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[horseshoekidney]

If it were true the heart never lied then the mind would not have thoughts. If love was false then the heart would not beat.

[horseshoekidney]

My thoughts are flashing yellow

My feet root into the earth

Distance is a familiarity

Avoidance my name

[horseshoekidney]

Love is a choice of being.

It's being vulnerable not just honest.

It's being active not just interested.

It's walking with them not just affirming trust.

[horseshoekidney]

I am not moved to tears anymore.

I am not afraid of losing you anymore.

I am not shaking with worry anymore.

You walked away too many times.

You gave up too many times.

I fought alone too many times.

I let you come back too many times.

My heart isn't sensitive anymore.

My mind doesn't imagine us anymore.

My soul doesn't yearn anymore.

You used my fears against me too many times.

You chose to be cold to me too many times.

You valued chaos and secrecy too many times.

You want to try now?

You love me now?

But there is nothing now.

[horseshoekidney]

Her beauty was not made for the likes on the internet.

Her beauty was made to be consumed by the fullness of the soul

[horseshoekidney]

Life is the simplest of games played by the most complex of creatures.

[horseshoekidney]

Sometimes loving yourself isn't enough.

[horseshoekidney]

There are no straight lines in life.

[horseshoekidney]

She wants financial stability to buy every onesie.

She wants her own home so she can showcase her plushies.

She wants stickers and kisses.

And I want her.

[horseshoekidney]

Smoking on the cosmos watching dreams go by.

[horseshoekidney]

I like cold, slick, slimy places.

[horseshoekidney]

Don't question the worth of your love by those who reject it.

[horseshoekidney]

It doesn't stop this pain, this longing.

All the money I've made

All the places I've been

All the interesting and awesome people I've met

All the memories I've made

All the friends I have

All the prayers

All the affirmations

All the music

All the walks

All the drives

All the cleanses

All the experiences

All the workouts

All the knowledge

All the discipline

All the motivation

None of it stops the pain

None of it stops the longing.

[horseshoekidney]

My type is modest Lovecraftian females.

[horseshoekidney]

Slippery does not mean uncatchable.

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[horseshoekidney]

No matter how much I desire you, I must leave room for you to desire me.

[horseshoekidney]

I liked you. Not as star crossed lovers or twin flames or soulmates. But as my cosmic consort to a cosmic being.