hazelnuthoney

[hazelnuthoney]

June 18./19./20.

I was on a one day trip to paris with three close friends. I don't really recall every detail because i was severely sleep deprived BUT basically a friend and i drove to paris overnight and we hab breakfast next to the Eiffel Tower.

When we were half way back home my mothers car decided to stop working. We endet up staying overnight in a small french village. I'm proud to say that i handled it by myself.

July 14.

Graduation is creeping up. Today we got the results for the written exams and the final exam subject that we will be presenting on on the 21.

Seven days from now will be the last time i set foot on campus and we're in full preparations for prom.

I applied for a one year internship as a midwife in a big hospital in the nearest town. University just won't be happening this year. Which is not too bad because an internship is payed.

[hazelnuthoney]

June 3.

Exams are over and it's been alright.

The cut from too much schoolwork to nothing to do was really bad this time around. It has been five days and everyday life still feels weird.

June 14.

A close relative of me and my mum is very sick.

My parents and i went to visit him over the weekend. It was nice to see him but i'm so afraid that he won't be there to see me go to university. He always encouraged me to strive for higher education. I really want to prove myself towards him.

Growing up seems to entail the death of older family members. I wish nobody had to age, even if that would prevent me from evolving.

[hazelnuthoney]

Today was studying and singing with a friend.

I had a conversation with my parents about moving out and applications. They took really well that i want to be out of home by september. Last resort is my grandmas place. Optimum is a shared apartment in the closest town.

I'm still hoping to be accepted at a university about three hours from home. But the chances are as slim as ever.