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beidou physique btw................

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beidou physique btw................

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IM NOTTTTT NORMAL ABOUT BEIGUANG OHHH MY GOD

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miss beidou birthday on Valentine’s Day……. maybe I will write a little for her……

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hellooooo!! it looks like my free time is dwindling even more than usual now that i'm studying for step1 on top of lecture material, so my attention across blogs has slowed :((((( i know i say i'm low activity to begin with, but consider this an official note of a semi-hiatus until i have muse to write!! i'll be answering asks / replying to threads here and there but you can catch me on my higher-muse oc @xianqu . thank you for your patience, i really appreciate it!!

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doing some stuff on yixuan tonight (hopefully finishing his promo) but maybe also like something for an ask from one of my canons?

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phel does everything he’s absolutely not supposed to when alune isn’t around (mostly in the heartsteel house) like smoking and drinking and talking. he goes back and forth between feeling hyper-vigilant about his condition to thinking nothing matters when his voice will never go by so why bother

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@starborne sent a letter : it's fallen asleep. his shoulder now serves as its pillow, music sheets gradually slipping from its loosened grasp

alune leaves his things without question, hardly ever enters his room in both the shared heartsteel house and the one she's reserved for him in her own apartment. his scant decorations are hardly anything to rifle through, but even she has noticed the extra key dangling on his fob, copies tucked into bags and shoved into drawers. her attention also follows the time spent away from either forms of home, finds aphelios' location hovering around astra's apartment, foreign recording studio, cafes where he hardly frequents, restaurants he had dismissed prior in her company.

she's asked before, jabbed at his side when they found time alone from the boys, brows raised in laughter as she mentions something about a crush.

of course not. it just invites me over when it's bored.

right, of course not. she acquiesces easily, acts as if it never happened when she waves goodbye to send him off. other times, he slinks away without notice after practice to escape the chatter of ezreal's extensive recounts of the day, and it's only when yone hears the roar of his motorcycle that they realize he's left. none of them say a word of it, either, forging silent pact to keep their silence. aphelios seems to know just how to map his way to its usual locations, a bloodhound with an odd sixth sense of its whereabouts before he even sends the text to ask.

today, they spend the day at his apartment when he complains of poor sleep ( as if he's ever gotten a second more than three hours at a time, but that's not the point ) and he's scrounged up whatever makeshift meal he can in a barren kitchen that's hardly ever touched. instant noodles and some eggs? surely these vegetables haven't gone bad if they smell fine... astra doesn't huff about his limited pantry and aphelios is thankful for it. they have more pressing matters, after all, like this verse that he can't seem to beat into shape no matter how many eyes have seen it, how many edits have marked the page. its own pen scribbles bright purple lines and additions to the already crowded sheet until aphelios can hardly tell what the original verses are anymore.

dizzy and insistent, his tendency to hyperfocus comes to view now, attention narrowed to nothing but the notes scrawled into dog-eared papers where the text fades at the edges. time passes as it always does, a whirlwind that he doesn't notice until the lights dim and he can hardly see his own hand in front of him. it's dark, can't work in these conditions. astra's hand falls just as he shifts and it catches his attention before he causes them to crash in his attempt to reach for the lights. it's then that his focus clears to reveal a full picture of the room outside of a meager scope of his notebook. he feels its weight then, followed by the slow sound of its breath that's evened from an irregular thrum brought on by its work. astra is slumped at his side and guilt settles in his stomach when he realizes that it's been sitting there on the floor beside him while he hardly even paid it any mind. some invitation he extended.

asleep?

his hand waves over its eyes, head straining to catch a glimpse of its face without tilting his torso and it's a feat that proves difficult when it stirs, brows furrowing a he toes the line a bit too far. a slow correction as if afraid to prod at a sleeping bear: he fears its swift exit more than any anger that might follow. though it's doubtful that it will be angry at all. their posture shifts in an almost comical deliberateness, hands guiding astra's head to settle on his chest if only to relieve the divots in its cheek engrained by his sweater. truthfully, it's for his own selfish reasons that he maneuvers its posture, hopes to watch in a bit more languid fashion than stealing glances at its face.

emboldened even further, aphelios' hand comes to settle at its hip while the other brushes a strand of hair from its face when he sees it grimace before settling like magic. he's just giving it the space to rest, is all. it certainly isn't a means to feel its body heat hovering in a way that he would never have the gall to ask for when astra is awake. so he sighs softly to ruffle the petals of its lashes that have somehow drawn even further against him. until their personal space merges into one shared bubble where he holds it like one might cradle a baby.

just for its rest. that's all this is.

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cue the marvel rivals moon knight sfx “THE MOON” but only its mana standing in front of aphelios and lifting both of his arms up like some bad kind of puppetry

he's just going to sigh and let them, leaning his full body weight on her......... knees weak arms spaghetti or whatever

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when will phel return my calls- u-u

is this kero

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wuh luh wuh?

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i will be here tomorrow to write <33333333

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i already went crazy ab this on twitter but god pushover girlfriend beidou im obsessed with her 😭🧎🫶

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woodz for dazed (2023)

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𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐆𝐎𝐍𝐄,ㅤsweet creature?ㅤfrom the blooming meadows to the rushing riversㅤ-ㅤwhere have you gone to escape the clutches of your darkest fearsㅤ?ㅤㅤ//ㅤㅤa small, low activity multi - museㅤㅤfeaturing muses from communities such asㅤㅤ:ㅤㅤ honkai star rail, genshin impact, original content, virche evermoreㅤㅤ&&.ㅤㅤmoreㅤㅤ!!ㅤㅤorchestrated by polaris.