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does anyone know if its worth the potential disappointment to have hope for a better tomorrow

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one day (?)

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I miss my best friend

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worrying is like worshipping the problem

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is there something wrong w me 4 going from “o my anxiety is barely bad anymre ! it was nvr that bad anyway !” to like the most stomach clenching barf inducing head spinning anxiety 15mins later lololol

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I think that maybe things aren’t going to get better

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Wow I really am out here rawdogging life huh, no prescription drugs no nothing just me, my weed and cigarettes and vaping and liquor and jacking off and eating food and cutting myself and burning myaelf, and gambling, and my coke zero !

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almost cried during lunch. can’t wait until this shift is over so I can cry on the way home.

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classes tomorrow. I don’t want to do any of this anymore.

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Y'know

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shooting myself in the back of the head so my suicide looks suspicious and i waste everyones time

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currently reading TWO fics that are incomplete and I’m losing my goddamn mind!!!! this is why I always sort by completed but the rec for a tlou!huskerdust au was so tempting and the other is a good omens writer that i ADORE so I couldn’t resist. first is at the end of extinction by the_bad _samaritan and second is by blackeyedblondie, both on ao3 :-]

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just found out that if i stay in my room all the time my life will eventually shrink to the size of it and i will lose all memory of how to function as a person. shocked & upset

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shine