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It’s Nice to Have a Friend

I read a post in which someone theorized that “It’s Nice to Have a Friend” is about Taylor’s three relationships - Emily, Dianna and Karlie. I’m sorry that I don’t remember who wrote the post, but it made me think about the song in a new context.

Rather than specifically focusing on those three relationships, I wonder if it is about the progression of her relationships with girls, and then women, throughout her life -throughout her “20 year dark night” of being closeted.

The first part of the song focuses on relationships in childhood, possibly as a young adolescent, 10 or so years old, the beginning of the dark night. It’s about first crushes, puppy love masked as best friendship.

The second part of the song takes place when she is older, no more curfews, possibly 18-20 years old. She is still masking her relationships with friendship, and stealing time alone on rooftops and with subtle touches. They are both closeted, and feeling the strain of it.

Finally, the third part of the song is at her current age, as an almost 30-year old woman in a loving, committed relationship. She is secure and safe in her love, finally ready to come out of the dark night to live her life freely with her life partner. This is reinforced by the placement of the song “Daylight”, immediately following “It’s Nice to Have a Friend”.

What do y’all think?

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Lover Kaylor speculation

I Forgot That You Existed - a laid back song about getting over people who were dicks to her. She absolutely owns them lol. I really like the snaps in the background and when Taylor speaks "indifference"

Cruel Summer - I think this might be about kissgate? At the very least it's about the girls having a hard time hiding and closeted. "I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you" "I love you ain't the worst thing you ever heard".

Lover <3

The Man - Oooh this is a bop. I feel the frustrated feminist energy just radiating from this song. Also Taylor GET those "bitches and models"

The Archer <3

I Think He Knows - "He got that boyish look that I like in a man, I am an architect I'm drawing up a plan, it's like I'm 16 no one understands, no one understands" haha this is a fucking bearding song, she's so mocking 🤣

Miss Americana & the Heartbreak Prince - this is tough but I think it might be drawing a comparison between life as a celebrity in front of the cameras and being in high school. It really shows her disdain for the whole thing if thats the case. "My team is losing, battered and bruising, I see the high fives, between the bad guys" i can see this as "My team" being the LGBT community is constantly pushed down by LA and the fame circus.

Paper Rings - ahhhhhh!!!!! This song is so CUTE! The girls are so so so in love and are definitely either married or engaged. Also what's with all the blue references in-

Cornelia Street - this. This might be my new favorite song. "I'd never walk Cornelia Street again" oh my god just. This song. Also this album is very centred around New York... except for London boy. Also I wonder why New York screams the name of Taylor's London born lover?

Death By A Thousand Cuts - this is a break up song. This is 100% a breakup song. I have three explanations: 1) Karlie and Taylor are broken up. They're human beings so this is certainly possible. If brangelina can break up anyone can. 2) this is in the middle of the album so maybe K & T broke up briefly and got back together again. 3) my favourite explanation: the toe "breakup" is gonna be announced soon and Taylor added an old breakup song to the album to smooth out the narrative. I like this last one, especially considering that London Boy is next. I also can see Taylor wanting to add a breakup song to an album that is a "Love letter to love" as breaking up is a part of that.

London Boy - Another mocking one, very generic, especially since her last, like, 4 "boyfriends" have been English...

Soon You'll Get Better - this song made me cry. It hurts. It's a song about the terrifying realization that our parents aren't gonna be around forever and Taylor had to learn that lesson hard. I feel so much for her. I feel so much for myself. This is a song about the human condition and it hurts.

False God - an angsty sex song. Also amazing. Also lots more New York references.

YNTCD <3

Afterglow - SO MUCH BLUE. Basically a makeup song? This is why I think Death By A Thousand Cuts is about the girls temporarily breaking up.

ME! <3

It's Nice To Have A Friend - this is a song about being gay. This is a song about what it is like to be a wlw. This awesome and romantic and sweet. Also kaylor are married.

Daylight - THIS IS A SONG ABOUT COMING OUT. "I've been sleeping so long in a 20 year dark night and now I see daylight" she's been in the closet for 20 years but she sees the light at the end of the tunnel. "I wounded the good and I trusted the wicked, clearing the air I breathed in the smoke" this is about signing whatever deal she signed with BM. It probably had a clause that prevented her from coming out. Signing this has hurt the people she loved. But she's free now. She's going to come out. "You are what you love" SHES GOING TO COME OUT.

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I Think He Knows (rewritten in a way that makes more sense to me)

I think she knows her footprints on the sidewalk lead to where I can't stop, go there every night 

I think she knows her hands around a cold glass make me wanna know that body like it's mine

She's got that boyish look that I like in a man

I am an architect, I'm drawing up the plans

It's like I'm 17, nobody understands, no one understands

She’s got my heartbeat skipping down 16th Avenue

Got that, oh, I mean, wanna see what's under that attitude like 

I want you, bless my soul

But I ain't gotta tell her, I think she knows, I think she knows

I think she knows when we get all alone I'll make myself at home and she'll want me to stay

I think she knows she better lock it down, or I won't stick around cause good ones never wait 

She's got that boyish look that I like in a man

I am an architect, I'm drawing up the plans

She's so obsessed with me and, boy I understand, boy I understand

She’s got my heartbeat skipping down 16th Avenue

Got that, oh, I mean, wanna see what's under that attitude like 

I want you, bless my soul

But I ain't gotta tell her, I think she knows, I think she knows

I want you bless my

I want you bless my

I want you bless my

I want you bless my soul

Lyrical smile, indigo eyes, hand on my thigh, we can follow the sparks, I'll drive

Lyrical smile, indigo eyes, hand on my thigh, we can follow the sparks, I'll drive

"So where we gonna go?" I whisper in the dark

"Where we gonna go?" I think she knows

She’s got my heartbeat skipping down 16th Avenue

Got that, oh, I mean, wanna see what's under that attitude like 

I want you, bless my soul

But I ain't gotta tell her, I think she knows, I think she knows

I want you bless my

I want you bless my soul

I want you bless my

I want you bless my soul

I want you bless my

I want you bless my soul

I want you bless my soul

But I ain't gotta tell her, I think she knows

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The Archer: analyzed as a coming out/pre coming out song

Combat, I'm ready for combat

-Ready to face coming out

I say I don't want that, but what if I do?

-Unsure if she really wants to come out, even though she’s ready to, is it what she wants?

Cause cruelty, wins in the movies

-Queer ppl never could get a happy ending in media (not until very recently, and even now it’s still common for them to be stereotyped and killed)

I've got a hundred thrown out speeches I almost said to you

-Coming out, both privately and publicly

Easy they come, easy they go

-If her past boyfriends were all beards then it’s not that much of a heartbreak...

I jump from the train, I ride off alone

-She’s constantly been running away from herself and accepting being queer, as well as hiding from her sexuality/others responses to her sexuality

I never grew up, it's getting so old

-Growing up often involves really learning to live with and understand and accept yourself. Personal growth, etc. She never got to do that with her sexuality, and it’s getting old having to hide being queer. Especially since she’s been a public figure for over ten years now.

Help me hold onto you

-Doesn’t want to be abandoned, turned against, or disowned

I've been the archer, I've been the prey

-She’s been on both sides of the situation. She’s made inappropriate remarks, she’s used “gay” as an insult, she’s been not a supportive ally in the past. But she’s also been more recently supporting queer ppl and trying to be involved in the LGBTQIA+ community and thus been the subject of a lot of backlash from homophobic people as well.

Who could ever leave me darling? But who could stay?

-Needing to break off relationships with non cis het men, since they couldn’t ever truly be together. Not when she was still closeted. Plus, for her ex boyfriends, it’s difficult to have long term relationships with they’re not real... when the relationship is only being used as a front.

Dark side, I search for your dark side.

-Looking for the “dark”, basically what society deems to be “wrong” aspects of people. Which unfortunately queerness would count for most places in the world still. Also, “dark side” could also mean an aspect of oneself that is difficult to accept, aka queerness.

But what if I'm all right, right, right, right here?

-Two interpretations for me. First is there’s no need to look very far to find this “dark side” since she has one. Second is maybe it’s okay to be queer and she could accept this about herself, and she’s going to be okay.

And I cut off my nose just to spite my face. Then hate my reflection, for years and years

-Trying to be a fake version of yourself to please everyone else. Because that’s what you think you need to do. But every time she really looks at herself, she feels guilt and self hatred for presenting this straight facade, and letting it go on for her entire career

I wake in the night, I pace like a ghost

-Night implies being alone with her thoughts, being kept awake unsure if she’s doing the right thing by hiding her sexuality. Ghost also makes me think of invalidity which is often associated with queer identities.

The room is on fire, invisible smoke

-Everything is not okay but that reality is invisible to everyone but yourself

And all of my heroes, die all alone. Help me hold onto you

-Bury the gays, need I say more?

I've been the archer, I've been the prey. Screaming, "Who could ever leave me darling? But who could stay?"

-Repeat from earlier

Cause they see right through me, they see right through me, they see right through, can you see right through me? They see right through, they see right through me, I see right through me, I see right through me

-All the speculation, the beards convincing less and less people, seeming “fake” because of all the “inexplicable” actions to benefit the queer community that seem almost like it’s too much for just an ally, and the backlash from putting herself with the queer community when even though she is she hasn’t said so yet so it seems like she’s just queerbaiting especially with all the lyric changes (ie. “I want her midnights” and “she can make me a drink”)

All the king's horses, all the king's men, couldn't put me together again

-All the cis het “traditional” men in her life couldn’t “fix” her, couldn’t make her straight, even if maybe that’s what she was trying to achieve.

Cause all of my enemies started out friends. Help me hold onto you

-Her ex boyfriends I don’t think would’ve been very happy to find out they were just beards... and if there was never romantic/sexual attraction, it’s probably a platonic relationship, therefore from her end, they were just friends until they found out about the true nature of their relationship, in which they probably became “enemies”, especially if they were the subject of a song, and not even for a real relationship.

I've been the archer, I've been the prey. Who could ever leave me darling? But who could stay?

-Repeat from earlier

Who could stay? Who could stay? Who could stay? You could stay, you could stay

-Who’s going to stick with her, through all the backlash she’s going to get when she comes out. Through all the backlash she’s already been getting for queerbaiting. For the turbulent reality of her life.

Combat, I'm ready for combat

-She’s ready, to face it all. To come out. To accept herself, and her sexuality, as she is.

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Wait so she said deluxe albums would all have different content right?

Is it possible that one of those would be where all the pronouns were switched so all the songs were queer?

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lover or love her that’s the real question

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🌈HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!🌈 While we have so much to celebrate, we also have a great distance to go before everyone in this country is truly treated equally. In excellent recent news, the House has passed the Equality Act, which would protect LGBTQ people from discrimination in their places of work, homes, schools, and other public accommodations. The next step is that the bill will go before the Senate. I’ve decided to kick off Pride Month by writing a letter to one of my senators to explain how strongly I feel that the Equality Act should be passed. I urge you to write to your senators too. I’ll be looking for your letters by searching the hashtag #lettertomysenator.

While there’s no information yet as to when the Equality Act will go before the Senate for a vote, we do know this: Politicians need votes to stay in office. Votes come from the people. Pressure from massive amounts of people is a major way to push politicians towards positive change. That’s why I’ve created a petition at change.org to urge the Senate to support the Equality Act.

Our country’s lack of protection for its own citizens ensures that LGBTQ people must live in fear that their lives could be turned upside down by an employer or landlord who is homophobic or transphobic. The fact that, legally, some people are completely at the mercy of the hatred and bigotry of others is disgusting and unacceptable.

Let’s show our pride by demanding that, on a national level, our laws truly treat all of our citizens equally. 🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈

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We can’t make any promises now can we babe? But you she can make me a drink

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Don’t forget she also sings “but she can make me a drink” during Delicate in this show too! (10:35)

Soo I’m rewatching the “Taylor Swift Now” Chicago Concert for AT&T and she definitely said HER MIDNIGHTS way back then. It was only once but I heard it omg…. it’s around the 24:28 mark for anyone interested I’m dying AGAIN.

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This ain’t for the best my reputations never been worse so you must like me for me

We can’t make any promises now can we babe but she can make me a drink.

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“I want your her midnights, but I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year’s Day”

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This ain’t for the best my reputations never been worse so you must like me for me

We can’t make any promises now can we babe but she can make me a drink.

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isn't it weird to be speculating about her sexuality? with fictional characters it's one thing but TSwift is a real person and speculating about real people can get out of hand really quick

Okay listen, so I agree with the point you’re trying to make and under most circumstances you would be completely correct—real people have a right to privacy, and we are not entitled to parts of their personal lives that they clearly want to keep private, regardless of their level of fame or the connection we may feel to them.

However, in this specific instance, I don’t think it’s quite the same, because Taylor has been explicitly, overtly, publically signalling that she’s part of the LGBT community for at the very least the past few years. She’s been collaborating with out queer artists, bringing them up on stage with her, saying that she’s really into other queer artists and explicitly queer media, showing up at LGBT charity events and donating large sums of money to LGBT causes. She wore rainbow dresses all throughout the reputation era, from the dress in the Endgame music video to a different rainbow dress in the publicity shot is now the image for the upcoming month of June in the rep era calendar to the various flavors of the Delicate tour dress—she was wearing the rainbow one when she gave a Pride speech about how it’s “brave to be vulnerable” about who you love, which happens to be the exact same language she used to talk about her own personal story that she’s trying to tell with her upcoming album as part of an article for which she wore a pride pin on the cover and explicitly said she loves leaving clues in the clothes she wears.

So… none of those things are a coincidence. The dozen different rainbow outfits she’s incorporated into her work were not a mistake or a slip. She wants everyone to pick up on these things. She’s been wearing rainbows in her private life, too, or at least the curated version of it she presents to the public: rainbow running sneakers, more rainbow sneakers (which she wore in an ad involving being trapped in a closet), rainbow striped t-shirts, various combinations of different pride flag colors, the rainbow sweatshirt and sequined rainbow shorts for the caticorn adventure ad, like half a dozen different pieces of rainbow jewelry—almost all of which are from collections made by LGBT designers and/or explicitly for LGBT campaigns. Plus, she has publicly acknowledged that yes these are pride rainbows and not just aesthetic rainbows. She is entirely aware of what they represent as symbols, which means she is entirely aware of what her choosing to wear them signals to the rest of the world. You don’t even have to dig into her personal life or relationship history, or do close readings for gay subtext in her lyrics—like in live performances, she’s been changing her own goddamn lyrics to be explicitly gay. You just have to use your eyes and look at even the very surface level of what she is putting out into the world.

Gay signalling is a real thing and a big part of our history and culture—communicating with each other through symbols and imagery to let others know that yes, I am like you, I am one of you, without having to explicitly say the words. By the time I was walking around in rainbow sneakers every day and had a pride pin on my backpack and a pride collar for my dog, I did that in part because I just liked it and it made me feel good, but also at least in part because I was tired of having to come out to new people. I was so so beyond ready to be done with the coming out part of my life and just be out. I wanted it to be unmistakable that I was gay, so people could see me, see the signals I was loudly sending out into the world, and just Get It so I didn’t have to keep having that conversation over and over again. And the times when people still insist on being like, “oh… that’s interesting, very colorful haha! you must just like that aesthetic, huh?” and clearly are not picking up on these very loud and intentional signals, it’s unbelievably frustrating and I fuckin hate it. I really want to ask like, do I not look gay enough? How can I possibly signal louder to you so you will just Know and it will no longer be my responsibility to repeatedly come out to every new person I meet??

So, yes, in a way you’re right. Speculating about someone’s sexuality or any part of their personal life absolutely can get out of hand and be incredibly invasive and disrespectful and inappropriate. There was definitely a time in Taylor’s life when she was not ready to come out, and people speculating about her sexuality clearly felt like a violation for her. However, at this point? When she has literally been decking herself out in rainbows at every opportunity for the past two years? Honestly, that’s when it becomes disrespectful to keep willfully ignoring that.

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isn't it weird to be speculating about her sexuality? with fictional characters it's one thing but TSwift is a real person and speculating about real people can get out of hand really quick

Okay listen, so I agree with the point you’re trying to make and under most circumstances you would be completely correct—real people have a right to privacy, and we are not entitled to parts of their personal lives that they clearly want to keep private, regardless of their level of fame or the connection we may feel to them.

However, in this specific instance, I don’t think it’s quite the same, because Taylor has been explicitly, overtly, publically signalling that she’s part of the LGBT community for at the very least the past few years. She’s been collaborating with out queer artists, bringing them up on stage with her, saying that she’s really into other queer artists and explicitly queer media, showing up at LGBT charity events and donating large sums of money to LGBT causes. She wore rainbow dresses all throughout the reputation era, from the dress in the Endgame music video to a different rainbow dress in the publicity shot is now the image for the upcoming month of June in the rep era calendar to the various flavors of the Delicate tour dress—she was wearing the rainbow one when she gave a Pride speech about how it’s “brave to be vulnerable” about who you love, which happens to be the exact same language she used to talk about her own personal story that she’s trying to tell with her upcoming album as part of an article for which she wore a pride pin on the cover and explicitly said she loves leaving clues in the clothes she wears.

So… none of those things are a coincidence. The dozen different rainbow outfits she’s incorporated into her work were not a mistake or a slip. She wants everyone to pick up on these things. She’s been wearing rainbows in her private life, too, or at least the curated version of it she presents to the public: rainbow running sneakers, more rainbow sneakers (which she wore in an ad involving being trapped in a closet), rainbow striped t-shirts, various combinations of different pride flag colors, the rainbow sweatshirt and sequined rainbow shorts for the caticorn adventure ad, like half a dozen different pieces of rainbow jewelry—almost all of which are from collections made by LGBT designers and/or explicitly for LGBT campaigns. Plus, she has publicly acknowledged that yes these are pride rainbows and not just aesthetic rainbows. She is entirely aware of what they represent as symbols, which means she is entirely aware of what her choosing to wear them signals to the rest of the world. You don’t even have to dig into her personal life or relationship history, or do close readings for gay subtext in her lyrics—like in live performances, she’s been changing her own goddamn lyrics to be explicitly gay. You just have to use your eyes and look at even the very surface level of what she is putting out into the world.

Gay signalling is a real thing and a big part of our history and culture—communicating with each other through symbols and imagery to let others know that yes, I am like you, I am one of you, without having to explicitly say the words. By the time I was walking around in rainbow sneakers every day and had a pride pin on my backpack and a pride collar for my dog, I did that in part because I just liked it and it made me feel good, but also at least in part because I was tired of having to come out to new people. I was so so beyond ready to be done with the coming out part of my life and just be out. I wanted it to be unmistakable that I was gay, so people could see me, see the signals I was loudly sending out into the world, and just Get It so I didn’t have to keep having that conversation over and over again. And the times when people still insist on being like, “oh… that’s interesting, very colorful haha! you must just like that aesthetic, huh?” and clearly are not picking up on these very loud and intentional signals, it’s unbelievably frustrating and I fuckin hate it. I really want to ask like, do I not look gay enough? How can I possibly signal louder to you so you will just Know and it will no longer be my responsibility to repeatedly come out to every new person I meet??

So, yes, in a way you’re right. Speculating about someone’s sexuality or any part of their personal life absolutely can get out of hand and be incredibly invasive and disrespectful and inappropriate. There was definitely a time in Taylor’s life when she was not ready to come out, and people speculating about her sexuality clearly felt like a violation for her. However, at this point? When she has literally been decking herself out in rainbows at every opportunity for the past two years? Honestly, that’s when it becomes disrespectful to keep willfully ignoring that.

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There’s the mural and everything everywhere, with 13 hearts right? And yes I know thirteen is kinda it’s own thing, but 13 hearts = king of hearts = king of my heart = song that Taylor sang at the engagement party of a gay couple…

It’s like everything’s been adding up to her coming out! I hope so.