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Why can't I look this elegant and beautiful when I'm tired and everything feels like it's falling apart? 😂 Actually... why can't I look this elegant and beautiful in general? 🤣

If anyone needs to paint a woman who's awkward and just kind of so-so, I'm here! I can also cry really ugly if desired. 😭

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A lil (ha) something I drew.

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Thoughts on BMI?

I know it's crap since it was created by a mathematician and not meant as measurement of health.... But sometimes it seems the range is appropriate? Like if someone has a low BMI they may actually be underweight and unhealthy. Or if someone has a high BMI, they might actually have excess weight that's unhealthy.

According to BMI, I'm obese and it really bothers me. I had finally gotten to the overweight range when I relapsed, but in 2024 I gained weight and I don't know why. If I was overeating or binging I'd have something concrete to point to and work on that. I know some of my weight is the lipedema fat that's not going anywhere, but that fat was already there in 2023 while maintaining my weight. There are plenty of people with lipedema who are at a normal BMI. I used to be at a normal BMI before I started having lipedema flare ups, but I didn't know that's what I was experiencing.

I still struggle with the idea that being fat is a personal moral failing. That I'm doing something wrong and I'm not trying hard enough. That people who've known me for a long time just think I've let myself go and am lazy. That I'm not attractive or beautiful (not that I thought I was necessarily attractive or beautiful when I was smaller, just that I'm really not now). That no one will like me because I'm not thin. And so on.

It's hard to know if my BMI is accurate for me because it's not a reliable tool for every body. I don't know how not to care. Numbers still rule my world and it's disappointing I'm not further in my recovery journey.

Anyway, thanks for reading this rambling post if you got this far.

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I just can't. 😂🤣😹😸 The look this cat gives at every stage is perfect.

Looks fascinated and bored at the same time

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GUYS. This morning I was still a bit puffy, but I'm wearing my leggings/compression and they're high waisted. I'm still chubby, but it doesn't look too bad. (Right?)

I've only drank coffee and water today, I haven't eaten anything. I didn't drink a huge amount either, but look... My compression isn't containing my tummy. It's like I'm blowing up for real... 😬😳

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No one can tell. 😬😳 Just a bulky hoodie, right? Right?

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Wow, you get big. What do you like about inflating?

Are the stretch marks from inflating? Or did your weight change? I didn't realize people could get stretch marks from inflating if that is the reason.

I've always loved the feeling and the look of being inflated til I'm ready to pop. Was always an oddly satisfying feeling of expanding within minutes and looking ready to explode if I moved wrong 😂 over the years my weight has fluctuated some but yes it's possible to get stretch marks from inflating cause of the constant intense built up pressure forcing your skin to bulge out.

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Okay, so... Roald Dahl, the author of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. What is up with this dude? 😂

How did he come up with these ideas for punishing kids?

Did he hate gum chewing so much that he gave Violet the worst punishment?

Why did he choose to inflate her? Maybe because you blow bubbles with gum, that's the only thing I can think of.

When did interest in inflation begin? I'm sure people were already attracted to bigger body types.

Was the idea of inflation already a thing and then became more popular because of the book and movies?

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Oof, that's unfortunate of it being complicated. Would it be okay to dm to chat about inflation? (Looking for inflation friends/friends in general to chat about inflation and such)

Sure. Feel free to DM. 😊

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Would you ever try inflation with an air pump through the other end?

I'm rather hesitant about that. Also, my husband isn't aware with my fascination and that makes it a bit more complicated.

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Do you like irl belly inflation too?

Yes. I've only done air inflation, pumped through the mouth though. I prefer the idea of inflation versus bloating, but at the moment bloating is easier.

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Hm... if this applied to humans I'd probably be "A Heckin Chonker." Of course the kitties look way cuter when they're chonky. 😂😸

See, chonky cats know how to live life. 🤣

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What should I eat? I'm gonna order dinner and I don't have an inkling for anything. So I thought why not ask the people who love to eat what i should get. 😂

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I went to the bookstore at school to pick up my book for the new semester. Got a couple other things for supplies and decided to buy some mentos. The guy at the register said, "as long as you don't drink diet coke." HE KNOWS. 😬😳😂

Never heard a "normie" mention that before. 🤣

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Having trouble getting my jeans on. 😬😳 Maybe it's cause I'm 44 inches...

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I literally just ate a tortilla with butter and some cinnamon sugar. It was delicious. I know you're jealous. 😂

Toast and butter is a go-to for sure.

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Excuse me?! What do you mean I look chubby? I look fantastic. 😎