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[itsuflame]

Hum

Devoured?

My whole intentions and self respect?

Vanished?

My whole existence in her intentions?

Disrespected?

Our bondings and all existence!

Expectations?

Shoulda died yet for everything?

[itsuflame]

End

Who knew,

It would break you in exact 202 pieces flame?

Who knew,

It could break you so perfectly flame?

Did you knew that it’s coming?

No na?

Then why are you gone flame?

It’s okay my heart,

How can you die so fast?

How can you leave me in this situation?

You were with me from the time i got to know what love actually is,

You were there on every situations in which I could die anytime,

You were always there whenever i needed you,

You were there whenever i didn’t got you by my side,

You were there whenever i felt love,

You made me realize what love is,

You dumbfuck made me feel loved,

You fuckass made me feel worthy,

You were flame which can never blown away,

How can you even think of dying when i am not,

How can you die flame?

Why flame?

Answer me?

No answers?

Is this the end?

End of flame?

Am i the only one left here from now?

It’s now only me nafii?

Thank you for being the flame my heart.

[itsuflame]

Ektarfa?

kitni adhoora hoon kya jaano tum,

Mai kitni martahu muhabbat ke liye,

Kya jaano tum,

Mujhe kya sukoon dega kaise dega kya farq hai,

Hum tujhe dil kyu hi de,

De dia to kya hoga,

Muhabbat kar bhi liya to kaise batau,

Ye hamari beech mukhtalif jo hai,

Wo seh nehi sakega,

Tumko main kaise muhabbat karu,

Hum jante hai, jo bhi ho jaye badnaseeb na honge hum,

Lekin tum kya jano, muhabbat karne ki sivay

Muhabbat paogi tum,

Kaise batayu tujhko ye umeed mat rakh,

Kaise kahu tujhko,

Ye asoo mat nikal,

Kaise tujhko batau te namunkin hai,

Kaise tujhko bolu,

Hamari dusreme farq hai,

Hum eksaath nehi reh sakenge,

Hayre kya naseeb aya hamari bech,

Hayre Kya naseeb aya hamari bech,

Hum eksaath muhabbat ki parchayio mein

Gum ke bhi,

Nehi mila muhabbat,

Kya naseeb aya hamari bech,

Jo

Is manzil pe aakar bhi horahihai kheech,

Haire muhabbat,

Kya banadi tu humko,

Ek dil se dusre dil,

Ek jism se dusre jism,

Ek parchayio se dusre parchaiyo,

Jaanu to kaise jaanu muhabbat ki aalim,

Kaise bolu tujhko,

Muhabbat karsaktethe usdin hum na mile to,

Jisdin hum mile usdin hokar bhi na mile to,

Ab mil jaati to apna bana leti,

Areeee ab mil jaati to apna bana leti,

Tu kya jaane meri muhabbat ke bareme,

Man kehta hai tujhko phir bulalu mere ajib muuhabbatki duniya me,

Eksaath khush rahe hum dono,

Jeebharke ishq kare too kare hum tumko,

Ab jo chala geya,

Jo nikal pari,

Sab jaane bhi do,

Namunkin hai phir bhi har maat manna,

Jab hum tumko,

Tum humko mile,

Usdin hi bolna,

Mere liye likha sab gazal aur shayri.

[itsuflame]

ISHQ💗

Kuch pal ke liyehito mangithi tumhe,

Tum aanehi sakogi kya pata tha mujhe,

Gussa zid badduwa kuch nehi diye hum tumhe,

Kya pata kal nehi to prso tum chor dogi mujhe,

Kisko malum kitni pyar kartehai hum tumhe,

Kaise batau tum meri kitni badi arzoo ho,

Kaise kahu tumhe mere har dil ki baaton me tum ho,

Kaise kahu mai tumhe beinteham muhabbat karta hu,

.

kaise kahu tumhe mere dil ki baad mari jaan,

Tujhko khawbo me nehi dekhna chahtehe hum,

Hum dono eksaath milke disreko mukammal karna chahte hai meri jaan,

Tujhko paaneki har kosish karenge meri jaan,

Mujhe baas ekbaar batado,

ye namunkin nehi,

Hamara qalb ek jaisi hi hai meri jaan,

Ye dono apnoke hi hai meri jaan,

Milne do na dusreko,

Pyaar hojaneki moqah dona, dusreko,

.

Chupne nehi dena hamari muhabbat ko,

Are meri jaan

Chupne nehi dena hamari muhabbat ko,

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Are ye ishq nehi,

Ye dil ki muhabbat hai,

Ye asoo nehi,

Tujhko paaneki khwahish hai,

Ye adhoora nehi hogi kabhi,

Ye muqammal hai hamari,

Beintehum pyar karte hai hum.

Bohot hi zyada aursaccha.

-

Ho jaona hamari,

Eksaath bethke batatehai

Tere liye likkha sab gazal aur shayri.

[itsuflame]

Never knew

I knew i would fall for you,

I knew i will fall in love with you again and again,

Anyone would fall for you.

You're something unimaginably expensive from heart!

I don't deserve you but i do deserve a bit of you.

I knew you too would fall for me,

I knew you too would love me,

But never knew there will be a time,

we won't be together ever again for our betterment .

Never knew we will be separated,

You're my kinda lover,

Ik we looked cute, we were the best,

we were so happy together ,

We had so much lively memories,

But never knew all gonna vanish within a moment,

Never knew i could accept it and let it go this way.

Your ring's, your smells, your each and every memories binded with my only heart,

Which will never lost,

But i have to loose them for your good,

Everyday feels so empty that

I don't feel to stay up at night 😂

Your habits and every words ring on my ears,

Your every compliments touches my heart every everytine everymoment,

Yes i miss you.

And i surely know that you miss me more than i do.

After all you made me like this, this goddess obviously.

Thank you so much for everything and sorry for running you from every angle,

I hope you know that, how i was with you.

Yes i was so happy with you.

And i still die in your love.

_flame

[itsuflame]

KOLPOKAHINI

Ei shaara bela

Koto ki mone korechi

Ei oobohela

Koto ki bhebe achi.

.

Ei oshantir picche

Lukiye achi ami

Koto ki bhabna tomay niye

Eriye jacchi ekaa

.

Tomay keno paini ami

Ager duniyateee

Pabona kokhono aar ami

Toommmaaaakeeee.

.

Thakte chaina

Ei kolpokahinite

Bachte chaina,

Ei ruhur bhetore.

.

Ami jani ami kotota thik

Bethik bolle bhul nei amar

Shothik bolle rege jabe tumi

Jeta chaina ami hote.

.

Ei oshanti

Ei obohela

Ei kolpokahini

Ei bhalobashaaaaaaaaa

.

Kemne bolbo tomay

Ami nei thik nei ei shomoy

Kemne bolbo tomay

Ami tomar joggo noi.

_nafii

[itsuflame]

Neweraitsu

Nafi you're leaving her?

Yes i am.

But why? Why are you leaving your love?

You're questioning me flame, i am doing for you don't you know that? You're the one who made me like this, you deserve which is actually yours flame. 

So stop it and stop questioning. 

Understandable, you're doing so that we get back together as always we used to be right? You really don't wanna be separated. Don't you worry nafi, thanks nafi. But you're doing too much for yourself, you're no good. 

Ik doing for her and you. 

Deserve is needed. Now it's your and your one's turn or no turn.

_nafi

[itsuflame]

It's just that je,

It's hard to tell someone your inner feelings more than telling all the lies you never spoke with.

[itsuflame]

In the end,

I lost you too 202.

[itsuflame]

WOW

Congrats flame,

You have lost your all 2 hearts and one kidney already RN. I feel the same but it's okay flame. Don't be sad, i have you and you have me. 🫶🏽

[itsuflame]

Ettooo kii?

To

Ekhon ki,

Bhalobasha ta ki nibhe jabe 

To ekhon ki, 

Shob kicchu ager, pure jabe

Tooo ekhoonn kiii

Ager moto kicchu hobe?

_

To ekhon kiiiiiiii,

Alo aar jolbe naki

.

.

Ek fota bisshash thakle 

Emon hotona aj amader 

_

Ek fota bhalobashle 

Emon hotona aj amader

_

Ek fota onubad korleee 

Aj hotona egulaaaa 

_

Ek fota bhalo bhalobashle 

Aar hotonaa, eto bisringkhola

.

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Koto kicchu dekheo na dekha amra

Morchi eker opor er proti 

_

Koto kicchu na bola amra 

Bole jai onek ojotha kothaa

.

.

Janina koto ki shobi.

Ghurcheye amader mone,

.

.

.

Etooo kiiiii

Abeg tomar mone 

_

Etooo kiiiii

Raag amar prottiiii tomar 

_

Etoo kiiiiii

Oshanti tomar mone mone

_

Etooo kiiii

Odhorjo tomar kacche

_

Etooo kiiii

Obissshaashh amar proti

.

.

Rakhte chai ami

Tomay khub khushiii

_nafii

[itsuflame]

Together?

Flame you love to write songs without flaws and rhythm, all we can see is feelings full of yours.

Things we did together

Memories before it's late together

We had fun we had so much fun together

And in the end we smiled together

Who knew we never meant together

We laughed the same and been together

For some mistake from the past

Made an alternative way to deny, all together

Why does it sounds so crazy like us

We were never together from past

Why does it feel so sad about us

We were just breathing like we never had

We were just flying like no one could ever done

But in the end were not meant to be

And I already guessed it won't to be

Us together

Still i love you for being you not me

Idk why i fell for you in this me

I just don't know,

How could i ever be so sure

That I won't ever getting you back

But once you were meant to be

If we won't make our past like these

All we know we were all together

We were just being us together

I liked you and surely

I loved you.

_flame

[itsuflame]

Fall on your own

Just a reminder folks.

Yes i did fail in my highschool only for 1 marks and i lost 1 year and became 1 year junior from my homies. The main shit is the differences between me and my friends rn. Brother you don't know but it matters. You'll feel the most deepest insecurities a month before going to college. I already had a mindset of "don't give a fuck" but it never works with people you love, people you want to be with, friendships which never meant without you. A matchstick missing from a matchbox is the perfect example. You'll understand everything slowly. You won't ever be ready for that feelings brother. It'll make you tear up, crushed you what you love, when you will had a feeling that they're just passing by you and you can't do anything bout it. Trust me, you won't have anything NOTHING you can do about it nor you can fix it. It'll eat you totally. You will fall, if you won't just know that you will one day, today or tomorrow. If you understand situations enough like, "I didn't gave a fuck bout what others think of you" man it's just ZERO. And now, i have 24 days left to start college and i am already breaking apart everyday. Be ready for this type of situations brother. Rn i don't have that person with me that i can tell and talk about it to. But make sure you have. Don't loose yourself in the mist of love, friendship, bondings. Not everyone will be with you. The one who'll be with you, those are gems. Never let them go my brother. NEVER. ...

Flame you done?

Yes master, thanks for giving me a chance...

Always 🧭!

_flame

[itsuflame]

All i knew was

I lost my two heart's by myself 🔥

[itsuflame]

Flamez

It was all me ~

Nafii

She was the reason of your happiness

She was everything you needed

She was the fireball you wanted to have

Flame ik everything was in her

But what was inside me?

What do i have in myself that makes her choose me over everything?

Nothing flame nothing

You saw how happy i was with them right?

I was a 5 year old kiddo to them?

That's all i wanted and all i wanted to be

But i lost didn't i?

Know one knows except you flame no one

You know i was full only because of them

Are they with me rn?

I lost from them, from me, from everyone i wanted.

Only you know flame what feeling i had for them and for her.

I loose them, they didn't loose me flame.

You saw how happy i was always, when i came back home from school.

You knew didn't you flame?

And you know that too who is with me right now.

You know everything flame i am all alone drowning in my life.

I Lost and I won't be coming ever again.

And you know flame, i already loose two of my hearts and another one is already ached up.

Soon it will drown too.

Then I'll shrink too fast too.

I promised them you know every each of it.

I really wanna sacrifice myself flame

But I don't wanna loose you and my only heart.

I don't want to feel alone.

Ik i am already alone and lonely

I hope it is understandable flame

You know why i did this and also

You know how happy i was to

How i cry with you every single night only

For loosing myself and for two of my heart.

Don't you know what they meant to me flame?

Don't you know how i am rn

I am scared to be out at 1.

I don't know from where they will hunt me by my heartbeat

I wish i was full of them.

There are no one by my side to believe me flame

You the only one understanding me and leading me to the fullest perfect path but without them it's always hard flame.

It'll be a long way to be gone flame.

My days are over.

I thought at least i created a path of loveliness.

What now?

Everyone will hate me and you for being the bad.

Good is never meant to be bad flame.

I promise you to live for you.

Stick with me till the end my will

Just let me inn before the days are over flame

I've told them and letting you know too.

Believe me only once,

I'll made you mine forever.

Wait are you sayin they didn't?

They did nafii! I saw they did hey.

Ik they did flame.

Then what the hell is these nafii?

Flame dw hey,

Ik they did but ....

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[itsuflame]

DIFF???

I wasn't expecting this flame.

Everything has its own end but

Never knew you had that "end" too.

That's the mistake y'all did.

No one knows, someone can really change and be the same.

What a life i was leading, i was happy and jolly.

Makin everyday sweet up like summer on your tongue at winter haha.

Who to blame for all of these? You or love.

You're sayin who to "blame"?

I never knew i could change, and my love and life just bluffed with me, turned the table of love, joy, sadness amd everything.

Do i look fret? Do i look scared? Do i look I'm runnin? Do i look loving? All i did to myself was blessing full of bluffed cards.

Who knew that was truly serving you flame.

Who knew you can bluff your table and life.

The life full of keepers.

Big days are gone flame,

All you have is your body and heart.

I am still lucky to have the heart.

Ig because I'm diff.

_itsuflame

[itsuflame]

Itdsyflame

I've told you to be loyal my love.

Why did you switch up my strength.

I gave you thousands of blessings

I wanted you to become the one and only different guy

I gave you my heart, i didn't lend you.

You mean to me and your heart too.

I am sorry i couldn't serve you truly

I wont serve you from today master.

I won't be with you from now on.

You made everything complicated.

So now seek under your bullshit.

Oh okay.

Go on leave me.

I am always different and

I am always genuine.

You were no one close to my heart.

Oh master

You can lie so often and pretend to be some more like you haha.

Master, i can be no one ik but you can never be the one truly flame without me.

Listen, i will find you in myself.

Ik i will find someday.

Ik i am doing wrong and ik you won't find me again too.

Sure master.

It will always be remain in my heart.

I was looking for you for the first time i heard and understand the word love and home.

Master, i will always truly serve you.

I truly serve you flame.

Itsuflame and itdsuflame

_Itsuflame