imissyouk

[imissyouk]

What i would do to hold your hand again. What I would do to hug you once more. To get sloppy forehead and check kisses. . Foe you to come get a drink from my work, just to say hi . I wish everyone I know could know you.

Miss you momma.

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I saw the back of a person at walmart yesterday. It looked just like you, and you have a distinct body shape. My brain went right to "ohh thats my mom!" To "fuck." I had like a panic attack. There's nothing I wouldn't do to run into you at the store. Pretend to steal ur purse or something like I always did. Scratch your back while you're waiting in line and u get embarrassed cuz it feels good and u have to like let me do it. Fuck. I miss you, I miss every moment I could ever have with you.

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I'm not happy you're gone. I hate that you won't be there to watch my kids if I have any. But hey at least I dont have to argue that you shouldn't smoke around my kids, and all that stuff we don't agree on but it would've probably given them some fightin skills haha. Some life skills yk.

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Just miss you.

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You should be here. You should be able to be an old lady.

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I feel like watching someone die peacefully isn't talked about enough. Like maybe its not as traumatic but its pretty traumatic still. I feel like I still see it in my head. And I knew it was happening but its like. Wow. This sucks.

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I saw a picture of you when I looked through my dads phone, I wasn't snooping i was curious if he knew his phone was gone because he left it in his brother's car. You weren't Alive in the photo. Now I can't get it out of my head . Idk what to do and I feel like talking to anyone I know about it is like...taboo yk. It makes everyone sad to talk about you being sad let alone seeing a picture of a person after they died.

I tried looking at pictures of you when you were alive and I just got stuck on one. Idk what to do

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I've been dreaming of you a lot recently. Most recent was good. No bad ending or anything. I miss you, I hope its you talking to me.

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It hurts so bad.

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When you left, the ones who don't cry, cried. It was hard to see them cry. Im glad I chose to stay the night with dad that night. Why couldn't you just stay?

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I dont think i want to have kids anymore. I wanted them to have you.

I miss you.

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You were what made me who I was. I feel like I'm nothing without you.

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I know you going before your children is how you wanted it, but fuck. I wish it were me first. But then youd be wishing the same thing.

I'm glad you're not in pain anymore. I miss you more than anything.

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I keep having dreams about you. Are you talking to me? Maybe I just miss you, I have so many regrets when it comes to how everything happened, I just want to say, i'm sorry. I love you forever.

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I made this today.

You're the first person I wanted to show, I picked my phone up to text you, and then remembered. I know you would've loved it.