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Have you ever had someone touch your back?

Like what the fuck. I feel like puking and crying and scraping the skin layer by layer off of my flesh.It feels like there's a nail lodged between each one of my vertebrae and i want to be shot between my eyes.

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jack of no trades. master of fuck all

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My school friends sorta cut me off these last few days so im spending a lot of time by my lonesome, as one does... but is it weird that I've started thinking in spanish again? Like. The last time I constantly and consistently thought only in spanish I was like five, and was pretty much left by my own devices since i barely had any human interaction.

What is this freeing feeling of knowing my own feelings better? Is this decolonization? Are my emotions only clear now because I've finally been freed from the ever-euphemistic nature of thinking in portuguese? Or is this the optimistic high that comes before the mania?

My lemons and I will stand by for an answer

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#LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK

i am genuinely unfollowing and unsubscribing asoiaf "content creators" turning on grrm for being "unprofessional" and telling him "to shut up and finish winds." thank you for telling me that you don't care about the author's vision as long as you get more soulless seasons and shows to turn into tiktok theory vids and ship fodder. thank you for letting me know that you are more concerned about HBO's ability to churn out half-baked slop and want TWOW now regardless of how it reflects the author's creative message and how happy he is with it. thank you for letting me know that you see asoiaf as primarily a content mill for you to profit off of and you will turn on anyone who threatens the content mill, even the very person who made the world and characters you claim to love so much.

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My hottest hot take is that George R R Martin has no obligation to finish the Song of Ice and Fire series.

Bro let his whole adult life be consumed by SEVEN thousand-page semi-historical-fiction books with a cast of near thirty well-developed, well set-up, well-characterized characters, and a complex and realistic geopolitical enviroment just because he thought a specific historical event should be better known. He deserves to enjoy the money he made in peace, and a lot of people (hell, a lot of WRITERS) whose only knowledge of writing is barely thought-out fanfiction populated by characters whose whole personality is to be horny for the character the author thirsts over, will jump at his throat and scream about how selfish he is just because he is taking time to develop HIS OWN GODDAMN NOVEL????????????

I know its frustrating. Believe me, I have no life, my only reason to wake up in the morning is that George MIGHT finish the series. But it's HIS intellectual property. HIS book. HIS characters. It came from HIS mind. If he wants to chill and just maladaptive daydream about it for the next decade than that is his right and he doesn't deserve the hate he gets just because ya'll can't accept the fact your favorite fictional war criminal who already has seven novels worth of content isn't getting an end? Well, welcome the plights of fiction fandoms. Sometimes, it's good enough just to not fix what isn't broken.

I'm sure plenty of writers here in tumblr can sympathise with the hope to not be harassed over when the next chapter for your story is coming. Sometimes we don't know. People have lives. Struggles. Health issues. Other interests. THEY ARE NOT YOUR FAITHFUL AI SERVANT. THEY DON’T PULL STORIES OUT OF THEIR ARSES. THEY HAVE TO THINK IT, THEN MAKE IT, THE EDIT IT, THEN SEE IF THEY LIKE IT. ITS A WHOLE PROCESS.

We are so used to immediate consuption that we cannot concieve of people taking time to perfect a craft that's meant to be enjoyable to them. And if we're honest, Martin has weathered a lot of fucking bullshit in silence. From fans, to editors, to bosses, to showmakers, he has had his fair share. Much more than its ok to take in silence. Please realize that just because something is out for the public to consume it doesn’t mean that it belongs to you.

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I love changing the color settings of my tumblr to match my new aesthetic

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she has been loved.

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I'm probably the worst mental patient there can ever be. I can't speak of myself without simultaneously trying to get at the conclusions before my therapist can, so I am not shocked at it when they eventually reach their conclusion. So, at my last consult, I looked at the doctor's notes to see if I was right. Shock and horror. I was. Now I can't agree on my own diagnosises of myself without questioning whether or not they are pygmalion effects.

That's gotta be the stupidest, most Freudian Sysifus Stone thing I've done ever seen.

I'm in self-fulfilling prophecy purgatory. Send help please.