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npd culture is getting immediately pissed off whenever someone uses "narcissist" wrong like omfg not this again, just shut the hell up

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npd + bpd culture is leaving a server due to a split and proceeding to split and crash more when no one reaches out to check up on you. like oh ok so you DO hate me -🛟🪝

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being a gatekeeper in a system is the worst because no one gets why I don’t trust certain people. because they don’t remember what they did to us and i do. i have an alter dating someone who’s hurt us (not abusive. but still harmful) in the past and he just doesn’t get why i have an issue with it because he doesn’t hold any of the memories of him hurting us. all he knows is this person being sweet and loving to him and all i know is the person being mean and hateful towards us. and whenever i fight him on it he gets mad at me because he just Doesn’t Get It.

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npd culture is going from ‘I’m literally god’ to ‘I’m literally the worst person on Earth’ at the drop of a hat

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theres someone i hate so much i would genuinely kill him if i could get away with it. i despise him. i honestly dont think ive ever hated someone as much as i hate him. i want him dead. i want him gone. i want to kill him personally so i can see the life drain from his eyes. or just get him to kill himself (i think that would be even better). everytime i see him or hear about him i genuinely shake with rage. it makes my teeth chatter. i dont think anyone irl takes me seriously when i say that i genuinely want to kill this man. im not just saying this to be “edgy.” im not being dramatic or over the top for the laughs this time. ive never prayed more for someones downfall

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if me and you were locked in a room only god could save you and he wouldnt

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bitch with DID said they didn’t quite feel like themselves and i said oh im sure

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npd culture is “don’t speak unless spoken to” towards people you don’t like / can’t stand.

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i wish more than anything for someone to spend the rest of my life with. for someone who chooses me always. for someone who loves me and always will. and it hurts so bad because i know thats basically unattainable. the one time i got close i managed to ruin it. and people dont tend to like me for long (i cant blame them, im incredibly unstable). and i very rarely love, i think its only happened once. theres only one person ive ever liked enough to actually want to spend the rest of my life with. (unfortunately theyre the same one i fucked it up with). i dont think ill ever have that feeling again, and i dont think anyone else will ever feel that for me. and it hurts so much. i dont want to die alone but i know i will. god must really hate me to make the one thing i want the furthest out of reach.

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Aww. On one hand, I'm glad my words touched you. On the other, it makes me so deeply sad knowing even the smallest glance towards granting one basic human dignity is enough to drive one to tears. I wouldn't even call my words the bare minimum - I don't think that countering the common idea that a group isn't inherently abusive should be the bare minimum. The bare minimum should be casual respect, the same that's afforded to any other person. The bare minimum should be me not even needing to say any of this in the first place.

NPD is so heavily demonized, especially right now. There's wave after wave of people claiming "Narcissistic Abuse" is a valid term and viciously attacking anyone who breathes in the direction of contradiction, every single search adjacent to NPD results in almost nothing but article after article on, specifically, how to hurt people with NPD, or protect yourself against them... There's conspiracy theory after conspiracy theory posted online quite literally painting them as actual real demons, like, Demons, from The Bible, or linking them to the Jewish Reptilian conspiracy theory, and it's just completely and utterly gut-wrenching. Even in spaces that proclaim themselves as safe, or progressive, or bigotry-free, these unjustified, bigoted snap judgments occur. It's the worst.

NPD is not something that I have. I don't have any Cluster B Disorder, actually. But I'm sympathetic because they're all fucking human beings the world has decided is socially acceptable to turn into a Sinister Other, a Walking Otherworldly Threat, like this is a fucking fiction novel or a video game. I'm sick of it.

There's a few people in my immediate circles who have NPD. They're all good people. They're nice, they're funny, they have perspectives on things that I deeply value, they're smart, and I treasure their proximity so much. They've never done anything wrong, and certainly haven't done anything wrong purely on the basis of being some Evil, Conniving Super Villain. They're literally just hanging out, and I'm glad to know them. My life is better and more enriched having known these people. They have never wronged me, and I don't think they ever will. And even if they do, it would not be because they have NPD, it would be because they're a living being. As people, we all have the capability to harm others. Animals have the capability to harm other animals, too. Plants can harm you. This is not a trait unique to the Disordered.

Us people without NPD need to do better, to listen to our friends and siblings with NPD, to help boost them up so that we can help end this wretched fucking curse - or, at the very least, quell it. We need to help them speak louder, and amplify their cause with our vocal support. Ableism will never go away, but the least we can do is try to move towards making it not as socially acceptable to be bigoted. None of us need a Sinister Other to combat. This is not war, this is not the medieval times. We do not need this. We do not need to beat a persecution complex into ourselves to excuse persecuting others. We do not need to live in constant fear of the idea of the line cook who just wants to go home and play Dark Souls, or the office worker passing the time by thinking about their 3 cats, or the high schooler at home reading their favorite shoujo manga, or the guitarist driving home tapping their fingers on the steering wheel to the beat of the radio. These are not your enemies. They are people going about their lives. They've literally never hurt you. Stop projecting your fear of abuse onto strangers - onto minorities.

My message to people without NPD is to fucking check yourself if you believe in Narcissistic Abuse, or automatically assume that people with NPD are up to something. Especially right now, that is a very, very vile, dehumanizing form of absolutely rampant ableism that we needed to take extreme steps to mitigate fucking months ago. Years, even. The best time to shoot this bigotry and burn it's corpse was the moment it started rising. The second best time is Now. Interrogate yourself. Realize that people with NPD are literally just human beings. Stop being awful to your fellow person. The way people think and speak about people with NPD is just absolutely disgusting, and everyone needs to apologize to them right now.

My message to people with NPD is simple: You deserve one billion dollars for having to put up with all of this shit. It's actually deranged. Trust me, there are others out there that think this is horseshit. You are not alone.

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Npd traits + aspd traits culture is having a friend leave you on read and immediately shutting off any emotions towards them.

I hate them and they can kill themself but I also just don't care. They don't exist anymore. I'm done.

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npd culture is being annoyed bc I always listen and make sure to comment when ppl tell me about their interests but when I tell them about my interests they just ignore it like ok I didn’t care about yours in the first place and you have the audacity to just ignore me ?? but I care too much about wanting to be liked :/

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npd culture is SEETHING i am so mad at everyone for existing. these freaks are so lucky i care too much about what they think of me because if i didn't i'd be biting the shit out of people

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NPD + questioning ASPD traits/pdnos culture is actually being really good at lying and being sneaky(both in being good at the action and being not remorseful about it) but having issue in the fact that I NEEEED to gloat about it. Like I can manipulate someone I just can’t stop myself from telling them and everyone else how good I am at manipulating people. So I don’t do it in the first case just so I don’t get caught. Which I guess ends up being a good thing??

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im a medically recognized narcissist and im still less of an asshole than 90% of the people i interact with