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Moon is my favorite to draw in case none of you can tell

Moon has the humor of a hormonal teenager

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These guys 💙Close ups under the cut as always :3

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Incoming doodle dump :D

And close ups because. Yea.

Reblogs are appreciated :]

More doodles coming in a bit :D

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Google Play search for E-Play free music software

huh????

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Hi, I think it's time I talk about a few things because, well, they keep pilling up and I'm feeling tired of not being able to talk about with someone. Skip this if you want! A Diva Moon and a few more doodles will be posted in a bit :3 (in the hopes this shit stays buried)

First of all, I'd like to apologize. I have neglected my social accounts and I'm sorry about that. I have been drawing!... Doodles, mostly, couldn't bring myself to draw digitally in a really long while for a couple of reasons. I just feel like a mess right now, and I'm extremely confused. I don't find motivation to draw anymore, I have too many ideas that I can't simply put into the canvas and do something about them. Don't misunderstand me, I love to draw, drawing is part of my life and it has a deep meaning and importance to me every day... It's just that I struggle to pick up the pen and do it.

There are thoughts inside my head, they're so loud and out of order, between suicide and random thoughts of the day I find myself stuck in the middle. I think I'm having a relapse again. This is not my first rodeo against suicidal thoughts, but they're coming back again, and I'm doing my best. I try not to dwell into them, I try to ignore them and shush them away, fear is my main motivation to fight against them. I want to live, you know? I want to grow up and be independent to have control over my life. There's a lot of things I want to do.

Between lyrics of some new song and suspicions of ADHD, I feel confused. It's been a while since I've considered it, experiences, feelings, symptoms, childhood memories, meltdowns. Jesus... They just keep pilling up and I'm almost certain I might have ADHD.... But I'm split in a half. On one side, it would explain so many, many, many things, it's not even funny. It would provide answers, I'd be finally able to know how to face this problem.... On the other hand though, I'm afraid. I don't have support here, I am a minor, I don't have the money to find those answers. Professional help is heavily needed in cases like this, and I simply can't get it. I don't feel secure opening up and being vulnerable about this with my parents. The things I've heard them say discourage me greatly to even try to visualize how that talk would go.

And finally, if I don't have ADHD... What's exactly wrong with me? Why my head can't be quiet? Why things bother me so much? Why I'm so tired of the noises and the demanding social life I have? No, these are not the only reasons why I think I might have ADHD, there's a hell of things behind that makes me consider it, but I don't want to be an attention seeker. I don't know what to do with myself at this point. The main goal is to keep going, but I know I'll have a relapse again. Some days are easier, some days are really difficult. Sometimes I wish I could stay in the security my room offers me, sometimes the knife or the pills seem too tempting. Millions of scenarios run through my head, and they overwhelm me, my mind overwhelm me, the people overwhelm me, the world, reality overwhelm me.

But I'll try, I have to get better. I want to be better. I want to be okay. I haven't told my friends about this, I think it's not okay for me to reach out for help when I'm too tired to talk to them under any other circumstances. It doesn't seems fair. It's not fair. I don't want to put that burden on them.

So yeah, that's somewhat what's going on in my head. I'll see what I can do to... Make it better?

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Dawg, yesterday (a few hours ago) I cried like crazy bro, Jesus, I feel like shit

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Doodles :b

I'm sorry, I'm really trying to push myself to draw, I might try doodling digitally next time. Also, have these as an apologize :(. Reblogs are deeply, profoundly appreciated.

Some close ups because I feel like they deserve it

Love y'all 💙💙💙

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“The most handsome pookies ever!” I say as I point to two ugly ahh jester robots

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cannot believe ive simped over some fuckass fnaf jesters for 4 years now

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Later on . . .

I WASN'T SLACKING I WAS DRAWING 🗣️❗🔥🗣️🔥❗❗❗🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥

OMGOMGOMG I GOT MOTIVATION TO DRAW AGAIN YIPPEEEE!!!! YAHOO!!!! OMG!!! AND I MADE A COMIC????? AND FINISHED IT???? AAAAHDJFMMFKFMLF AWA AWA ❗🗣️🔥🗣️🗣️🔥🔥❗❗

Oh! Moon loves fireworks btw :)

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"spam liking will get you blocked" spam liking will get you a kiss on the mouth

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Sometimes, I feel off, I don't like the person I am, or more likely how I view myself, or maybe it's just that I'm overthinking things again. Yeah, maybe it's just that, I feel numb

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I ate half a burrito in a bite. Apparently that's not normal

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Y'all don't know the joy it brings me when I see +99 notifications from the same person, because I do the exact same thing when I find an artist I *like*, but like, *like*. It brings me a lot of happiness to know that my stuff is worth spending time to go through it. I feel appreciated. Thank you little person on my phone, you are loved

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Doodle dump for all of you as a treat for being inactive for so long 🥺 (it literally will happen again) and also because I don't have shit for New Year

Also! Little Nightmares au HEAVILY inspired by @xitsensunmoon (is it safe to tag them??? How do I know if someone doesn't want to get tagged if I just remembered I have to ask first + sorry if it bothers u I'm sorry)

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I know I'll probably go ignored for sure (The tumblr universal experience lmaooo), but does someone wants to send asks about the boys? Or just anything in general? I feel like drawing

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I think you’re cool. 👍

Of all of you, actually

(y'all are going into my appreciation album)