hikakaomybeloveds

[hikakaomybeloveds]

love this gracing my dash only a couple days after i ranted abt hoyoverse refusing to give shotacons food in genshin impact.

hoyoverse will never feed us and we need to accept it :')

Stop lying to me stop fucking lying to me there are no real shotas in these Chinese gacha games and you either know it and are delusional or are just a moron because look me in the eyes, truly look me in the eyes and tell me how can they be shotas when they're double the size of the fucking lolis STOP LYING TO ME AND YOURSELVES AND JUST ACCEPT THEY WILL NEVER GIVE US REAL SHOTAS IN THESE GAMES!!!!!!!!

[hikakaomybeloveds]

people are still regularly liking my "proship tumblr turned me into a shotacon" post and i find that very beautiful

[hikakaomybeloveds]

redoing the pinned posts on both my blogs to make em look prettier & go more in detail where necessary! <3

also may do a slight retheme on this blog!

[hikakaomybeloveds]

Literally one of the single best things you can do is block antis. There is literally no scenario for it in which you lose.

They do not get to see any of your content. It protect you AND them, because why would they want to see your content unless they're intending to deliberately expose themselves in order to cry wolf or attack you?

You can't see their content. You get your tags and pages full of lovely anti-free content.

They get to sit in their own little cesspit full of other antis and content they're comfortable with. They only get to talk to other antis and have their content seen by other antis.

Win, win, win.

[hikakaomybeloveds]

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

[hikakaomybeloveds]

*VENT POST*

cw for mentions of cocsa, grooming, and intrusive thoughts (specifically surrounding csa)

note: i am talking about my own incredibly personal trauma here. please do not speculate on what may have happened to me outside of what i say here, and please do not ask invasive questions. thank you

okay. i need to vent rn.

i'm so FUCKING SICK of antis.

i'm so sick of them and their stupid fucking rhetoric around fiction.

i am a survivor of cocsa. i lost my early teenage years to grooming due to the vulnerability caused by that sexual assault. i am proship and a shotacon who ships both shota/shota and non-shota/shota. THEY ARE COPING MECHANISMS. shipping yuu and tsubaki has genuinely *made me feel better and less gross* about being in a relationship with a 17-year-old when i was 12 because i was being groomed. i don't know why. i can't explain it. i just know it helps.

i also have HORRIFIC intrusive thoughts that often involve graphic imagery of me committing csa, specifically against my own siblings. don't feel this needs to be said, as it's kind of in the name, but these thoughts bring me immense distress.

antis will say, with their full chest, that i'm a groomer and pedophile and need to be kept away from children because of the things i ship and the kinds of characters i am attracted to. they will tell me i should not be able to see my own siblings because i'm going to harm them. this is DEEPLY triggering.

i live in fear that one day i will hurt a child. i don't want to. i know that. but i've had intrusive thoughts about it regularly *since the age of 11*. i am so scared that one day i will act on those thoughts. and regularly seeing people call me a child abuser for the way i cope with my own trauma is absolutely not making that any better.

genuinely fuck antis and their moralizing bullshit about the ways fiction affect reality. try this on for size: you are actively triggering a childhood sexual assault and grooming survivor when you call shotacons or proshippers in general pedophiles.

fuck you.

[hikakaomybeloveds]

i think abt this constantly btw

(yes, that is a broken lava lamp in the background. aka the sole source of light in my bedroom at all times)

[hikakaomybeloveds]

If ur a proship artist over the age of 18 pls like this post!! I need some cool and epic ppl to follow.

No pressure following back either im not sure I’ll be very active here im very shy

[hikakaomybeloveds]

rewatching the "problematic media" i watched when i was like twelve and then from the ages of 13-17 said were the worst, most despicable things ever created by man.

i am starting with citrus. wish me luck

[hikakaomybeloveds]

fellow shotacons

i would like to ask a favor, mayhaps

does anybody know if finland from hetalia has ever been shotafied, and if so, where i can find shota art of him

this has become an all-encompassing hyperfocus. someone please save me

[hikakaomybeloveds]

you see its its problematic becayse they see the word cest and then scream

I accept this answer

bonus: start calling everything [blank]cest! you see, anything with the suffix -cest acts as a deterrent for many breeds of annoying fucking fandom members (but not all. be warned there will still be some)

you love shipping the perfectly healthy, unproblematic torikasa? that's torikasacest now :)

[hikakaomybeloveds]

i'm so mad at genshin impact for giving the lolicons so much food and the shotacons NOTHING.

no real shotas. just shonen-type boys who shotacons keep making into shotas bc WE HAVE NO OPTION

HSR HAS MISHA. WHY CAN'T GENSHIN GET A SHOTA. OR MORE THAN ONE. PREFERABLY MORE THAN ONE.

I'M SO SICK OF CALLING VENTI A SHOTA TO SOOTHE MY HEARTACHE.

HOYOVERSE!! FEED US!!!

[hikakaomybeloveds]

there is no "secret third thing". either you harass people over fiction (anti) or you don't (proship). that's it.

[hikakaomybeloveds]

rb to have a super gay 2023

[hikakaomybeloveds]

just saw this ⬇️

grace my dash

and i was like "yeah!! i agree! reblog time (:"

and then i went "hm. i'm gonna check this blog's dni just in case i'm on it- i don't wanna end up the target of harassment or anything, and breaking dni's isn't cool"

and it's got fucking PROSHIP DNI

like. how hard do u have to miss the point man

[hikakaomybeloveds]

Please don't ask me for relationship advice unless you are prepared to receive some truly upsetting information because some people are ready for the "He's exhibiting the literal textbook signs of a psychological abuser and you need to get away from him before he successfully cuts you off from your support network" talk and some people aren't

[hikakaomybeloveds]

putting @brainwashed-klarkstella 's tag additions to this here bc YES!!

I DIDN'T EVEN THINK ABT WRIOLETTE BUT. GAH. YES

also ventiluc! or anything with venti rlly (unless it's archon/archon but i don't think that's much of a thing. except maybe venti/zhongli but i haven't seen that so 🤷)

disappointing the genshin fandom is so full of antis when it's flooded with comships 😔

i love thinking more abt it and realizing a beloved ship is, in fact, a comship.

like. zhongchi. zhongli x childe, genshin impact.

childe is like. 19 years old. this man is fully a teenager.

and he's dating. the fucking GEO ARCHON. WHO'S OLDER THAN *LIYUE*.

THEY LITERALLY HAVE AN AGE GAP OF THOUSANDS OF YEARS. AND CHILDE IS A *TEENAGER*!

just. YES. i love them!! i love my old dragon man and his teenager boyfriend!!