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Heart:I'm going to scrape your metalic cold ass face against the sky

Mind: Excuse me???

Soul: ruler of these hands

Mind: Fuck You.

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Mind: But who gets which pencil?

Heart: Since they're my things, I get the good one, Soul gets the broken one and you don't get one because fuck you.

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Look I made you some content

thank you to @hms-incorrect-quotes once again! (I'm leaching off him like a parasite-)

I know it's a little messy, sorry! Trying to figure out how to make comics in preparation for Road Trip (my hmsw comic that's going to be starting soon, for those who don't know) and getting used to drawing entirely digitally. This is not the comic style I'll be using for that, but I thought it'd work just fine for this

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Heart: So, what's for dinner?

Soul [staring at the food it burnt]: Regret.

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Things I Wish I Knew Earlier In Fandom

But maybe these will help somebody now.

Most of your fandom experience is shaped by who you follow. Find a good group of people and stick with them.

Support your favs and a lot of them will become your friends, or at least be friendly back to you.

Just unfollow people who bring unwanted content or negativity onto your dash.

Block people who cause you stress. It’s not worth your time to focus on parts of fandom that don’t make you happy.

Blacklisting words/tags is a tool you are allowed to use as much as you need to.

Don’t feel like you have to pretend to like things that make you uncomfortable in order to fit in. Set healthy boundaries for yourself.

Never tag your hate. Never send hate anons to someone.

Content creators love getting comments, seeing people gush in the tags on reblogs, and getting fans in their inbox. It’s the best way to motivate them to keep making awesome stuff.

If there’s certain content you want to see but it doesn’t exist yet, then make it. Draw the thing, write that fic. If you can’t, then comission an artist or writer, or send someone a prompt if they’re open to it. If you can’t do that either, then write meta or headcanons about it. Put it into the world.

Create what you love. Do it for yourself first and foremost, and if even one other person likes it too, then that’s a bonus.

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Mind [as Soul walks in]: Oh, hey, I'm just making pizza.

Mind: [accidentally smacks Heart in the face with the baking sheet]

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"oh wow i thought this fandom was dead" you ignorant slut no fandom is ever truly dead. there will always always always be at least three mentally unwell freaks on the internet irrelevant-posting about their little blorbo(s) who have not been relevant for fifty years. this is the way of the world and they are stronger than you will ever be you FOOL

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MyFeetStayedOnTheFloor.png

Sorry about your eyes.

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Things I Wish I Knew Earlier In Fandom

But maybe these will help somebody now.

Most of your fandom experience is shaped by who you follow. Find a good group of people and stick with them.

Support your favs and a lot of them will become your friends, or at least be friendly back to you.

Just unfollow people who bring unwanted content or negativity onto your dash.

Block people who cause you stress. It’s not worth your time to focus on parts of fandom that don’t make you happy.

Blacklisting words/tags is a tool you are allowed to use as much as you need to.

Don’t feel like you have to pretend to like things that make you uncomfortable in order to fit in. Set healthy boundaries for yourself.

Never tag your hate. Never send hate anons to someone.

Content creators love getting comments, seeing people gush in the tags on reblogs, and getting fans in their inbox. It’s the best way to motivate them to keep making awesome stuff.

If there’s certain content you want to see but it doesn’t exist yet, then make it. Draw the thing, write that fic. If you can’t, then comission an artist or writer, or send someone a prompt if they’re open to it. If you can’t do that either, then write meta or headcanons about it. Put it into the world.

Create what you love. Do it for yourself first and foremost, and if even one other person likes it too, then that’s a bonus.

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Im starting to realize that this life of mine was never worth living for factors outside of my control. I look back on my past and realize that I'll never have that stability or happiness again... I could have done everything right and still ended up here, in a hell of my own creation...

I'll be homeless in a few days. I don't have a high school education, and guess what it takes to get an education? Money. From where? The job I don't have? The job that's impossible for me to obtain in the current market? The jobs that my parents can't keep down because businesses are leaving the state? The jobs that disabled people like my parents can't get? The financial aid that hasn't been changed in, no exaggeration, 30 GODDAMNED YEARS to where $20 AN HOUR FOR 3 PEOPLE IS "TOO RICH" TO QUALIFY?!

I'm done. I don't want to die, but it seems more appealing every day. Soon, I won't even have my cats to make life worth living... I'm sorry... I was doomed from the start. This slowly ripping wound has become a large gash, and i feel like it's too late to stop the bleeding...

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I'm upset so I forget to drink water, making me thirsty

I'm thirsty so I feel physically awful

I feel physically awful so I feel upset

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I feel like an asshole but I'm pissed off at my friend for added her mother to our PRIVATE discord server. Especially since said mother is somewhat of a transphobe and one of the people in the server is closeted trans. I own the discord server, and the friend added her mother after I was kicked off of a group discord call.

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one of the funniest things people who try to prove humanity is above animals say is "theyre not doing (insert thing) theyre just doing (insert detailed description of thing they said the animal isnt doing)"

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I feel so horrible mentally that I can't even talk to my friends. I'm on the verge of homelessness - and since i don't have a high-school education for reasons outside of my control, I'll never be anything more than just a fucking waste of space.

I want to sleep my life away now more than ever, and yet I'm forced to stay wide awake. I feel too awful to drink water or talk to my online friends - i can barely even wear my headphones.

I just want to be a drop in the abyss - completely meaningless, forgotten, together yet oh-so alone... even when I was younger, I just wanted to be left behind, to be forgotten. Just let me fade away in the background to live my mediocre life and let me live it in peace. My feelings are hollow and nothing makes sense anymore. I just want this to be over. Whether "this" is my teenage years or just my years in general - I just want out of this hellhole of a situation my family and I live in.

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Help is on the weeey! Help is on the weeeey!

I like Light & Night