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from Ante Meridiem

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strangers (museum guide and librarian) to flatmates to I-know-you-better-than-your-closest-people-and-yourself, set in london

this is about ante meridiem

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the playlist to the WIP. it's getting real.

ante meridiem

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I wasn't kidding when I said coming back from London made me start a new contemporary...

meet museum guide Vienne Giang and librarian Arthur Moreno, who will share a flat and will meet only in the AM (Ante Meridiem WIP)

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the unawakened & the lost [preview V.]

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THE HORROR!

by Hannah Cao

her skin is glowing, shining

but the grime spilling dries her eyes

her mind is alive in that bar,

the world one big horror story

oh what fear! not to care

about pieces of clothing and premature hair

you’re a winner until you are naked.

it’s so much fun to look at you as she crawls out of that well

you wish you’d done differently

but there’s enough lies to sell

SHE’S INSANE she is

wants to be a film star but also a good mother

wants to drive a fast car but acts like a wretched sinner

what horror! a brain

if only she could talk about you without making a fuss

you’re The One And Only, while she exists to discuss,

oh, but isn’t it hard out here when you can’t scream.

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LANGUAGE

by Hannah Cao

driving through Holland tunnel / my throat closes right up like light turning off after the curve

everything got louder when you didn’t say a word / and I hope this goes away quietly

so I can ask the world where did it go / when I was willing to give it my time, my world

there is so much I could have said / but I wasn’t ready then

sighs are a language / for minds so unprepared

I tell them what I know / I keep everything quite low

I don’t feed them lines / to keep them on my side

they’ll never know the wrong or rights / despite

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vision of the future

I give the green light in the perfect places. somewhere where the weather is good for dreaming, where the hills aren’t going anywhere. even a few days from now the bushes will bear fruit. I was born in November which means my blood runs cold. I have a birth mark on my hip which gets stolen every other week. one day at a time. whatever happens, it’s for the better. once in an old house, soon in a botanical garden. my heart is beating, out on my sleeve, but my hand’s still holding the dagger. so much for better, better, better. I was only drowning because I had forgotten how to swim. or the waves got too strong, I couldn’t tell you; I wasn't looking. this time could be different but it could also be a tired re-run, a vision of something stranger I once thought I would not longer take part in. so how will the world end? it’s genuinely not something I think too much about. there are people to love and dishes to do in the meantime.

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attention

Back at the same pub after six years, I never asked for a stolen glance. I am getting a drink but you used to see right through me, and I fear when our eyes meet again you shall see how I am holding up, lying around as a foreign body, splattered and folded and bent all across the floor. Ashamed and tired but at least I have trusted with my eyes closed. You grin as you look at me, ask what I’ve been up to. I’ve been eating some peaches off some fine trees. I lit five candles at dusk. I haven't been able to pull myself together but I try again every day. I read at orchid windows and link pinky fingers for every little promise. I met a cat at night because I wasn't looking at my phone. And I worried about you when I took a walk on that hill. Too familiar, you say. Even now. But you look different. You look really, really well.

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for camp nano, my goal is to write as much as I can to finish draft 1 of Persona. just like my characters, I'm racing against time. (and a day job)

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another episode on writer things, editing

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PERSONA

CHICAGO TYPEWRITER X KILL YOUR DARLINGS X EAST-ASIAN MYTHOLOGY

At Yanluo Academy, seven students are cursed with flashbacks to their previous lives. Discovering that they are connected, they race against time and each other to prevent a dark fate that they can't seem to escape.

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a mock film cover for #Persona

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all by CHOGISEOK.

It almost feels like his work is made for #Persona.

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The world of #Persona.