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Fair enough

Neige is speaking of a cute girl he found during VDC....

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I never specified which yuu. I said yuu is the only female in Nrc because that I know of In all versions of the place I have seen aside from the gender swap AUs. NRC is canonically an all boys school.

We have only seen characters that refer to themselves as male. It could be that NRC only enlists students who are male. And I do mean anyone who has male parts or identities as male because it is a all male school.

I was being respectful, and if it didn't apply to one of the many variations of yuu's then I was obviously not referring to that yuu.

Yuu is not canonically ANTHING because Yuu is what the player decides they are. This includes age, race, features, personality and GENDER.

But regardless it's not your place to correct or lecture me on what is and isn't cannon on yuu who has nothing cannon unless decided by the person playing yuu.

I was confused because from what I had seen there was no person at NRC who could identify as female aside from the yuu's and if I am correct at the time of the post there was nothing referring to his crush as one of the multitupe paintings. The paintings from what I understand should have been nearly impossible for him to see since there was no event or booth involving him and the only inside area we are shown that is open for the festival is the botanical garden that is not part of the VDC.

I apologize to neige for the misunderstanding, but YOU did not need to correct me or tell me to be more "respectful". Especially when you are correcting me on the cannon while also rambling about this is our Roleplaying community and we do what we want.

This is a contrasting message that reads as this is strictly what's correct and your wrong on one side, but on the other, we make make the rules of this mad world for ourselves and you don't get to say things and apply rules for everyone.

Neige is speaking of a cute girl he found during VDC....

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Ooooooo look @therealmalleusdraconia Yuu is cheating on you~~~~

He's trying

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You do realize NRC is an all boys school???? The only female there is yuu.

Neige is speaking of a cute girl he found during VDC....

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@therealmalleusdraconia @yuu-grimmofnrc

This you?

malleyuu as the dragon family!!

@midnxght-sweet-time also thank u for the nickname idea

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@yuu-grimmofnrc Explain.

Haha you are banging my son

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Oh shit @ruggiebucchiii is getting called out

OH MY GOODNESS YOUR SIGNATURE IS ADORABLE!!!!! Call me yarnie, I sign with a ball 'a yarn! ^^

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That's so cool Yarnie!

Whats your favorite dessert?

Mine are donuts. They are the round thingies covered in white.

Mr. Ruggie showed them to me while Uncle Leona was taking a nap once. We bought them with Uncle's credit card....I think that's what it's called. I don't know how Mr. Ruggie got it since it's Uncle's but he said it was fine cause it was "Payback".

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@mountainloversclub @floydleechrp @flouriteflotsamleech

Poor Unfortunate Souls~ With no one else to turn to~

But I can lend a hand~

Coming soon~

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Sometimes I'm in the wrong and I know I'm in the wrong but it's so hard to apologize because when you are raised in an abusive situation you are taught you are always wrong and a stupid kid so when I have to apologize over how I accidentally hurt someone or something of theirs it's hard especially if it wasn't all my fault Because apologizing changed from showing remorse to admitting defeat and people don't realize this so when I apologize it's a big step for me.

The people around me don't acknowledge this. They don't see how big a step it is and how I'm so relieved when that don't yell at me.

So many people have gone through this and if you feel the same way I do, I'm sorry you had people in your life that made you feel that way, but more importantly I'm proud of you it takes a lot of work to say sorry sometimes because it was used as way to guilt trip and gaslight. It was amazing of you to apologize and I'm proud of you, even if others aren't.

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The worst thing is when they are family and your family members don't understand how damaging it was and the relationships were unhealthy. And because they haven't experienced them like that they say "your over exaggerating" or "they love you ,they wouldn't hurt you" or when you acknowledge it's unhealthy how attached you are they say " but your relationship is special" you just made me doubt everything I now know

Have you ever briefly considered telling someone about the abuse, only to feel absolute terror and panic at the mere thought? Experienced anxiety or panic attack when you were about to tell someone, and drew back from the idea, terrified?

Have you felt like the abusers would know right away what you did, and come to punish you for it? Or like the person you tell, would contact them and tell them everything, immediately, exposing you and putting you in danger? Have you felt like the abusers knew even of your intention of telling, and would punish you for merely having the thought? Have you felt that the person you're telling might turn against you, immediately side with the abusers, and hurt you for daring to speak of it?

Or on the other side, were you paralyzed by fear that the person might alert the authorities, who would then cause problems for your abusers, which would end up in you being tortured and killed for causing the inconvenience?

Many abuse victims have been conditioned, or even mind-controlled to experience or imagine absolute worst scenarios at the attempt to tell anyone about the abuse. For instance, some of it is that the abusers are omniscient and would know, regardless of how far they are, or how impossible it would be for them to know. Some might even feel that the abusers can read their minds, and know when you are having 'forbidden thoughts', and telling about the abuse is the ultimate forbidden thought to have.

Often the abusers might feel like omniscient and omnipotent, like it's impossible to hide from them or protect yourself from them, like they would find you and drag you back from any ends of this earth and destroy you if you were to disobey, or even just perceive them negatively.

If you've experienced this, it is possible that you've been thru some form of trauma-conditioning, or mind-control. Because these are not natural, normal or logical ideas, someone put that fear inside of you, for specific reason of never telling about the abuse. None of this can be true. Abusers cannot read your thoughts, or sense what you are doing miles away from them. They cannot locate you if you don't communicate your location to anyone. The mere act of telling someone what happened to you, in your life, what your parents have said or done, or inflicted on you, is not a forbidden, unimaginable thing. You're allowed to do it. All non-abused people are free to talk about their childhoods, everything that happened to them, without punishment or fear. You can do the same.

There are, sadly, exceptions where your confidant might act unprofessionally, have a bad reaction, or put you in trouble, however, this is usually not going to be the extreme trouble that you imagined, in most cases they will want to keep it hushed and want you to not talk about it or repeat it. You will not be tortured or killed. You will not be put thru horrors, in fact, if you're speaking out loud, the abusers now have extra reasons to look harmless and non-suspicious, this is when they're least likely to risk harming you.

There are scenarios where talking could create trouble, but if you are not in the explicit proximity to the abusers, and the person you're considering is not stupid enough to share it or to do anything against your will, you should be safe to do so. If your mind is alerting you with a different story, this is something worth looking into; why would somebody be so intent, so extreme in making sure you never tell what they did to you? Why is it so deeply in their interest for you to stay silent? Why did they put these unimaginable terrors in your head, just to keep you from saying out loud what they did to you?

It's possible to work on those fears, once you know why they are there, and who put them there. Your freedom is not there to be compromised by the abuser's wish to silence you, and to have you protecting their crimes. You are not wrong for wanting to speak.

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This, this is why I can't go outside. This, is why I can't make friends, I'm fucking 15 almost 16 but because of how my authority figures are where I can't tell the barista at Starbucks what cake pop I want. I can't talk to anyone inside or outside the family because I'm scared I'll trigger them and either get yelled and brake down or ruin a good relationship. And I'm still being suffocated, Im not even in public schools so all I've ever had was them , all I ever knew was their way, and I'm just figuring it's not healthy or normal on social media, why because I feel like I'm going to throw up if I even think about telling someone irl.

me: overanalyzes everyone's intentions, face-expressions, minute movements and emotions

me, later: why am I so tired after every social interaction. anyway let's analyze again just what transpired

me on another day: but what if... everyone else isn't overanalyzing everything? What if I'm weird for doing this? What if this is actually a trauma symptom and other people don't even know this reality of a person paying extensive attention to them only to figure out if they're a danger, presently or otherwise?

me:.... but what else do they do then. relax?? FEEL SAFE?? Ugh. Unthinkable. I have to analyze the danger or I will not survive. I don't know what is up with everyone else.

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Don't forget the "after I'll I've done after the money I spent" " your a horrible child abandoning us"

abusive parents for as long as you live at home: useless burden. costs money. only takes never gives back. waste of space. we should make you pay rent. threats of being kicked out at slightest disobedience.

abusive parents when you run away: we've been nothing but PERFECT this child is PUNISHING US for being GREAT PARENTS how could they DO THIS TO US?! We are a FAMILY!!! This is BETRAYAL

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I have literally specifically said this because when I say something bad that happened and send that emoji people literally assume I'm happy instead of suffering internally

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Yes, feel things, feel pain, cry, feel joy, feel nervous, gender should have no effect emotions and people need to stop judging if people get emotional.

No, a girl is not on her period if she starts crying,

No guys aren't less masculine if they feel emotions other then anger.

It could be a hard week and sometimes you just need to let go of those bad emotions whether that be by crying, blasting music, or just venting to a friend, family member or cat . We are all human and feeling any emotions aren't bad it's how you deal with them and express them.

emotions aren’t masculine or feminine. they’re human. normalize them.

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I tried to post this in reddit and it got taken down but I need advice so I'm trying here

I think I'm living in a toxic situation but don't know.

This is a long one.

For some context I f 15 turning (16) am living with my grandma (60) and dad (38) and sister (14) (she wasn't for most of what I'm writing) I visit my mom on Thursday and spend the night and every other weekend I spent Friday and Saturday with her on top of that currently we have always been homeschooled except for in 4th grade.

When I had turned 12 yo we had just moved into a new apartment after living with a few family members and staying in a hotel, my relationship with my guardians were fine until I discovered my family's homophobia (note my mom isn't homophobic) and my father's alcoholism, It all spiraled from there. My father and sister had never had the best relationship as she has always clung to my mom more. after she found out he was Homophobic she was furious and didn't understand why it was so bad to love the same gender, my father and sisters opposing views started a ton of arguments between her dad and my grandmother since she lives with us, some of which I got involved in because they were being taken WAY to far some examples of this are

-My father punching a hole next to my sister's head after he got pissed and backed her into a corner when she asked him to give her some space.

-My grandmother calling my sister a C*NT (she was 12-13)

- my father slapping my sister so hard she flipped over a chair and hit her head on the TV stand.

- My grandmother cornering my sister and asking her to "hit me" my dad was standing right f***ing next to her and did NOTHING to stop her till I tried to step in and THREATENED me saying to "sit the fuck down unless I want my ass beat" then split them up.

- Later that very same day they compared to that situation to putting a misbehaving dog in their place and when called out denied it even happened.

- Me trying to open up and communicate on how I felt about dads Drinking and how it hurt my feelings and I lost a lot of trust and respect that he would have to earn back to which She laughed.

These events took place during on and of occasions where my dad lost a job then took several months to find a new one so we where constantly fighting while trying to do school. I began to realize the unhealthy tole it took on my health both mentally and physically and my weight was going DOWN and I now suspected I have anxiety and the weight issues was a side affect of me not being able to eat because of this. my father "quit drinking" a long with getting a afternoon shift job and so the arguments went down tremendously. In my most recent fight with my grandmother I was expressing how I thought dad could get better and that conversation turned into about dad and his drinking then her throwing a pitty party saying that all she's ever done Is good for me. I called her out saying this wasn't about how great she was and gave her multiple examples where she was HORRIBLE including but not limited to

- How she repeatedly said my mom abandoned me leading me to resent her

- Making consistent comments on my body

- criticizing anyone that claimed to have mental health issues saying it was only except able for her

- constant gaslighting

- not letting me and my sister now she was "behind us " when dad was drinking

- letting it carry on for to long

- Only giving non apology apologies

And much more

We argued back and forth a bit before I went to my room. When my stomach was feeling better I hadn't had much to eat and was hungry and went to get some leftovers but because of her coming in and nagging me I lost my appetite again. When I went to go put the food back in the fridge to eat later she made a sarcastic comment about food and I SNAPPED saying "well maybe if a psycho bitch wasn't yelling at me I would be hungry" she spanked me with a pan, a fucking pan, when I went to leave she started to corner me I asked her to back away but she didn't and came closer cornering me I asked her to move so I could leave but she didn't say anything so I went to put up the dish washer door so I could leave through the other side, but before I could she slapped my hand. I slapped her to try and get her away but that didn't work so I pushed her and ran to the living room where she cornered me again and asking her to " hit her again" I refused so she shoved me HARD I fell into some boxes. I ran to my room and looked the door my sister had come in with me and started to call my mom and aunt., But it was to late my grandmother called my other aunt and told her a whole sob story she came in asked me what happened and I could tell she didn't believe me she started saying I needed to be more understanding because of her disease s I told her I get it but anxiety PTSD and depression isn't an excuse for this but she added in that she has bipolar as well. For the next bit I had family members guilt tripping me defending what she did. I don't know anything anymore I thought I was right but there saying I want and I don't know anymore I don't have any friends to ask what's normal either so I am at a loss.

Am I the asshole?

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Beat his ass Mercury stop supporting his ass he is Dead Weight.

A 50-kilogram anvil floats perfectly on the surface of mercury, because the density of the steel from which it is made is almost half the density of mercury.

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Lololol I thought they were dancing Im to tired

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