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𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙗𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚, 𝙢𝙮 𝙘𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙙 ?

shoulders, weathered by the weight of the world, sag as if relieved. her head hangs low, her hands clasped together. a lamb, melancholic and so, so tired. " i need to get out of this town, father. " a statement said only in confessional, a flickering flame snuffed out by the weight of perceived sin. a trust reserved only for those who love her unconditionally ( but never enough to save her ).

BASICS

name: ximena guadalupe reyes nicknames: xime, mena age: twenty-four species: banshee gender: cis woman pronouns: she/her sexuality: biromantic & bisexual date & place of birth: may 15 in blackwater, co faceclaim: nailea devora occupation: hair stylist at goldie's salon & unpaid ranchand/butcher at reyes family farm notable characteristics: raven hair stretching down to her lower thigh, often tied into braids; a seemingly perpetual scowl, eyebrows knit together tightly with a matching pout; cowboy boots in all different colors; round eyes, often marked by circles; immediate panic when denied control; the scent of fresh peaches as she walks by traits: capable, sentimental, quick-to-judge, skittish, dogmatic, independent, stern, worrisome similar to: katara, luisa madrigal, padme amidala, princess belle

BULLET POINTS — * TW FOR PARENTIFICATION, MISOGYNY MENTIONS, DEATH, ANIMAL DEATH, ALL AROUND FAMILY ISSUES, RELIGIOUS TRAUMA (damn.)

– born in blackwater, co and was the youngest child for approximately five minutes, with her twin brother roman following thereafter. eight more siblings came. ( the eldest six siblings + parents can be found here, if for some reason you'd want to see ) — was the surrogate parent to her younger siblings since before she could even realize what that meant. work never felt like work if it was for those she felt responsible for — while the reyes' were not well-off by any means growing up, their parents always made sure she had what she needed, and because of that, she could never complain — third best, because while she is smart and capable, ximena is exceedingly ordinary to her mother. roman, by virtue of being a man, is first, and valeria, by virtue of being pretty, is second. their father, always working or transporting their products, largely doesn't pay attention (or maybe he doesn't care). — big dreams with nowhere to put them. in another life, she'd like to study bioengineering somewhere, a place she can reinvent herself. shed this ximena, morph into a butterfly. the invisible chain keeping her shackled to that goddamn farm and this godforsaken town stops that thought in its tracks. this ximena stays with her family, goes to cosmetology school because there's a gap in the market, and gets a sensible job that still allows her to help around the house and the farm. — more bitter than she'd like to be, would like to bare her heart every so often. suffocated by the weight of the town, of her family, yearning for something, anything else. she goes to confessional after for even having the thought. her parents sacrificed for her, and for their family, and so could she. finds her own little victories of softness, particularly when she butchers the animals — sings to them as they bleed, ensuring a peaceful slumber. — through all of this, ximena is changing. it starts as uncomfortable dreams, manifests in terrible visions and blood curdling screams — she's kept in the barn when this happens, away from the babies and relatively out of earshot, particularly for the prying ear of an employee. this is not a gift, it must be a curse, and she must be cleansed of her evil; newspapers that follow ximena's "episodes" tell of dead townspeople, and the reyes' pretend they don't know what it must mean. when she's twenty four and these episodes ramp up again, the reyes' close their farm to the public, laying off the rest of their employees until they can figure out what they need to do to vanquish ximena's evil for good.

HEADCANONS:

— the reyes family farm is primarily a cattle ranch, though they also have chickens, pigs, a select few bunnies (isabela's pets), & horses for the family to get around the large swath of land. the reyes' also have a couple orchards of nectarine and peach trees, which is one of their biggest money makers. — carries a rosary with her wherever she goes, prays every night, and church with the family every sunday. she isn't sure if she really believes anymore, but the mere thought paralyzes her, and so she forgets it. — kisses her cross necklace for reassurance, especially when she's nervous. — has beef with the reyes family rooster named ronaldo. fucking hates that guy. — kind of a klutz. trips over nothing no matter how hard she stares at the ground — the definition of yearning ... someone get her — up until quite recently (i'd say around 19/20), was usually accompanied by her twin brother and younger sister (their parents didn't like them being out without roman). always seen at various community events fussing over the two or her other siblings; prying eyes would say she was never quite able to relax...ever, really. no wonder she didn't get out much. — loves to sing! can often be found humming to herself while she's doing things & actually has quite a nice voice — wicked good at cooking + baking. shows her love through various baked goods — neurotic as fuck. always anxious and kind of a control freak, and then gets anxious about that, too — loves fiber arts! crochets & knits gifts for people as a love language <3 — has her own horse named angelica. she's chesnut brown & also the love of her life — has a very slight Twang in her voice <3

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NAILEA DEVORA for MADHAPPY (2024)

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CHARLES MELTON

by Blair Getz Mezibov for VMAN Magazine (August 2024)

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WHERE / the only park in blackwater, probably. mid-afternoon WITH / @d1ety, rory lovegrove

pandora used to skate a lot more, before ... well, everything. used to actually have fun doing it, believe it or not, drag her friends out to watch her do various flips and tricks on the lone little skating bowl blackwater has ( and forcing any skateboarders out in the process, of course ). now her rollerskates function more as a mode of transportation than anything, a way to get from point a to point b and hopefully relieve some stress in the process. except today it seems as if more stress is all that wants to plague her; she avoids him narrowly, light as a feather and little more than the gust of wind she creates as she speeds past him. pandora huffs and holds in the hiss she felt building ( her mother's voice saying ' that's impolite, pandora ' echoes in her ear. whatever ), " will you watch where you're going ?! "

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" if you don't want me to call it a stupid name then why do you guys give them stupid names ? i fail to see how this is my issue. " ximena's frown is deep as she regards rory ( not uncommon. poor guy ). a dark brow raises, arms crossing — she's never been very nice to rory, and perhaps she should be, if only for enzo's sake, but she's already annoyed; this coffee isn't even for her, it's for her mother who simply couldn't be bothered. and ximena doesn't even get to have one too ! she doesn't match his lean in, only leveling him with an irritated look, " it's a latte. i don't know. she said there's something ... spooky-ooky gooey green in it, or whatever. matcha ? please don't make me do this. "

OPEN STARTER ft. rory @ the spotted mouse cafe, early morning, while he's on shift.

" i swear to GOD you just made that up — 'cause i've been here, like, a year or somethin', and never in my life have i heard of an ... uh, what did you say, again ? " it could've very well been a completely normal order, perhaps mumbled or spoken a bit too fast for his brain to process at such an early hour — curse that opening shift ! regardless, rory is making much too big of a deal about a simple misunderstanding. employee of the month, truly. he leans in, elbows flush with the countertop now, making a point to face his ear square with the direct line to the other's mouth. " one more time, please — ugh, is it one of the autumn specials ? i don't know what the spooky-ooky gooey green — whatever it is — just like, tell me what's in it, dude, 'n i'll try my best. "

— capping at four replies ! 0 of 4.

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" s'like they're...haunted or somethin', yeah. " a nod, a sip of her shirley temple ( that she had to bring her own fucking grenadine for, by the way. piece of shit town doesn't even have cherry flavor at the local diner. she wonders if they just squeezed lemons and limes into soda water and got the — whatever. she's being silly ), " you ever watched jeepers creepers ? s'just like that. i don't know. don't fight anyone, please ? i can't fight and i don't got a gun on me. you're totally on your own. "

OPEN STARTER ft. lennon @ the rusty rail, anytime after sunset.

" people here do that a lot. " clipped words, attention tending to his breakfast for dinner more so than the one whom he had spoken to, despite approaching them to begin with. moments flew by, the one-two gulp of that late night orange juice — it wasn't his intention to be so cryptic, it never was, truly. just a tired man with a short attention span, especially with the scent of pancakes wafting through the air, is all. " stare, i mean. you notice that, too ? folks 'round here don't seem to give a shit 'bout looking directly at you — full eye contact 'n all. that shit'll get you knocked out in other places. "

— capping at 4 replies ! 1 of 4.

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BAILEY BASS at the Capital XTRA studio.

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SEX AND THE CITY (1998-2004) 4.01: The Agony and the Ex-tacy

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NAILEA DEVORA  via tiktok

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HALLOWEEN (2018)

dir. David Gordon Green

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a little grimace as round eyes come to rest on his charger. christ. " it's mangled, practically. think one of 'em was probably mad at you, wanted you electrocuted or somethin'. " pearl shakes her head, mentally 'tsk'ing herself. should she be paying more attention to her son ? making sure he's okay ? that he's not going around with mangled charging cords because she's too careless to just check and get him a new one ? pearl's overthinking, she knows it ( too well, even ), but that doesn't mean she can help it, either. " eh, somethin' like that. got a new shipment, had to come down to bake stuff early. here — " reaches over the counter to grab at the "FREE SAMPLE" plate, snatches a piece of a cookie and holds it out to him, " pumpkin dark chocolate. tried somethin' new, if it's bad, be nice. "

it's  easy  to  feel  like  he  doesn't  need  to  have  much  of  a  guard  up  around  his  mother  —  after  all,  she  did  raise  him  from  essential  birth.  knows  all  his  ticks,  and  his  laundry  list  of  fears.  so,  it's  an  easy  give  &  take  where  he  can  settle  down  the  quiet  army  in  the  back  of  his  mind  to  be  ready  to  destroy  this  thing.  “uh  ---”  a  pause.  which  was  he  looking  for,  again?  nevermind.  “any  of  them.  i  need  them  to  tell  me  who  ate  my  charger.”  those  tiny  tiny  teeth  marks  are  all  too  familiar,  and  actually,  maybe  they  should  invest  in  non  -  chewable  cords.  that  might  save  them  some  money  ..  and  him  getting  a  migraine,  but  anyways.  “i  can  do  it  -  don't  worry  'bout  it.  busy  day  here?”

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Seinfeld – 4.14: The Visa

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the leaves are turning and with them the seasons pass. reina has never been a particularly big fan of autumn — dirt turns to mud, moss to mush, rocks become slippery, and the air becomes biting the farther you get up into the mountains. all things that the bear could possibly forgive, had their grandfather not died in early october. it's an omen, of sorts, the seasonal change, one that makes reina's skin itch, eager to leave everything and start anew. if only she wasn't so cowardly. never a brave bear, not like their siblings.

" ... what ? " her attention is pulled from the grave in front of them ( maximus carillo, b. 1918 - d. 2020, beloved father, grandfather, and husband. reina thinks the stone is ugly ) to the groundskeeper, eyebrows immediately furrowing. looks around as if she's on an episode of punk'd with ashton kutcher before turning back, pointing to themselves as if to say ' you're talking to me ? ' " well — objectively, that's not true, which i'm sure you know, since you work here. i promise i won't disturb you by ... silently mourning ? my fault, i guess. "

who: kanda & anyone [ 0 / 4 ] where: garden memorial

mommy , i can't sleep .

kanda opened her eyes from where they had fallen closed , bright light filling her vision . she disliked hearing her own childish voice , laced with fear in a cry for help . it replayed too often , and kanda had grown frustrated at their inability to push it away . kanda liked the silence . even before everything had happened they had found comfort in it . the gentle hum in the air after everyone had gone to sleep , the hushed whispers in class when kids were trying not to get caught . it was calming and let the voices in her head kind of fade with it . in the corner of her eye she saw a disturbance to that quiet . the bright sun and crisp autumn air welcomed the inhabitants of bearhold to wander out of their jobs , out of their homes , and straight onto the grounds . "we're closed ," she stated , deadpan , even though everyone around her knew that at midday on a tuesday the memorial grounds would very much be open to visitors . but kanda had taken this job to stay away from people , so seeing them as often as she did was nothing short of a bummer .

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WHERE: the great bear wilds, manon's fire tower WITH: @monstrosism

" morning. "

it's approximately 5 am in the beautiful town of bearhold, the sun barely edging its way along the horizon. reina's decided to come out of hibernation ( ha, ha, laugh it up ), tired of licking their wounds and grumbling to themselves about how nobody understands her and eating raw salmon. she misses pozole, and the gossip at the garrison, and most of all, her bed. they're not quite ready to go home yet, though, the daunting task best saved for tomorrow reina. today reina wants to invade manon's watch tower, no doubt giving the other the scare of their life. comes to lay down in the bed, snuggling up in the soft comforter and letting out a sigh of relief. cotton, at last. " mama hooked you up with these blankets, didn't she ? no damn way boss man is givin' you this for free. s'like clouds. "

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a gust of wind makes you pull your jacket closed; notes of earth, raw as the day it was made, morning dew, marlboro menthols, and bergamot fill your nose. you think you hear rebel girl by bikini kill playing in another room. ah — it must be reina.

BASICS:

full name: reina julieta carillo nickname(s): rei, rein age: twenty-five  gender: demi-woman pronouns: she/they sexuality: does not give a fuck (unlabeled queer) date & place of birth: april 26 in bearhold, wa occupation: park ranger + bassist in mrs. andrist + town menace traits: rebellious, hot-headed, tempestuous, malevolent, chaotic neutral at best, avoidant, cowardly, angry, witty faceclaim: lizeth selene piercings: a myriad of ear piercings, a belly button piercing, a nose ring, more to come tattoos: all the cool ass ones lizeth has + various stick n pokes  similar to: ahsoka tano, jinx, johanna mason, janis ian, veronica sawyer, nancy downs, natalie scatorccio,

BULLET POINTS:

* warning for grandparent death & mentions of drugs + alcohol

BULLET POINTS:

– born the youngest child to one of the oldest families in bearhold. the carrillo's have been there for generations, driven out of their previous lands their ancestors protected, concentrated in mexico and parts of california before; eventually they were driven even farther north by constant hunting, settling in bearhold.  – growing up she was never unloved. still, she was rebellious – in reina's eyes, they could never live up to what their parents wanted, and could never be what their brothers were. the carillo fam is highly influenced by mexican values (often traditional ones), & from a very early age reina didn't align with those values .– while she knows her family loves her, reina often feels stifled by them. an abudance of protection & rules meant reina rebelling in turn, and growing up, tensions were always high in the carrillo household. reina found immense comfort in their grandparents, particularly their grandfather. a nearly hundred year old man with a lot of love to give and a fondness for her rebellious nature, he was her rock for a very long time, and the person who helped her through her first shift & the time after(he is who gave her her gold bracelet). –he died at one hundred and two years old, and it was the worst day of reina's life. she screamed and cried and destroyed her entire room. they shifted, then, and ran, right into the forest  – it made a bad night even worse. they weren't found for two days, and that was the longest reina had ever stayed in her bear form. they contemplated staying like that, but knew that isn't what their grandfather would have wanted.  – has three siblings (please please ple– wc imminent), two brothers and one sister. known to wrestle with them in both their human and bear forms.   – generally the most rebellious of the carrillo family, in part because she's so young. shunning their traditional values and paving her own way wasn't easy, but reina's family still loves her, and they know that. it's just hard to remember sometimes. 

– moving out helped. they now live in an apartment and don't have to have screaming matches every day with their family. patrolling the forests with them is easier, and she can avoid everyone quite easily.  – *points and laughs* stoner. probably has a case of mild alcoholism. escapism and such yk ... like ooooh u wanna be loved so bad ur escaping into that glass and that cig and that joint and that -- soooo bad rn ... – erm. kinda mean sometimes . very judgmental . really funny though, pretty witty and will always have a good comeback . also decently easy to get along with (somehow), can always be found in a 7/11 at like 4 am.   – in spite of her insanity she loves nature so much. it's where they feel most at peace, and protecting bearhold's forests is something they take very seriously (typically in the form of scaring the shit out of teenagers trying to party and litter). – currently runs a tiktok account where she documents her life being a park ranger + seeing the forests. has nearly 1 million followers and people wonder how she gets such up close content with the bears. jokes on you assholes they are one – is also currently the bassist for a riot grrrl punk band called mrs. andrist (future wc look out !). very passionate about punk n being evil also - will flirt with most people (milfs watch out ...), if only to be a little shit. they r not sorry

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lizeth selene via instagram