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How the “omg lmao i love myself I’m such a narcissist 😆” girls look at me when I tell them every little mistake makes my head spin. I need to prove my worth to myself, that I’m better and more important than those around me. If I don’t I feel powerless and annoying. I need to be in control. I need to be better. If I don’t gain attention from other people I see myself as a god. I tell myself I never needed the attention because clearly I’m much better than them. I’ve convinced myself that I have lived a mediocre life and everything I do is pointless. Living as a mediocre person is pointless. Failure is weakness and my own expectations leave me constantly overwhelmed.

(Can we stop romanticizing and watering down very real disorders)

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npd culture is thinking you have to be the best at everything ever so if you even remotely suck at even one thing that means you're actually the worst at everything and everyone around you is a selfish bitch for not letting you be the best also

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NPD + Autism culture is "you tried to correct me about my special interest and were wrong you need to face the ultimate heat death of the fucking sun and also never challenge my authority on this subject again" :3

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for all of the NPDers who want to dissapear and hide because they werent replied to instantly:

YOU DIDNT EMBARRASS YOURSELF FOR SAYING THAT!!!!!!! i PROMISE its fine

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"Mental health matters!!" mfs when they see a person with NPD

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npd culture is not being able to take criticism but also not being able to take it when someone won’t take the criticism you give them because you obviously know better???? why are they pretending otherwise??????

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bpd culture is subconciously attempting to inject yourself into a relationship you have no right to be in because you can't have your FP but you can't let them go either

I know it'd be best if I just left them both alone, gave them their space, but I just.. i cant. it hurts so bad, i just want to be loved too, but its not my place to demand my FP to love me after everything that happened. maybe i deserve to be alone. i've hurt people, ive done shitty things. "The wicked die alone" or whatever.. but fuck.

why cant i be loved. thats all i want, genuinely. i just want someone to love me like i love them

..maybe i should just delete everything. not like they'd worry. they're happier and safer now without me. they have their partner. they dont need me anymore. im only making things worse by trying to stay

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npd culture is grrrrrrr hghhhhhhhh arrrrrrghhhhhhh hhhhghhhghhhghhhhh

-🩵🎱

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covert npd culture is having a sort of pseudo-grandiosity: not in a typical “I am the best” way but in a

“I should be the best” way

like, I know I suck, but I still want to be treated like the best >~<

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Covert npd culture is that you WANT to be everyone’s saviour friend but finding it SO HARD to care about people (esp when the convos are BORING) and/or text first because ughhh i physically cant give a shit.

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romanticizing the horrors all by yourself handsome?

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watching someone who hurt you in a specific way get hurt in that very same way is such an experience

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sometimes i hate myself for being a narcissist and then i remember how i was chronically neglected and ignored by every single adult that should’ve supported me in my childhood and i think. damn no wonder im so self obsessed how the fuck else would i have survived

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questioning npd culture is constantly feeling pissed off, not showing it, and then getting more pissed because youre good at hiding that youre pissed off and nobody notices

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Part of my narcissism is constantly comparing myself to others. Essentially I'll think "if I can't do this or I don't have that skill, I'm worthless", completely disregarding all the skills I do have and ways that I contribute to the world around me.

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Jesus fucking christ so many times someone makes a post saying "stop calling and armchair diagnosing your abusers as narcissists, your dickwad dad did not have npd just because he was self-centered he was probably just an asshole" and there's millions of comments like "well CHECKMATE cuz MY abusers were actually diagnosed narcissists <3 so you are wrong and I don't count and I have the free pass to say anything I want about npd <3" "but im pretty sure my mom was a narcissist and it was so so scary i don't mean to say all people with npd are like that but im pretty sure my mom actually had it and it was so scary :((( i don't think all narcissists are abusive it's just. my mo-" "that is so true op!!! not ALL narcissists are abusers :)) most of them are but some of them do make an effort to not bother anyone with their nasty symptoms and go to intensive therapy to get cured and become normal!!! however we shouldn't erase the very silenced and overlooked experiences of narc abuse victims as many experts from quora can confirm it is indeed real". or even like "i agree and im not ableist and dont hate pwnpd!!! my mom was a narcissist though but its not the npd's fault but her own actions that made her abusive <3" like WHY ARE YOU TELLING US THIS. WHY WOULD YOU BRING THAT UP ON THAT POST. WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE. PLEASE SHUT UP NO ONE CARES .

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npd culture is you called me a good person? fuck you, you're lying. called me a bad person? fuck you, I didn't do anything to you.

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