese Anne Fowler (A MUST READ), so it's a lot of songs that remind me of the 1920s. I also mashed this with a 1920s-esque story i wrote last spring.

"if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow (AND IT'S ALRIGHT NOW)": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1yzylopHYYOsKCIbAlk2CG?si=3ee9a0fbfa154fd8

this is the vibe that you feel when you are just after something devastating, and you're starting to remember the sun when you wake up. it's all okay, it always has been.

"you seem much more yourself around him": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6IxWA3lMo93eDOI2DDUlNF?si=ab831d4191314f09

i couldn't go a season without a HEARTSTOPPER playlist!!! this one is from season 2, and i apologize that it is not as long as my first one.

"and damn, i'm doing it well": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6IJbaWD3cnr260XMVy47bD?si=eed2728162d94428

i may have appeared to make a playlist for every stage of grief, this one being a little bit of anger. when someone leaves you, once the sadness and self-consciousness fade, this is what's deep down--for a while. the bone-shaking, red-colored blind rage where you need to scream at the wall in the shower until you feel like you know you're better off.

"i didn't get it, but now i do": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0UXIVy5uLcM9ebwto2f4B0?si=8f09a257ef0d44dc

this one is a bit more personal-- when you find out that one person you wanted (the aforementioned potential soulmate, who everyone under the stars tells you is interested but you just can't believe it) tells his best friend something (with the intention of you never finding out). he tells your friend, who then (of course) tells you, and it's all you've wanted to hear. it's yearning. feel me?

it's the feeling of going into his room for the first time and feeling the impact of all of the memories made there that you'll never feel. the people that have been there. the intimacy shared.

the feeling of passing by his building and getting a rush in your stomach in the spring sun. getting a text and smiling and not knowing why. getting a mention of this person and feeling giddy. meeting them and getting excited. how it feels like alone time with them. but you're only friends, of course.

there are also a few seasonal ones, which you can check out on my page :-) https://open.spotify.com/user/25dub4t598ocamsh393rmmwop?si=a7f189979f144197

i hope you are all feeling so so deeply. it's good.

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she’s back... with more playlists

hi all!! i’m so sorry for the long break, but i’m back with some more hyper-specific playlists for you all :-)

“…and I just wished I could stay like that forever.” https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7LeTx2QlEQtIjgcSLOrIAQ?si=74600ccd0d204898

this one is based on the hit anime “sasaki and miyano” and its based on the main couple: you guessed, sasaki and miyano. 

“being with him helps me do my best” https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1OmOtYJ9fOxbWUrO4TM1vM?si=79ba72aecd6b4d9f

this one is also about a couple from sasaki and miyano, but this couple is hirano and kagiura <333

“not a rise; once again, a fall” https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3SJVgZjDalFmX64es4eT9R?si=e33ed859c5f04dbb

this one is a compilation of songs that can send me RIGHT BACK into a hyperfixation hehehe 

“pov you want to work in film” https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6gj2xlu0QdIz3FlkeJrWva?si=cfba159cae894c5d 

pretty self-explanatory. 

“have an obsession, make a playlist, never listen. rinse & repeat” https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5Y42qLw2KeezcdTNqwPvgT?si=6767139b3d4d4788

also pretty self-explanatory. but it’s drarry!!

“well, joke’s on me, because somewhere along the way, i stopped playing.” https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5KJ4Ms5gBaeXPD8J5RVCKx?si=ce4a33f70e8b4ecb

this playlist is based off of the hawthorne legacy, the second novel in the inheritance games trilogy <333

i also have some more works-in-progress, so i’m excited to share those with you soon :-))

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underrated Heartstopper moment: Nick's little smile after Darcy puts "we're such meddling gays and I love it" on the group chat because yeah. the feeling of being surrounded by other queer people for the first time and being able to make jokes about it knowing that you're in a safe space. knowing the people around you Get It for the first time. finding a place where queerness is lighthearted when it feels so overwhelming when you first discover it. its such a specific queer experience and I felt so seen in that moment.

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get ready for a blue’s clues soon... heartstopper edition 😎😎

I mean, that’s nothing like what we’re doing. You’re nothing like him. This is completely different.

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not to mention the infamous arcade kiss and the WAY HE TOOK CHARLIE’S HAND IN FRONT OF EVERYONE... also my favorite lines of “we’re in the corridor!” “oh. so what?” AFTER THEY MADE UP 

no because it's the way nick realized instantly that he was acting just like ben and made it a point to try to be different... they way every single time he saw charlie around he'd say hi, public or private, the way he literally sprinted in the rain to personally apologize for running away after they kissed, the way he emphasized again and again how much he liked charlie and being with him, the way he was open and communicative about how he wanted to have privacy to understand his feelings but that he clearly didn't want to be a secret indefinitely, the way he said he'd respect it if charlie really wanted to end things but he didn't want it to be for the wrong reasons, the way he Shone when charlie called them boyfriends, the wa

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heartstopper + tumblr text posts

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i know y’all be simping for the heartstopper cast....

anyways I am reposting my heartstopper playlist because it is huge now due to the tv show coming out which, by the way, CHEF’S KISS ✨✨

It’s called “and i’ll keep on saying it until you believe me” because.... y’know.... 

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0tVCkXfSegzJvVLIfk40ZT?si=730543c6360c425c

I HOPE Y’ALL ENJOY 

STREAM HEARTSTOPPER ON NETFLIX RN

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i know you are getting sick of my playlists, but....

as the end of season 2 of euphoria came out, so did my playlist for it :-) this one is called “those are not the emotions of a single person,” and it is based off the energy of season 2!! 

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2ln8QJNJr9F53oogrqd5M8?si=1d86db1b388f426b

“heartstopper!! xx” is self-explanatory. HEARTSTOPPER TV COMES OUT ON APRIL 22ND, SO CHECK THIS OUT!! 

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0tVCkXfSegzJvVLIfk40ZT?si=0afd0cb7d0fe4cfe

“they were mocking her.” MAY or may not be based on the tiny little project i’m working on ;-) 

if you like vampires, you’ll like this one ;) ;) 

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7cNiN8KKdt4yYdxNdUHgFG?si=4a8d262239584f0f

i only have a few this time, but i was anxious to post them hehehe 

happy listening!! xx 

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more playlists for hyper-specific things :-)

“hi everyone! as you may know, my spotify is constantly booming with new playlists and i wanted to share more with you to help you start 2022 on the right foot! 

1. “but somewhere lost inside me there’ll always be the person i am tonight” is a quote from f. scott fitzgerald himself and also a playlist that I made for nighttime pondering. if you are stuck between studying and dissociating, watching the stars and pondering your life’s meaning, or anything in between, you’ll like this one :) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0gGnjtGs7VztONYhNk1lYH?si=c8fb3d25e92d4c32

2. “but you, unlike me, are a git.” - this playlist is yet again a drarry playlist, i fell back into their spell a little while ago and wanted to create an updated one with the way i felt while falling back into it https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0SGzrgukQKKThoTS1hsdZv?si=10b2bc5c67594b1a

3. “there are more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in our philosophy”- a quote from the famous shakespeare and a great modern playlist for the play hamlet. i loved hamlet when i read it and it is kind of a reflection of how i felt reading it for the first time :-) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0GXsq2HXVeIjpXNfGUYM1b?si=b658fe03d5f7462c

4. “I see you loving on the sidelines” is a playlist i made for the transition from summer into fall, but hey, no issues listening to it now!! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1rj7ClK2ThIgB6HAHrcuZ3?si=04d0a55120a44a89

5. “love is a million things” - for all of my euphoria lovers out there, this one is for you! It’s based off of the show and I am constantly adding to it because of the new season https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0nQ5Q8Uw54LiM8IKp6EnUs?si=68c9e60e2a1141cc

6. “nothing american dream about this place” is about the movie McFarland, USA on disney +, i fell in love with it when i watched it and thought i should keep that feeling https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0r1APWI112PeTzJB8JqFyr?si=6e3615097d9549a6

7. “i had simply failed to notice how extraordinary it was” is a playlist dedicated to the movie Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children, which i watched the other day and fell in love with it all over again. here’s to reliving childhood! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7dtLmkUlpSrZGYBOJQNavC?si=941c856bdc544cbf

8. “you’re not lost, you’re redirecting” is a playlist i made for my friend who is going through a lot of feelings right now. if you feel like you’re about to explode into catharsis, this one is for you :-) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4gsvitdyARM0PKjarrsOo4?si=36b3d049296f4c50

9. this one is called “you’re outside a halloween party” because the aesthetic is being overwhelmed and sitting outside in the dark as the music bumps behind you in a faded tone. i created this in october, but any time of the year works for this!! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6xbVMsLqiR51uJ9J8WKN00?si=8e6fdc54b3be4926

10. “and this is when the feeling sinks in” is yet ANOTHER drarry playlist, but it is based on some of the social media aus i’ve seen about them on this app. it’s a little more carefree and less hogwarts-ish. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6tbYNL482gRYOogWKATUYT?si=71f412886dbd4de2

those are my ten for right now, happy listening! 

https://open.spotify.com/user/25dub4t598ocamsh393rmmwop?si=d8e6fd3317a945b3

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quotes from svtha and leah on the offbeat that have never left me, a thread:

simon:

“taylor is the enemy of everything awesome.”

“You may actually be the only person who gets more than 140 characters from me. That's kind of awesome, right?”

“I couldn’t believe how much there was to choose from: Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy hooking up in thousands of ways in every broom closet at Hogwarts. I found the ones with decent grammar and stayed up reading all night. It was a weird couple of weeks. That was the summer I taught myself how to do laundry. There are some socks that shouldn’t be washed by your mom.”

“Puberty is merciless.”

“The way I feel about him is like a heartbeat -- soft and persistent, underlying everything.”

“I mean, I feel secure in my masculinity, too. Being secure in you masculinity isn't the same as being straight.”

“Really, though, there are only two kinds of weather: hoodie weather and weather where you wear a hoodie anyway.”

“I take a sip of my beer, and it's - I mean, it's just astonishingly disgusting. I don't think I was expecting it to taste like ice cream, but holy fucking hell. People lie and get fake IDs and sneak into bars, and for this? I honestly think I'd rather make out with Bieber. The dog. Or Justin.”

“I fall a little bit in love with everyone.”

“People are shameless when it comes to cake. It's a beautiful thing to see.”

“and i think im falling for him again.” 

bram: 

(THE BIG ONE)  “P.S. I love the way you smile like you don’t realize you’re doing it. I love your perpetual bed head. I love the way you hold eye contact a moment longer than you need to. And I love your moon-gray eyes. So if you think I’m not attracted to you, Simon, you’re crazy.”

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tyrus sat on the b[redacted]h so they could sit on the bench😔😔 

besties wake up a new b[redacted]h scene just dropped!!

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two years ago i would have lost my mind over this but now it just makes me smile oh so softly :)))

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some more playlists :)

hey guys, gals, and nb pals, here are some more playlists that I have that i would love to share with you. these are not just subjects to books but also shows or aesthetics based off of them. hyperspecific feelings coming soon enjoy!! :) 

late night tyrus angst (andi mack): https://open.spotify.com/playlist/58GVSlRDTLrDaomupmcFRt?si=-rI_yHEdTqGhVRhRg4Pp7g

the muppets abc sitcom show, but also the angst: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7CcSRD45p6AYh6vHnY3Qqn?si=7EOk5xPBT-ifRN_qcUVVfw

indie and soft spring your lie in april: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0oPwV0veH1p0ZLJq5ZJ50z?si=HwK9uEM5TPaqEDWaPwVxIg

the titan’s curse by rick riordan: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5UmhI0mEEhaB7pXLMouzpj?si=Bw6ZHNJ0Rw2fJHgmybKgzg

bridgerton but all of the happy feelings <3 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/38C9YrtOhMa81nKK8mRXFk?si=S2cXcFEGSrqv-ieZ_yuR0g

macbeth by william shakespeare: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3l7Kpah78pgNzNnqdP4Uia?si=xBFgM6_lTe2iCqzuxChwSQ

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i hope you heal from the things no one ever apologized for

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every friend group should include (andi mack kids edition):

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some tyrus because i (ALMOST) forgot about them and they deserve for me to hyperfixate on them again :)

introducing the finalists for “Best Tyrus Oneshot”

45 Reasons Why by @you-get-to-exhale-now-cyrus

Accidental Blind Date by @thinkingabouttyrus (CaityCat on AO3)

Friends Don’t Call (in the Middle of the Night) by @buffymysavior & Hcpelesshcney on AO3

Hearts and Hotels by @green-lemonboys  (green_lemonboys on AO3)

Horror movies and unrequited crushes (that aren’t so unrequited) by @heart-eyes-kippen (Shipsandglitter on AO3)

In The Desert by @thinkingabouttyrus (CaithyCat on AO3)

It’s You by @seraph-novak

Just Let the Feeling Grow by mccolfer on AO3

Outed by @cyrusgoodboye (emmagrace13 on AO3)

Renewal of Vows by @thinkingabouttyrus (CaithyCat on AO3)

the sun will come up, the seasons will change by @nineteenohtwo

to the place that we always dreamed by @jonahdisasterbeck (lesbandi on AO3)

Until We Meet Again by @seraph-novak

(When I’m Alone) I’d Rather Be With You by Hcpelesshcney on AO3

with all my bitterness gone (happy, I’ll be) by @tj-hearteyes-kippen (yspir on AO3)

the poll to vote will be up once all the categories are posted!