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cold water do not use warm water

Why can't I be a normal person I have a Miku shirt I wear all the time andb it's whirte and we had spaghetti today and I SPILLED IT ON MY SHIRT PLEASE MY LORD AND SAVIOR HATSUNE MIKU IMSORRRYYY

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disregard any post ive made in the past 24 hours i had a crisis dont worry about it

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how i feel after making another “how i feel after” post because its much easier to make a vauge statement that might prompt someone to respond than to make a post that is open ended and left so that it is clear that the intention is to start a conversation because i know well enough through trial and error that regardless of what i do i most likely will not get a response, and it is embarrassing to have a post that is prompting a discussion that will never occur.

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how i feel after resisting the urge to randomly vent because my body is made of nothing and my mind is dust

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btw you’ll never guess what prompted me to say this

my toxic trait is getting excited when someone tries to correct me about something, and the something is a thing i know more about than they do.

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its gotten to the point where before talking with someone im not comfortable with yet i’ll just. watch how they talk for a while so i can adapt

like i don’t necessarily pretend to be someone im not, but what i DO do (haha doodoo) is weed out the parts of myself that dont fit, and i just drop those behaviors i guess? obviously its not like its perfect. because there are things about myself i don’t think i can change, despite having tried for years

i really like talking. specifically about.. facts, i guess? i like talking about a cool new thing i learned or how the vocaloid community’s evolved over the years or a character’s arc and how they’ve changed and how i predict they will continue to change.. i just like talking.

i think my inclination to yapping is one of the reasons im friends with my best friend.. (heeyyy axel ik u will see this!) he lets me talk for hours. like literally hours on end with him giving very little imput. and i dont have to worry about causing him to distance himself or start to dislike me. because like. its been 7 years its fine.

but like even rn im yapping and idk if i’ll let this leave my drafts like with 7 million other rants ive gone on. but. i have so many thoughts and maybe i can give myself a little treat. just a little treat and post this one. maybe i make a sideblog just for talking. nobody will really care but its nice to actually get thoughts out there

how i feel after trying to have a normal conversation with people (and failing miserably every single time)

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my toxic trait is getting excited when someone tries to correct me about something, and the something is a thing i know more about than they do.

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how i feel after trying to have a normal conversation with people (and failing miserably every single time)

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Being plural is like

Woah I’m glad that breakdown is over, I hope no one saw that.

The fucking Grinch: Yeah

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yeah i don’t qualify for a dissociation disorder but maybe we should rethink this im starting to believe this is not a symptom of [disorder] but instead it IS [disorder]

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AHHHHHHH oh my GOD can i not dissociate for like a day maybe? like an hour? haha yeah like yes brain exactly nothing is happening therefore i must severely dissociate for exactly 7 seconds as i get up from my bed and walk to the kitchen. why did i teleport. i was just in my bed how the hell did i end up here. i walk back to bed and do nothing for exactly 7 hours straight. its time to play a video game. i have no idea what happened my brain hit skip cutscene in real life who is this npc and why am i fighting them. why am i here. i talk to friends. no, i dont apparently!! its been 4 days since ive said anything but it felt like an hour!!! time isnt real anymore

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I forgot to post this here..

I drew kaito with naoto fuuga's cats again ^_^

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blows up and explodes and dies.

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bugs when u lift up a rock:

Judge me from my collection of images I have on my phone to support me not being bad.

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listen this is only a marriage proposal to fover (female rover). with mover (male rover) she just wants to kidnap him and tie him to a bedpost.

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a consensual queen (she wants to kill rover)

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habit stop dissociating for two minutes challenge go level: impossible

guys i literally cant remember anything atp like… my dad will ask me to recite what happened less than a minute ago and i cant.

stop sending my memories to the void pls!!!!!!!! i need those!!!!!!!!!!!