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getting attention online is fun until you remember that you didn't get any attention from your parents and now you need reblogs to function

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any other narcissists have a mindset that is mostly "if u dont do something for me im not gonna do something for u" like if u dont respect me im not gonna respect u. if u dont message me im not gonna message u. if u arent nice to me im not gonna be nice to u. if u dont try to understand me im not gonna try to understand u. a lot of ppl have an idea that like even if someone is bad there are some things that they deserve and i agree to an extent but also if they dont put the effort into me im not gonna put the effort into them. i believe there is a basic form of respect that people deserve but it can easily be taken away if theyre a piece of shit.

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How to easily tell if someone has NPD:

they'll be sooo sexy ahaha like.. so pretty and hot and smart and

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Some people are too fucking sensitive it’s a mystery how they’ve existed this long.

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"OmG NaRCISsiStS aRe sO eViL aND wIll mANipuLaTE YoU" Vro. I literally kiss my plushies goodnight and apologize to them when I accidentally make them fall off the bed. Be for real.

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idk who needs to hear this but you CAN romanticize your own mental illness. you don't have to be miserable and in constant pain all the time if youre mentally ill. dont cater to the comfort of ableists

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accurate depiction of me

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they hate me for my narcissistic traits that they would love me for if i was a fictional character

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where's the "boooo 🍅 🍅 🍅 *extremely loud incorrect buzzer noise*" button on this site

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i wish i lived in a world where being low energy, lacking enthusiasm and being nonchalant was accepted in society and it was the norm to assume that it’s nothing personal when that attitude is being presented to you. i hate that i have to overextend myself in my job or in social situations to comfort others when it doesn’t have to be that way.

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I’m not edgy I’m ill. If I tell you my dark thoughts it’s cuz I feel comfortable with you. Making fun of me for being “edgy” or judging me is going to make me not like you no more.

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the urge to go out and ruin my life bc i’m bored

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some of yall forgot, so im gonna remind you:

- Moral Purity is unattainable. This is recognized in philosophy too.

-Moral purity culture today is HEAVILY ableist

- Immoral actions can be justified

- Your personality disorder doesnt make you a "bad person" even if it makes you do "bad" things

- Moral Purists are NOT welcome in real leftist spaces

-Moral Purity is pushed even more in christianity, which should tell you all you need to know.

- You deserve love , even if moral purists label you a "bad person"

- You deserve love. Period. Full Stop.

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We need more aromantic, asexual, and aplatonic characters who’s orientations are a result of their disorders actually.

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Choosing to be pro-recovery and behave prosocially (even if you're not wired that way), choosing to learn how to be kinder to ourselves and to others, and to help people, and to accept their help in return, whilst being a person woven out of trauma responses that make us full of rage, or hate, or indifference, or apathy, or selfishness...it's fucking hard. It's commendable and admirable and exhausting and heavy.

Being both things at once is to recognise that our thoughts and feelings do not reflect what we want for ourselves and the world. And to keep fighting to be kind even though that may not (sometimes or ever) be our instinct.

Trying to give better than we got. Even when we're angry and afraid and hurting. Even when we want to lash out, retaliate, exploit, harm. Even when no-one is kind enough to us. Even when other people won't believe we can be any more than those feelings.

But isn't it also incredible? Look how wrong they were about us. The human spirit is greedy and selfish? People with our diagnoses are toxic and cruel? You could have bought into their narrative, but you keep trying to be more. In the face of all you've been through, and so many understandable reasons to be selfish and greedy and cruel, you're trying to be better.

Maybe "only" because of the personal benefits. Maybe "only" for the validation. Maybe "only" because we care too much what other people think of us to be unkind. It doesn't matter. It's not about why we choose it. Either way, we'll prove them wrong and we'll get a better life out of it. That's pretty fucking cool. Keep going.

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i got a b in personality disorders??? did i not study enough?